Are they in the kitchen right now? She probably takes her to that restaurant I always wanted to go to that she said we would one day go when we were officially in a relationship. Do they hold hands? Oh God yes they do that a lot I bet they are doing it right at this moment? I bet they’re kissing even more now. Maybe they are also having sex right this very second, on the kitchen counter? On the couch? Maybe on the floor?. They are probably using toys because Tawny loves them…
In my mind, I stupidly played out scenes from our life together. Except now my role was being played by someone who might be sexier, more fun, and more interesting. I saw my Ex — the happy, sweet, amazing, funny, caring, fun one I first fell in love with — sharing the best parts of themselves with someone else who wasn't me.
I hated my mind for taking me to that dark place.
It was worse coz it was at night when there were no distractions whatsoever. The joy and passion I envisioned for them were suddenly made all
