I just can't live without you
2 years back
A girl sat on the bathroom floor with blood flowing through the glass shards on her palms
Staring at the wall where the broken mirror showed her crooked reflection.
Ugly
Unfaithful
Betrayer
Deceiver
Were the words floating her mind as she sat numb under the pressure of her own thoughts and accusations.
With no one to ask her if she was fine and no one to take her out of her misery she stayed there till the light outside changed to darkness.
Only when the lawyers phone ringed next to her did she woke up from her state and looked around.
The white tiles were coloured in red blood and pieces of glass were all scattered around.
Balancing herself up she reached the phone and accepted the call with bloody and shaking fingers.
"He...llo."
Came her weak voice
"Hello Miss Sapphire...I wanted to inform you that $1 billion has been credited to your account...Mr Romano agreed to our terms and you are required-"
"I don't want it"
She spoke without stuttering with voice strong and decision firm.
"What!!? Miss Sapphire we fought this case for so long.....and now when we won you are backing out...?"
"The entire amount is to be transferred to Romano Charity Fund in next 29 days but in instalments...the Interest for these days is to be credited in my personal account...make sure he doesn’t know who is sending it."
"But why are you doing this...We worked so hard. You will loose 1 billion ...do you even realise how much it is??."
"I don't think I need someone else to explain me worth of money Mr Ryan. Your payment will be made to you once final transaction takes place...nice working with you Ryan bye"
With this she cut the call and her heart relaxed knowing that for the first time in her life she was doing something good.
She placed her hand under the cold water and began mending the wounds .
With dull eyes and shattered soul she managed to smile and get back on her feet again.
I will survive...
She believed and she did
She managed to survive without him but she never was able to live again.
1 year ago....
Today was the hardest day of her life...
It's been 2 days since she had a full meal
3 nights since she had full night sleep and 1 hour since the landlord refused to let her stay any longer.
Her condition was worse than ever before....
She was poor earlier but now she was degraded to the level of homeless ,penniless and helpless girl.
Stalling the streets of New York with pockets empty, heart broken and soul shattered was a girl no one knew.
A girl who didn't exist for anyone
Except him...or maybe not.
Since last 1 hour she has been searching for a job
Highest pay till now was for that of a stripper...something she will die before doing..
Next best was for being a maid to a 60 year old man who made perverted demands .
Next was for being a glass cleaner. But for that also she being a acrophobic was the worst candidate..
The last one was of cleaning and washing cars at a gas and service station.
This one was best according to her...even though less in pay it was still enough to feed her empty stomach...and not forgetting the fact that she loved cars.
But even her luck was not at her side as when she went to accept the job it was already taken by someone else.
"What will I do ? It's already getting dark...where will I stay....."
With her left leg and arm numbing in a weird pain and her head throbbing at an alarming rate she managed to find a bench just opposite the food stalls.
Empty stomach she didn't even realise when she slept...only when she woke up did she realise how dark it was and how deserted the area looked now.
Feeling scared all of a sudden she pulled the shawl closer to herself and looker around.
The next second the worst experience of her life got it's beginning.
Her eyes locked with that of a group of boys who had cigarettes in their fingers and bottles in their hands.
She cursed in her mind and turned to leave but it was already too late.
They blocked her path and started encircling her...
Her body trembled as her fear was turning into shock.
While they feeded on her fear and stepped closer to her...
"Man she is not that bad...See that ass ?"
"I will give her a 6 .....just above average..."
Their dirty words were fuelling her shock with anger...but her anger was releasing in form of tears...
"M..ove.. awa..y...."
She spoke in a broken voice but they did the opposite.
Within seconds she was lying on the ground with her body pressed under weight and shawl no where to be found.
She struggled but it just aggravated the attacker's anger..
Her top got torn into pieces with his rough hands pulling on it..
As cold winds touched her did she realise what was going to happen.
And the first word that left her helpless lips were 'Andro...'
As another arm of her top got torn her mind prayed only one thing
'Please save me Andro....please...'
But it didn't stopped
No one came to her rescue
Only the laughs and perverted talks of these animals could be heard.
She couldn't take it any longer
She broke
But not before breaking them..
Since she was a child people called her crazy. She used to do things that no other person dared to and today also she did it.
She saw blood and that was what she gave them.
A big rock laid on the ground covered with blood as screams of pain escaped her attackers mouth.
