Beautiful night with a full moon. Almost inaudible, vehicles passing by in this house. Different from where I live in the city. Only the nocturnal animals are singing out there. It was as if they were celebrating a clear night.
Even though the atmosphere feels good, it can't make my mood useful. I still feel uneasy. My heart is broken, and somehow I feel like I still want to kill myself. I feel like I have no more reason to live.
When everyone, my mom, my dad, Margaret, and Maria, was busy chatting, letting go of homesickness. I sat on the balcony chair behind the house. The wind blew the trees in the forest until they were seen dancing.
Now and then I think, is this what I need? I admit this place is tranquil. Trust me; the backyard view is different at night. The sunlight seemed unable to shine through the trees this afternoon, but at night the light of the full moon succeeded in making the forest visible. The light can illuminate the trees.
Suddenly I heard a voice, and I was stunned to listen to it. I listened to the wolf's howl again, this time it was more explicit, and I could be sure it came from the forest. I was stunned, staring closely at the woods, I didn't hear wrong. Because at that time again the wolf's howl was heard.
"Ahhh I'm bored", said Maria who came suddenly
"Arghhhh" I cried in surprise, seeing Maria standing in the middle of the door.
"What is wrong?" Maria asked in surprise. My eyes stared at the forest and Maria alternately.
"Did you hear that?" I said again asking
"What?" Maria replied now sitting next to me
"That voice, I'm sure I heard a wolf's howling".
"hah? That wolf maria "I replied tensely.
"Calm down, it's normal here, hahaha" Maria laughed mockingly for fear.
"What? Are you sure? Look, there's no fence there. What if they enter the house, I have to tell Dady to give a wall in this house, "I said intending to enter the house.
"Hey wait a minute" Maria held my hand.
"Awwww" I screamed when Maria touched the back of my hand. Again I feel the pain on my skin.
"I'm sorry" Maria immediately put her hand away.
"It's OK" I replied grimacing because the back of my hand was red like a sign of scalded wounds.
"You want me to get your medicine?"
"No need. it will disappear by itself."
"Hmmm, you take it easy. Those wolves won't hurt anyone. They keep the people here safe."
"hah?" I replied in surprise
"Yeah, it's like if there are firewood seekers lost in the forest, the wolf will show you the way out" Maria explained to me.
"OK" I replied, although I'm not sure this answer took my worries away.
"So you moved here because you made a scene in your city?" Maria smiled mischievously at me
"Yeah, surely my parents have told you everything".
"Hahaha yeah, they are proud to have a daughter like you".
"You are good at talking".
"Not really. May I read one of your novels? "
"hah?" I gawked
"You are a novelist. I want to read one of your books. I like reading, you know, I've fallen in love with some novels."
"Yeah, although I don't remember whether I brought my books with me here. We'll see "I replied halfheartedly. It's not that I don't want to show Maria the novel I wrote. I'm just sick of hearing about myself as a novelist.
"I'll visit often, ahh it's fun to meet new friends" Maria stood up while stretching her body. Looking at the way Maria was dressed, I wondered if she wasn't cold just wearing short jeans and a black tank top.
"Hmmm Grisella, you better come in. The moon is getting brighter; they are already partying. You will only be confused by their noisy howls," said Maria and walked away.
I was silent thinking about what Maria meant, like the words that often came out of her mouth 'they'. I don't know what Maria means about that word, never mind the cold air. I should just go back into the house.
It's a new day, and birdsong woke me up. I looked around my room; my things are neatly arranged. I turned my gaze to my bedroom window, a window almost half the size of my bedroom wall. Window with thick glass and covered by knit patterned curtains.
The first sight I saw was the backyard. I didn't even realize my room was like this. Maybe because last night I just noticed that the window was covered with curtains. But, not so bad. The view is soothing.
"Hi honey, I've prepared your breakfast, and this is your medicine", said my mom when I approached the dining table.
"Thank you, mom," I said, although I didn't taste it, I bribed my breakfast.
"Did you sleep well?" asked my dad
"Yeah, it's because the air is cold maybe" I replied small talk.
