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I should be at home sitting in my chamber and icing my wounded thigh, pretending that my career isn’t hanging by a thread the width of a piece of dental floss. Instead, I am sitting in the darkest corner of a wound down bar. In my hands is a glass of whiskey that cost less than my socks. Somewhere to my right, is the sister of my arch nemesis who is busy assassinating my character to a guy that looks like he hasn’t showered in decades. “There is no loophole for being a bitch!” Anahera yells, her voice cutting through the hum of the bar. I take a slow sip of the burning liquid. Bitch. Nice. Now add that to the list of pompous, ugly, arrogant. She’s really quite the resume for me. I watch her over the rim of my glass as she vibrates. Her hands are flying around, punctuating her sentences with enough force to send her partner flying. She looks frantic and beautiful and completely unhinged. Would I be mad if I say how much I like it? I shouldn’t be here. I came to take the edge off after she stormed out of my house this morning. And I needed to not be in a space that smells floral and maddeningly clean. So I came here. And of all the gin joints in all the town, she walks into mine. “I think you should both meet and talk about it,” the drunk guy slurs, sway slightly on his stool. “Clear things up. In that way, you keep your job and he keeps his legs. Win-win.” I snort. The guy even makes more sense than she does. Then, Anahera sighs heavily. She looks helpless in a way that makes me want to feel pity. “God! The way he kissed me felt so unreal,” she moans, burying her face in her hands. The whiskey stops halfway down my throat, and I freeze. Unreal. The kiss. “I just want to grab him by the shirt and… and…make that moment last so I can get him out of my system. Is that right?” Instant heat flares in my chest but it’s not anger. It’s something much more dangerous. She wants to get me out of her system? What the hell does she think I am? Some virus? Did she think kissing me again is the cure? I set the glass down with a hard thump. The drunk guy blinks then and his eyes drift past her shoulder, locking onto me. He squints like I’m a physics equation he’s trying to solve. “Um, no offense soul sis,” he mumbles. “Maybe I’m high off my mind but this Adonis of a man has been staring at you since you got here and I don’t think it’s for the right reason.” Adonis? I’ll take it. “W-what?” Anahera stammers, turning her head. The moment our eyes lock, color drains from her face so fast I think she might pass out right there. Her eyes feel with a panic that is deeply, satisfyingly pure. She sees that I’ve heard every word. At least that is what her expression screams. Her mouth moves, “fuck me.” She doesn’t say it out loud but I hear it. She scrambles off the stool like her ass is on fire, grabbing her bag with fumbling fingers. She doesn’t even say goodbye to her drinking buddy. She just turns and bolts toward the exit. “Oh, no. you don’t get to run away this time, Anahera,” I mutter under my breath. Tossing a bill onto the table, I shoot up to my feet. A sharp spike of pain shoots up the muscles in my inner thigh which I ignore. I’ve got bigger fish to fry. The adrenaline of the chase is a much better painkiller. I follow her out into the night where it is freezing my balls out. I see her car under the flickering orange glow of a streetlamp. Frantically, she jams her key into the lock and mutters curses that would make even a sailor blush. “Open! Open, you useless piece of metal!” she hisses. I slow my pace, enjoying the view of her struggling. Terrified? Good, she should be. I stop right behind her just as the lock finally clicks. She grabs the handle but I slam my hand against the door to hold it shut. The thrill that goes through me at the sight of her discomfort pleases me to no end. She gasps, spinning around. I was right. She is scared. “Going somewhere?” She looks up at me with wide eyes. “You followed me!” her breath smells of cheap tequila. “I walked out of a bar,” I correct her, leaning in until I’m sure I’m invading her personal space. “You just happened to be fleeing the scene of the crime.” “What crime?” she squeaks. “I didn’t do anything!” “Slander? Defamation? Conspiring with a bum to assault a patient? Divulging patient information?” I tick them off on my fingers. “I heard your little plan, Hera. You want to grab me by the shirt and kiss me to get me out of your system?” Her face flames red. “I was drunk! I am drunk! It was just…metaphors! Besides you only have a face relatives can love.” “Metaphors,” I repeat. “Is that what we’re calling it?” “Get away from me, Noel,” she snaps, trying to regain some semblance of that fiery attitude she had this morning. She pushes against my chest. “I quit. I’m done. I’m calling Tiare in the morning and telling her I can’t work with you because you’re a…a stalker!” My voice hardens. “You are not quitting.” “Watch me!” “If you quit, I will destroy you.” The humor in my voice bleeds out completely. She freezes with her hands still pressed against my coat. “What?” “I have cameras, Anahera. My penthouse is wired with high-definition audio and video. I have