But that was not enough...her sanity was at bay and she was seconds away from loosing it.
With a metal tin cover of a dustbin acting as her shield she banged her shield in other one's head.
He came collapsing down at her feet as she looked at others with eyes no man ever saw before.
Eyes of a killer...eyes of an insane women whose sanity was taken away by this cruel world .
She could even kill anyone right there and then and this was clear in those burning orbs.
But physical strength is dominant to mental strength...
And she lacked it..
Only when 5 of them started coming her way did she realise that this was not her niche..
She knew she could shed blood and stop one of them but not all.
Deciding instantly she left her weapons and ran at full speed away from them.
Without looking behind she ran directionless.
Her mind still showed his smiling face..
Her skin still made her feel his velvety touch
And his eyes made her cry harder.
She doesn’t remember how long or where was she running to.
Only when did her legs gave out did she stopped to hold her breath.
But that was her worst mistake.
There they stood passed the road ready to tear her to pieces.
She tried to move but her body had betrayed her..
With strength gone, courage worn out and soul shattered and damaged irreparably.
She stood her ground ready to accept her fate at last.
But even she didn't know that fate had some different plans when bright light blinded her eyes and strong force made her fly above the ground she stood on.
The screeching voice of the tyres of the truck were not heard by her numb mind but it's brutal deadly force was definitely felt by her.
That day she broke both mentally and physically and the worst part was that no one cared if a already discarded toy was broken or not.
As she felt herself getting ready to land on her death bed ...she again imagined his loving face saying how much he loved her...
With this last happy memory a cracking sound was heard as her body touched the ground....
Sapphire's pov
I woke up with a jerk as my memory resurfaced.
That memory was enough to make Goosebumps appear on my body and sweat beads to appear on my forehead.
"Ma'am it's alright ...you are fine. Please lay down"
Spoke the nurse as I looked around to see myself in a hospital.
My memory revived and I relaxed knowing that now I will be fine.
"W...ho brought...me here?"
"Mr Romano did as you were diagnosed with a severe case of drug overdose"
"Oh"
I replied realizing all this was my mistake in the end.
"When can I leave?"
"When the doctor says so miss Brown....as for right now please cooperate and lay down."
I listened
But soon my peace was disturbed when Andro's mom entered
She ordered the Nurse to leave and started
"I see you are awake....here take this blank cheque and leave my son alone ...he is happy now don't eclipse his happiness again miss Brown"
So smooth I thought
I know she is a mother and wants best for her Son which I am not
But she doesn't understands what he means for me.
I gave her a polite smile and tore the check.
Her mouth opened in shock as she stared at my Iv loaded hands and torn pieces of paper
"I know how you feel about me....with due respect I never mean to offend you in any sense....but my very love for your son offends you....you can stop me from misbehaving....you can stop me from any damn thing and I will listen to you....but if you ask me to leave my life....I am sorry but I just can't leave my life...'
" I can't leave your son...he is my life...I can't live without him....I tried...I tried very hard but I failed miserably...."
"Forgive me Ma'am but my life cannot be counted in zeroes and transferred in banks ...it lies in your son and I want him back..."
She smirked and replied
"He no longer cares for you....he may be your life but his life now pivots around someone else...be Careful Miss brown ....broken pieces do hurt if you try to collect them."
I gave her a sad smile
"Who is trying to collect broken pieces Ma'am....I am just trying to learn to walk on them".
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Petty tasks enormous pressureFew weeks laterI was back to normal nowAndro not even once came to visit me and I somewhere in my heart did felt bad.But again who was I to expect when I don't even deserve him.Today I resumed my work and the first duty was to clean his bedroom.I was aware that Andrea and him were sharing the room since last one month but my heart was not ready to accept that they were sleeping together.As I knocked and opened the door the sight that welcomed me opened my eyes into reality.Both of them were sleeping peacefully ..Andrea's head was resting on his chest while his arm engulfed her waist.They were cuddling together and involuntarily a memory flashed in my mind that made me take a step back...Flashback"Stay" He spoke a single word but his eyes conveyed millions
Inferno of emotionsHis heart was brokenCracked into two by events of pastWhere the other part was hidden by him somewhere where it could never be found again.She knew his heart like her ownAs once they beated as a whole.She was going to mend his broken heart.Even if she had to break her own heart into two,Just to complete the jigsaw of his heart's missing part.Even if after it her heart would be sacrificed but stillknowing that his heart was complete she will be satisfied....................................................................Walking down the streets alone with your phone battery dead, at 11 o clock at night. Through a deserted street with sounds of cats meowing and stray dogs growling is an indication of a bad omen.Unless an angel comes and removes the albatross from around your neck.