"You like this place?"
"Yeah, dad. Pretty good"
"If you are bored, Maria will take you for a walk, lots of interesting things out there".
"Hmmm, I don't know. We will see you later".
"I hope you can get well soon if you are here" it was my mom's turn to speak.
"Yeah, I hope" I replied
"Dear, me and your father, will be back home next week, is it OK for us to go?"
"What mom? Are you here with me for only five days?" I stopped eating my breakfast, looked at my mom and my dad disappointed
"Your father has to work, he can't take time off, and I have to do some things there. We'll often visit, OK? "
"No, I mean, I don't have anyone here".
"Hey, you usually live alone right?" said my dad
"Yeah, but it's different here. And you know what? I even heard a wolf howling last night, there isn't even a fence around here, if you guys want to come back, I'll be back "I protested.
"Wow, wow an easy lady. I will stay with you. What are you afraid of?" exclaimed Maria.
"Ah Maria, hey Margaret? You've had breakfast," replied my mom welcoming Maria and her mom
"I brought you fresh fruit," said Margaret
"I'm done," I said, throwing the spoon over the plate and leaving for the backyard.
Am I childish? My parents worry about me because I want to kill myself, then how can they leave me, it means they don't care about me. My eyes are blankly staring at the forest trees. If I hang myself there, maybe everything will end quickly.
"Don't you dare think you hang yourself there" Maria admonished me, awakening me from my reverie.
"How do you know?"
"You're predictable" Maria looked at me smiling. Her teeth look neat, making her even cuter.
"I lost everything", I said wistfully
"Who says it?"
"hah?" I answered
"You still have parents who care about you, you still have a house, you have money, and you still breathe." Maria smiled.
"But I was dumped by my lover, and my novel is not famous anymore then I got this strange disease".
"then? You can still write with your hand, and you can find other men. Why do you make life difficult?, Grisella listens, there are still many people out there who beg God just to breathe. Sometimes they are even afraid to close eyes, because tomorrow they may not be able to open their eyes again. All you need is to make peace with yourself."
"Hmmm, that sounds wise".
"Hahaha, hey, how about you come on a trip with me today? There are many things that you have to see here. You are lucky because there is an exhibition in the city center," asked Maria enthusiastically to me. I just nodded. There's Nothing Wrong with me, clearing my mind.
I followed maria step by step, during the trip, she seemed to be well known to every citizen who passed us. Indeed she has a friendly and cheerful personality. Maria even protected me from coming into contact with others.
"Look at that", said Maria pointing to several women who were dancing, they wore unique clothes.
"Their dance is wonderful," I said
"Look at that, that, and that," said Maria showing every event in the exhibition. I enjoy all the shows, as well as their fantastic food. Amid this crowd, I feel safe, because Maria is strict about me. Sometimes she stands behind me or guides me by tugging a little of my hoddie.
"Can you see, the far-right?" Maria whispered to me
"What?" I said spontaneously looking directly at the direction indicated by Maria. I saw a man from a distance.
"He's been watching you all this time," whispered Maria again.
"Don't be silly"? I said, I blushed.
"His name is Denis, he's cute, isn't he? He's Mr. Jacob's son. a man who is known to be rich because he owns a lot of land in this small town."
"Hey, I'm not asking you to explain anything to me" I replied irritably. Meanwhile, Maria laughed with satisfaction with me. Satisfied I enjoyed the exhibition I returned home. I want the day, provide a little entertainment for me.
This city is just a small town, and some residents look very friendly because maybe they socialize with each other warmly. Not to mention the unique things that I saw for the first time when all this time I was only used to nightclubs, fancy restaurants, parties, fans, cameras, and other things.
"Mom? You still have my phone, did you bring it here?" I asked as I unpacked the box containing my old stuff. I intend to find my novel for tomorrow. I give it to Maria.
"Mom?" once again, I call my mom.
