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Chapter 151

Ember's POV"What about the curse?" I said.Knox looked at me."The not sleeping with the same person twice," I said. "Is that part of the wolf blood? Is that something I have as well?"He shook his head. "No," he said. "That is not wolf blood. That has nothing to do with what you are." He held my gaze. "That is specifically mine. A different thing entirely.""Tell me," I said.He was quiet for a moment.Not the managing quiet — not the kind where he was deciding how much I could handle. The kind where something lived that was not easy to bring out and he was finding the beginning of it.I waited."I was twelve," he said.I kept my eyes on him."My father had enemies," he said. "That is not unusual for an alpha — the position creates them, the decisions you have to make to hold a pack together create them. Most enemies were manageable. This one was not." He looked at the window. "A woman. She had been connected to the pack years before, before my father took leadership. When he took o

Chapter 152

Ember's POVKnox looked at the window for a long moment after he said it.The wolf would know before the person did.I sat with that and watched his face and did not push the silence anywhere. There was something in how he was holding himself — the set of his shoulders, the particular quality of the stillness — that told me the memory was present in the room with us, that the priest and his father and the night when he was twelve were right there underneath the surface of everything he had just said."You do not have to talk about it more," I said.He looked at me."I pushed," I said. "I asked you to tell me and you told me and I am glad you did. But I pushed and I can see that it is — I can see that it costs something." I held his gaze. "I am sorry for making you go back to it.""You did not make me do anything," he said."I asked.""I chose to answer," he said. "That is different." He looked at his hands briefly. "You asked because you deserved to understand and you were right to as

Chapter 153

Ember's POVKnox was watching me.I could feel it without looking at him — the specific quality of attention he had when something had registered and he was deciding whether to press it. I kept my eyes on the phone for a moment longer than necessary, giving myself the time it took to arrange my face into something that did not give away what was on the screen.Then I looked up."Who was that?" he said."Nothing important," I said. "Someone from my course about a submission."He held my gaze.The thing about Knox was that he had excellent instincts and he knew when something did not line up and he did not always announce that he knew. He had learned — or had always known — that announcing it immediately was not always the most useful response. Sometimes he just held the information and watched.He was doing that now.I looked at him steadily."Okay," he said. Just that. Not pressing it, not flagging that he did not believe it, just accepting the version I had given him and letting it s

Chapter 154

Ember's POVHe had said danger.I stood on the path and looked at him and the word was still in the air and I knew — the wolf instinct that had been sharpening for weeks, the thing that had moved my hand before I decided to move it — I knew he was telling the truth about that part. Whatever he had found out, it had frightened him. That was real.But it was not the only thing happening in this conversation."Tell me what you found," I said."First—" He stopped. He pressed his lips together. "First I need you to hear something."I waited."I am sorry," he said. "For everything. The way I treated you when we were together, the way I behaved when I came back, the notes—" He shook his head. "All of it. I am sorry for all of it."I looked at him."Okay," I said."Okay," he repeated. Like he had expected more than that and the brevity of it had caught him."I heard you," I said. "I am not going to tell you it did not happen because it did. I am not going to tell you we are fine because we ar

Chapter 155

Ember's POV"I forgive you," I said.Ethan looked at me."I mean it," I said. "Not because it excuses what you did. Not because we are going back to anything. But because carrying unforgiveness around is something I am not willing to do for the rest of my time on this campus and beyond." I held his gaze. "You are forgiven. That is what I can give you. That is all I can give you."He stood there.Something in his face went through several things quickly.Then his hand tightened on my arm."Then come back," he said. "If you forgive me—""No," I said. "Ethan. That is not what forgiveness means.""But—""Let go of my arm," I said."Ember—""Let go of my arm right now or I will scream," I said. "I will scream and there are students on every path within fifty meters of where we are standing and I will scream until every one of them comes running." I held his eyes. "Do you understand me?"He looked at me.For a long moment — long enough that the reality of it sat between us.Then his hand dr

