A new relationship is unknown territory, and most of us have natural fears of the unknown. Letting ourselves fall in love means taking a real risk. We are placing a great amount of trust in another person, allowing them to affect us, which makes us feel exposed and vulnerable.
Our defences are challenged. Any habits we’ve long had that allow us to feel self-focused or self-contained start to fall by the wayside. We tend to believe that the more we care, the more we can get hurt.
I was so nervous when I got home it was like Olivia would see right through me how I was feeling.
Everything was clean like we didn't make it a mess last night. I went to check on her in my bedroom and she wasn't there... Then I checked all the other rooms.
My heart started beating faster on my chest when I didn't find her. Where could she be? I was stupidly thinking she left already. I mean she sent me a text earlier.. What if I read that fast and didn't notice she said today and not Friday.
God.
I went back