a recording of you wishing physical harm on a patient. I have you calling me ugly and hoping I stay crippled.” It’s a half-lie. I have security cameras, sure. Did they pick up her audio perfectly? Maybe. Maybe not. But she doesn’t need to know that. Her mouth drops open in shock. “If you walk away,” I continue, leaning down so my face is inches from hers, “I will send that footage to the licensing board. I will sue your agency for breach of contract and emotional distress. I will make sure you never touch a patient again. You’ll be lucky if you can get a job walking dogs.” “You’re bluffing,” she whispers. I tilt my head. “Try me. I’m Noel Rautio. I don’t lose and I definitely don’t let the sister of Dominik whatever-his-last-name is dictate my recovery.” “You are evil,” she seethes, forcing herself to focus. “Wrong. I am motivated. Here is the deal; you show up tomorrow and do your job. You keep your license and I keep my mouth shut. We finish the twelve days. You disappear after and I go back to my games fully mended.” Tears spring to her eyes. “I hate you.” “I don’t care about you or your feelings, Hera. I don’t care where you are or who you talk to. The only thing that binds us together is this injury.” She’s trapped and she knows it, staring at me with so much emotions swirling in her eyes. I can see the wheels spinning in her tequila-soaked brain. Then, something shifts in her eyes. The fear recedes and in its place is a sudden boldness. The glaze of intoxication has been pushed to the side. She lets out a little laugh. “You don’t care huh?” she slurs slightly. She steps away from the car and sways toward me. “Anahera?” I frown, not liking the look on her face. She reaches up and grabs the lapels of my coat with a surprisingly strong grip. She forces me to hunch over so our faces are level. Her eyes drop to my lips. “You say you don’t care, yet you followed me. You’re standing here in the freezing cold after you refused to let me go. Admit it, Noel, you are obsessed with me.” My breath stutters. “You’re delusional.” “Am I?” She licks her lips and I track her movement with a swallow. “You heard me say I wanted to kiss you. Is that why you’re here? You want to help me get it out of my system?” My heart begins to hammer against my ribs. It’s a good thing she doesn’t have super hearing. I’m beginning to think cornering her at the parking lot was a terrible idea. For one, the hunter has become the hunted. Two: she’s drunk, my employee and my enemy’s little sister. The paparazzi could be hiding somewhere at any minute now but God help me, I want her to do it. “Do it then,” I challenge as my voice drops to a growl. “Prove me wrong.” She gives me a crooked, sleepy, beautiful smile then pulls me closer. I close my eyes, bracing myself for the contact of her lush lips. Waiting for that soft peppermint tasting mouth to hit mine again. We both lean in. The next sound is that of something wet and unmistakable. My eyes snap open just in time to feel a warm, heavy wave of liquid splash against my chest and my neck, and–Oh God–my chin. “Oh my god,” I choke, releasing the car door and stumbling back. She heaves again, splattering some more on my boots before she wipes her mouth with the back of her hand. “Oops…Did we win?” Her eyes roll to the back of her head and before she crumples to the ground like a puppet with no strings, I lunge for her. “Anahera! You have got to be kidding me,” I grumble to the universe. She’s dead weight in my arms. I stand there in the middle of the parking lot, covered in tequila-vomit. That’s when it dawns on me that I can’t leave her here. I don’t even know where she lives. She mumbles something in her sleep and nestles closer into the mess she made. I look down at her peaceful face and I decide I like her a lot better with her mouth shut. Yanking myself back to the present, I realize that the only option available to me is parked seven cars across, the key sitting in my soiled breast pocket. “Merry fucking Christmas to me.”ANAHERA When game night rolled around, I ditched my sweats for a cream cable-knit sweater, dark jeans and knee-high boots.A little mascara, lip gloss and a quick ponytail later, I grabbed my purse and headed out.Thunderous cheers met my hearing when I pushed open the door that led to the arena for the game. Despite the chilly air, my fingers were moist with anxious heat. My whole body in fact.I looked at my card, wondering if I’d ever be able to figure out my way in this crazy maze. Just as I turned, someone bumped into me as they walked past. The string of insults that had bubbled up suddenly felt useless against my tongue when I realized it was an elderly man.The greying salt and pepper hair peeking from under his hat gave him away.“I’m so sorry, miss.” I caught onto a flash of green orbs before he tugged down his cap and walked away. “Okay, weird.” But who was I to blame him? The whole place thrummed with anxious energy, energy I knew would soon infect me. I just needed