"Yeahhh dear, what did you ask earlier?" said my mom
"My phone? Did you bring it here? "
"hah? Are you sure?" my mom smiled blandly. I know she intends to protect me from things that will stress me out. Like articles about myself or Delon, or other things that may now become memories in the Handphone
"Yeah" I replied firmly.
"I don't want you to dissolve in disappointment".
"Calm down, mom, I think I can do it, my heart is stronger".
"OK, how about you take medicine first for tonight, after that, I'll give you the cellphone".
"Ohh mom, no more drugs" I complained.
"You have to if you want me to give your cell phone" my mother smiled triumphantly.
I let out a heavy sigh, steadying my heart and mind just to turn my cell phone back on.
"Huff, you can Grisella, you can do it", I said. My eyes glimpsed the scenery outside my bedroom window. Especially if it's not a forest that looks peaceful at night. One sigh, I turned back on my cellphone. Just now, my cell phone was active.
Grttt ,,, grtttt ,,,, grrrttttt
My cellphone didn't stop ringing, and suddenly my heart felt tight. My breath is chasing erratically; various notifications appear on my cellphone screen. On reflex, I closed my eyes, oh my God what did I do
My hands are shaking holding my cellphone; everything is already done. There's no reason for me to back off, I'm just curious to see the incoming notification. There's a voice message from Claudia, she's my best friend and secretary, the editor in chief
'Hey, dear? I've been to your house three times? Why can't you call me, where are you? Where are you moving to? Come on, it's not over yet, OK? I'm going to try and get your manuscript back into Chriss, can you call me if you receive this message? I'll be waiting for you. I miss u.'
That's what I heard in the voicemail, it's only been a few days, but I think I miss Claudia. I'm helpless; my current state makes it impossible for me to return to like Grisella in the past again.
My eyes turned to several incoming emails, most of them journalists who were curious about me, I am a famous writer, I was hit by the rumor of being a strange writer and just disappeared. Look they didn't even ask me how I was; all they needed was hot news.
Then my eyes were perfectly rounded, making my heart beat faster when I saw the five missed calls from Delon. I don't know what to say. Delon trying to reach me? Is he worried about me? Yes, I bet Delon thought of me. If not for that, why would he call me?
A smile line etched on my face. There was a feeling of relief when I saw the name Delon on my cellphone screen. What else is the person who has cut ties with you, then suddenly tries to contact you again? It means he misses me as much as I miss him.
Without thinking, I immediately contacted Delon. Delon's first phone call did not pick up, again I repeated call Delon a second time. I bit my fingernails in nervousness.
"Hello," answered the male voice that I missed. Delon picked up my phone.
"Hi, it's me", I said nervously.
"Yeah, I know" Delon replied. I can feel his voice nervous.
"So I saw your call, I'm sorry. I do not know".
"It's OK, did you move house?"
"Yeah, maybe for a while" I replied enthusiastically.
"OK, as long as you need".
"Yeah, hmmm why did you call me?"
"Oh, is there something I want to tell you?"
"OK, what is it? Do you want to talk to me directly? I'll see you, OK? "
"No, I mean just now I say", said Delon.
"Is that important?" I asked curiously.
"Yeah. It's for good, both of us," his voice soft in my ears.
"Ough Delon. Hey, I'm OK, you know, I've forgiven you. Are you feeling guilty? Delon, I think our relationship,"
"I will be engaged", said Delon cut my conversation.
"What?" I replied in shock
"I will get engaged to Rosalinda." Delon spelled the woman's name more clearly.
"What are you talking about? How easy is that, Ros, Rosalinda? "
"Yeah, I don't know. It just happened".
"No, you can't do this to me. Rosalinda is my rival. You know she's trying to drop my career, right? "
"Yeah, you just don't know her, I mean she has a good personality".
"Delon, we've been together for four years, we've had success together. You promised only to marry me. What's wrong with you "I said not accept
"Nothing is wrong. I'm sorry, Gisella. You know how hard it is for me to get to this position, so please don't spoil what I have. I hope you don't make my relationship with Rosalinda ruined; her dad trusts me."