Chapter 156

Ember's POVMorning classes had a way of making things feel more manageable.Not because they solved anything — they did not — but because the structure of them, the specific demand of being present and noting things and following a sequence, gave the brain something to do that was not the thing it wanted to keep returning to. I had slept badly and woken early and spent forty minutes staring at my ceiling before Rebecca stirred and the morning began in earnest.By the time we were walking to the first lecture I had managed, through sheer discipline, to think about the chemistry project for eleven consecutive minutes.That was the longest stretch I had managed since the party.Rebecca was on my left, Claire on my right. The main corridor of the academic building, the nine o'clock rush of students moving in both directions, the ordinary noise of a school morning. We were talking about something Claire had found in the campus press that was relevant to nothing but was amusing, and I was

Chapter 157

Ember's POVRebecca walked.She did not storm — she was not the storming kind. She turned and went down the corridor with the specific even pace of someone who had made a decision about where they needed to be and was going there, and she did not look back.I watched her go.Claire stayed for approximately four seconds longer. She looked at me with the flat, assessing expression that was Claire's version of concern — not soft, just present and taking stock. Then she said, "I need to get something from the printing office," and walked in the other direction, which left Ethan and I standing in the corridor as the morning traffic moved around us like water around two rocks.I looked at him."What you just did," I said."I needed to speak with you," he said."You could have called. You could have texted. You could have waited until I was alone." I kept my voice level. "Instead you chose to do it in front of Rebecca and Claire in a way that guaranteed they would find out I lied to them." I

Chapter 158

Ember's POVEthan looked at me."Anything," he said. "That is not a word I am using loosely. Whatever it takes. Whatever you need me to do. Whatever form the making-up takes." He held my gaze. "You name it and I will do it. That is the offer.""Ethan—""I am not asking you to take me back," he said. "I am not standing here with that as the goal. I know what you said yesterday and I heard it." He paused. "I am asking for an action. Something concrete. Something I can do that is not apologizing with words because I have apologized with words and you have told me what you think of that and you are right." He held my gaze steadily. "Give me something to do.""There is nothing—""There is always something," he said. "You are the most precise person I know. You have a list in your head of every wrong thing I did and the order I did them in and what each one cost you. I know you do because that is how you work." He said it without accusation — just the plain knowledge of someone who had spen

Chapter 159

Ember's POVThe lecture ended at ten-thirty.I packed my notes without looking at them and went out into the corridor and found the classroom Rebecca should have been in — her ten o'clock was on the same floor, three doors down. I knocked and opened it slightly and the lecturer looked up and I scanned the seats quickly.Rebecca was not there.I let the door close and stood in the corridor.She had either not gone to class or had left early and neither of those was something Rebecca did on a normal day. Rebecca went to class. Rebecca stayed for the full session and took notes that were better organized than the lecturer's slides and reviewed them the same evening. Rebecca skipping a lecture meant something had gotten past the point where she was managing it the way she normally managed things.I went downstairs and through the main building exit and across the path toward the sports field.It was the place she went when she needed the particular kind of quiet that came from being outsi

Chapter 160

Ember's POVThe silence sat between us for a while.Not uncomfortable. The kind that had things in it — things that had been said and things that were still finding their shape. Rebecca was looking at the field and I was looking at my hands and the morning was gray around us and neither of us was in a hurry to fill it.Then I said it."I am not going back to Ethan."Rebecca looked at me."I know that is what you are thinking," I said. "That the way I talked about him just now — that I still have something there that makes me read him as more than a threat." I held her gaze. "That is not what it is. It is complicated in a different way." I paused. "I am trying to understand what he knows. That is the thing I cannot let go of. Not him.""Then what is it?" she said.I looked at the field."I am in love with Knox," I said.The words came out plainly, without the careful management I had been applying to everything involving Knox for the better part of the semester. Just the sentence, plac

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