“Tell me what you mean,” Ethan said.His voice came through the phone low and present, the version of him that existed at midnight when there was no performance required and no one watching and just the two of them on either end of a line.“Your mother said stop saving yourself for later,” Bianca said. She was lying in the dark, phone against her ear, and she felt the truth of it the way she felt things now, fully, without the careful management of it. “I’ve been doing that my whole life. Not just with you. With everything.” She paused. “With myself.”“Yes,” he said.“I had this version of me that I kept for after. After the hospital. After the bills. After the marriage was repaired. After Zoe was well. There was always an after that I was saving the real version of myself for.” She looked at the ceiling. “And then the after never came and I just kept being the minimum version because it was the only one I had left.”He was quiet. The listening kind of quiet.“Tonight when Kemi left,”
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