"What? You are like now, because of me, you know. Without me, you are Nothing. I'm the first to be famous than you. I make everyone know your name. Are you crazy? Who is trying the most? That is me. Who introduced you to the agency? That is me. Who gave you the funds for everything? That's me, "I protested.
"Act mature? You think with your career already like this, who will be more heard? You will only be devastated. Who is the weird writer? That's you. But thanks for everything you give, by the way. And I hope you didn't break anything." Delon immediately turned off the call
"Delon? Delon? Hello? Delon?" I shouted. I looked at my cellphone screen. The call has been cut.
"Arghhhhhhhhh" I shouted frustratedly and threw my cellphone against the wall. Hard enough to make the screen crack.
"Oh, God? What is it, honey?" said my mom into my room anxiously.
"I hate you, I hate everything, I hate, I hate my life" I shouted increasingly frustrated. my mom was forced to touch me, and again I felt the pain on my skin
"Arghhhhhh" I shouted, I struggled to grab my hair. My heart hurts more than my recurring illness.
"Oh my God, Grisella stop. Look at your body, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, "said my mom.
"What happened?" asked my dad.
"I hate everything" I shouted even louder. My tears are falling already. I'm completely devastated. I have no more reason to live. What will make me happy? There is no
"Wake up, watch your disease recur. It's so red," snapped my dad.
"Just bring me the medicine, the injection. Bring it here now "cried, my mom. She hugged me tighter. While I was crying uncontrollably, I won't be able to go through tonight alone. Who can make me get out of this suffering?
Grisella POV'You're useless, you're not famous, hey, I don't love you, I'm leaving, I'm leaving.'"Hahh," I woke up from my sleep. I had a terrifying nightmare just now. My eyes quickly swept over the surroundings. My bedroom window curtains are wide open; thick cloudy clouds look up there. I took a deep breath and exhaled roughly. The dream still feels real. Even when I sleep, I still feel the wound.The clock showed nine in the morning, the air was cool, but my body was drenched in sweat. It's not fair; I forced myself to fall asleep so that I would forget everything. But why do wounds still greet me even in dreams? Pain. My whole body now feels sore and sore. I have a small bandage on my arm. I'm sure they were injection marks. I stood slowly, even though it felt heavy, I stepped into the mirror."Look at you now, Grisella," I said, staring at the reflection of my face in front of the mirror. My appearance wa
Grisella POVMy eyes opened perfectly, just suddenly. I change my position to sit. My bedroom window curtains were wide open, showing a view of the forest that looked dark outside. My eyes turned to the wall clock. It was already showing one o'clock in the evening.I catch my breath. Somehow I jerked out of my sleep. I forgot to close the curtains on my bedroom window; to be more precise, usually, my mom will close it when I fall asleep. But this time, of course not, considering that only Maria and I are in this house right now."Now, I have to do everything by myself. That is why you have to enjoy your life when you are having a hard time". I got out of bed, intending to close my bedroom window. My hands stopped closing the window curtains when I vaguely saw someone behind a large tree. I tried to see more I clearly "what is human?" I said to myself. I rushed out of my room to the backyard of the house. I'm sure I saw someone leaning ther
Whenever my eyes open when I wake up from my sleep, and when my nasal cavity is still breathing in, I feel tight. I'm more comfortable in my sleep. I felt no pain, sorrow, or disappointment. But when I woke up, I remembered everything again.Everyone told me, 'hey Grisella, you're going to be fine, everything will pass.' Yeah, I know everything will pass, but no one knows how hard it is for me to fight with the time that feels like a long spin. Fighting second by second, day after day that makes me have to swallow harshly every time that disappointment comes"Where is Dennis today? why doesn't he visit" I complained to maria."You miss him now?" Maria smiled mischievously at me,"Don't get me wrong, okay, I'm just bored.""So if there's Dennis, you're not bored?""At least there is Dennis and Hendrik in this house, that's better," I replied"He went to see his mother. Every end of the month, it's always like
