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“I found out I was pregnant at the ER, after Sarah rushed me there after I overdosed.”
Do you know how the world just freezes for a moment - just a moment - and you can’t move a muscle even if you try so hard, and you can’t breathe because there is no air around you.
Just for a moment, the whole world just freezes.
And you are fighting against it with all the muscles in your body, and suddenly it just unfreezes and your body just jolts out of control.
That’s how I felt.
I stood up too fast, knocking the dining chair backward and stumbling, my last second reach-out to the edge of the dining table saving from tumbling backward after it.
And Olivia just sat there like she was talking about the weather. Like she had not just told me that she had tried to take her own life. Because of me.
All the puzzles fell into place.
When I pretended to be depressed, when I pretended to be wrecked by the guilt of my wrong-doings, she stayed because she