Hate PersonifiedI know he hates me now...But to this extent....I could have never imagined....Yesterday I was fired from my jobLast night my clothes were literally thrown out of his mansion..And today I was refused each and every job I interviewed for....They simply rejected me with one line"You shouldn't have messed with such a powerful person"Sitting on a bench with my suitcase at my feetA sub in my handAnd few bucks in my pocket was ISapphire brown drowning in my tears.The teardrops were reaching my lips as I took another bite.They made my food salty but that was my least concern.I was hopeless. Penniless...homeless. Jobless and what not.What will I do now?Where will I sleep....It's nothing new...I have been in this condition before but the results have been alwa
Mission to devils caveA heartbreak is not the end of this worldBut deception is.A rejection can only hurt youBut a betrayal kills you.But you can still surviveYou can survive if you freeze your heart and lock your emotionsYou can survive in the shell of a person you once were.And today I just happened to realise how strong of a shell Andro had build around him.As I came out of the bathroom fully soaked in water and back in my senses I was met with his presence.Sitting on the sofa ,scrolling down his phone."1 month"He spoke without looking at me"1 month you have to leave this town and never come back..all your needs will be provided with. You could find a decent job and live your own life without messing with mine...best for both of us"He got up to leave but I will not accept my
Deal with the devilI closed my eyes with my arms engulfing myself trying to protect me from the unknown.My heartbeat was increasing with each passing second and I could feel my hands starting to shake.Minutes passed and my condition worsened in anticipation.A panic attack was in making and me forgetting today's dose of my medicine was a catalyst.He was silent...only his strong cologne and cigar smoke intermixing could be felt.Finally after waiting for too long I decided to open one eye.He was very close...his fingers held my brown locks with which he was playing.."I....I...a...m so..rry...I... didn't..meant.to....""Just shut up your pretty mouth belle"I zipped my mouth shut and breathing became difficult.My chest started moving up and down faster as tears stinged my tears..The pain is startin
DeceivedI was desperate for his forgiveness...Desperate beyond limits...And maybe that's why I was standing here in Henry's office ,handing him over the file behind Andro's back.As I made way out of his office and the news of Henry's final confirmation to the project spread my happiness had no limits.I was sure Andro will be very happy after all this project was his dream project and also one of the biggest.He was celebrating his victoryBut his celebrations involved being with her and not me.I must admit I never saw Andro as happy as he is today..With her in his arms he is staring at Andrea with so much love ."Oh god Alex I can't believe....I am so happy for you..."With this she captured his lips...I should look awayI know but I can'tMy eyes wanted to see it...to feel my heartbreak...to f
Ending the painI granted his wishI never showed him my face again6 months have passed since I last saw himJust 6 and it feels like I haven't met him in eternity.How is life if you ask?Well it's stagnant...boring...dull. DepressingI got a job after all...I am not very proud in telling what is it.But at least it is the only one I have."Sapphire!! You are needed here!!"I looked around to see my co worker holding out the garbage bag for me.I grabbed it and made my way towards the dumpster in the alley.The clothes I wore were not at all decent.It was my work dress so I didn't had a choice.Night was approaching and my shift was going to start.Breathing a long sigh I searched my pocketPlacing two tablets in my mouth I was ready to go.&nbs
Chapter 16 {9°Celsius}Where are you now?Alessandro Romano p.o.vStaring at her back as my mind registered her wordsA disastrous kind of a storm broke inside me."I was a mistake...I was discarded in dump......I don't deserve happiness....you will not have to see this ugly face anymore.... don't have to touch this disgusting body.... congratulations....goodbye......"No!!This can't be it.I should be happy that she finally decided to leave forever.But then I don't know why a feeling of dread enraptured inside me... like my very soul was getting separated from me.Like by not stopping her right now I was committing the biggest mistake of my life.She said she was a mistake...agreed ...but she was my life's most beautiful mistake.Those years with her were the golden period of my life.She said she is ugly.