Grisella POV"Did you have fun while I was away?" asked Dennis to visit my house. As usual, I sat on the balcony of the backyard. The pine forest that looks cool managed to hypnotize me."Hey," I said, smiling."Where is Maria?" asked Dennis sitting beside me"Make apple juice for me. You've come back from your mother's place? "I asked"How do you know I visited my mother?""Who else. Of course, maria, "I replied."Okay. I also heard from Maria you have fun without me, "Dennis said to me."As expected, but I'm not having fun. To be more precise, I caused trouble. A massive problem for my family and me, "I replied wistfully."So you're a bad girl, huh?" sneered Dennis. Suddenly made me laugh, embarrassed at his words."Hey, you just came?" Maria asked, putting my apple juice on the table"Yeah, I just came," replied Dennis"Oh, I only made two juices. Okay, this is for Grisella and yo
Maria POVI sighed heavily, seeing Grisella, who mostly sits in the backyard now. She was also used to sleeping with her curtains open. The forest has become an exciting sight for her now."These apples are sweet," I said, eating the apple that my mom put on the dining table."Where is she?" my mom asked after washing the dishes."Where else if not the back yard.""Maria, I didn't expect her to meet one of the werewolves in there. Will Grisella be all right?""Mom, Grisella didn't do anything. So what are you worried about? She will be fine. ""She's really curious about the werewolf now.""Hmmm, I didn't expect it to be this fast. I thought the werewolves didn't want to show their form to just anyone. Even though Grisella is still new here. ""I don't want Grisella to get into trouble. she's already suffering enough for the problems she faces." My mom sighed heavily. I got up from my seat and approached
^^Grisella POVEver since I met the werewolf named Nessa, I had an uncertain feeling. There is something that pulls me into the forest. It felt like the world was so vast. I now live in a house, and it turns out that my life is side by side with people I thought were unreal.If I consider all the troubles I have been through, especially when Delon is engaged to my enemy, I feel that what I'm going through is just a dream. Even though they are all facts that I have to admit. Then how can I meet a creature that is almost impossible to be real? But I met them in front of my eyes."Why do you hide about them to me? They are real," I protested to Maria. I felt stupid myself for thinking werewolves weren't real. I felt stupid for believing that the werewolves were just legends."What's in it for you know they are real. Besides, you said yourself that you didn't trust them. I only support your thoughts, "Maria replied evasively. But what Maria s
^^Grisella POVI woke up from my sleep because I heard a sound that was quite noisy. I changed my position to sit, rubbed my eyes roughly, and immediately looked out my bedroom window. That's when I saw an unpleasant sight. There were already a lot of people working on things in the backyard. I stood up to my bedroom window. "Oh shiitt," I cursedI immediately ran out, until I unconsciously hit Margaret, who happened to pass by "Oh dear, what's wrong?" Margaret asked me. I caught my breath, "Hiuuff, what's out there? What are they doing?" I asked. Margaret frowned. She paused for a moment, "Grisella, did you forget? You asked me to make a fence in the backyard, right? So they made it for you," Margaret replied. I shook my head, not to accept it."No, you can't do it" I ran back to the backyard then shouted, forbidding the men to build a fence. I screamed hysterically as loud as I could for them to stop their work. "You all hear? I don't want you to build that fe
^^ Grisella POVThere is a different smell that smells to me, like something moist. I don't know. I find it hard to explain. That scent made me open my eyes. More precisely, I forced my eyes open. My eyes felt heavy, and when I managed to open my eyes, my head was throbbing very painfully "Oghhh," I complained, holding my head.With difficulty, I change my position to sit. I wake up in a room that is foreign to me. My eyes greeted my surroundings. This is a place I've never been to before. I just realized that my body now only wears a tank top; my right arm is bandaged. I briefly recalled what had made my arm wrapped like this. The man named Nathan hurt me until my arm was bleeding like this."Is there someone here?" I asked in my low voice, my throat hoarse. I don't know where I am now, and I still don't know who helped me. "Hey? is there someone? "I said again. I'm not sure someone heard my screams that low. I let out a heavy sigh, confused at the situation I