ANAHERA By the time I walked into a grocery store the next day, Emilia’s confusing words had been filtered out of my mind. I strolled through aisles, picking up the things I needed according to the list on my phone. A blizzard was approaching in a few days. What better way to prepare than to get locked in? I slowed to a stop in front of the meat freezer, lip pursing when I couldn’t find the item I was looking for. “Excuse me?” I called to an attendant nearby. “The chicken breasts used to be on this aisle.” “That’s because they were moved to the front, smarty pants. The label says so,” he replied dryly. I considered laying a complaint about his bad behavior and then on second thoughts, paid no mind to his rude tone. He could already be having a bad day. There was no need to pile dealing with the HR on his list of worries. Just for today, I’d let this one go. “Will that be all?” The cashier asked, without looking up from her screen where she calculated the total
ANAHERA If a microphone was placed against my chest, everyone would hear for themselves how ferociously my heart was pounding. And not like he’d done too much. Words. Words were all he used to affirm the things I wanted to hear. ‘I’m yours if you’ll have me…’It’d taken me every sheer will in my two hundred and six bones to not catapult myself into his arms and done something I’d probably be regretting now. But they were just words. Shawn said enough words and yet walked away without any. A tap on glass booted me out of my reverie. I looked to the source, slightly surprised to see Noel there. “Eyes on me, princess.” Then with a wink, he skated away to join the rest of his teammates. If I wasn’t seated in the front-row glass seats behind the home bench, I’d have melted on the goddamn floor.I didn’t know what he really meant. Was it eyes on him to watch him play? Or eyes on him for his movements?Either way, no one said I couldn’t do both. As a professional, I looked closely
ANAHERA “I cannot for the life of me figure out why there are photos of us on my brother’s phone. Has he been spying on us?”The slight raise in my voice earned us the attention from the next table. We were seated in the private lounge in the place Noel had drunk-dialed me from weeks ago. Somewhere called Honey and Rye. He looked as relaxed as ever in his chair with one arm draped over the back of mine. Only I knew that he was anything but. The look of alarm that crossed his features after my reveal said otherwise. “And you said the number matched with the one sending you threats?” He took my phone, peering at the screen. “Interesting.” “Interesting? This freaks me out, Noel!” Then casting a furtive glance, I suppressed a shudder. “The stalker could be anywhere in here, watching us.”His eyes roamed around as well before settling back on me. “Either your brother is paying someone to watch you or it’s one of my crazy exes.”I didn’t like his flippant tone when he mentioned his e
ANAHERA To say I was taken aback by Dominik’s words paled in comparison to what I truly felt after hearing him. So loud. So confident about something he was so wrong on.He’d let his hate for Noel become an obsession that overrode every good quality he used to have. Appalled, I hissed, dropping my voice low. “You can’t go around accusing an innocent person of murder.” His eyes narrowed, glinting with malice. “It’s not an accusation if it’s true.” Now that was where I crossed the line. “Noel never did anything to our parents. If you want to blame anyone for ruining our perfect family, blame me!”The memory remained evergreen, living rent free in the back of my mind. How could I forget? We were a happy little bunch, a family of four before everything went downhill because of me. “If I’d listened and stayed put, I wouldn’t have fallen into the lake and mom wouldn’t have come looking for me.” The lump in my throat had increased to several sizes, refusing to budge no matter how
ANAHERA I watched the scene before me slowly unfold as Noel set the tray on the bedside table, put a hand on my forehead to check my temperature.Too frozen to warn him, I could only wait for him to realize that my brother was in the room with us.Hoping he didn’t do anything like, I don’t know, try to kiss me again. I half expected my brother to attack him from behind and pummel him to bits. But after a while, Noel let out a dreary sigh. “Are you going to say something or just continue to hover in the corner like a haunting ghost?”Then he fixed a glance straight at Dominik.Oh shit.He knew Dominik was in here yet chose to dangle himself as bait. My gaze cut to my brother who looked too calm for what was happening. He looked back at me. And a calm Dominik was the worst thing. His gaze drifted to the tray on the bedside table then back to me. “I gave you a week,” he began. “A whole week to cool your head and think about what you said. To prove you were mature enough to make
ANAHERA My head is hosting a heavy-metal concert where the lead singer is screaming directly into my frontal lobe. I groan. My throat feels like I swallowed a handful of dry, sharp sand. Eyelids heavy like they’ve been glued shut with industrial adhesive…and what the fuck is wrong with my body?S
ANAHERA“Is that right, baby?” Noel asks quietly. “The ugly boy.”“Yes.”He laughs. It’s harsh this time. “That’s rich coming from you. You talk about ugliness? Maybe you should ask your brother about ugliness, Anahera. Ask Saint Dominik how he treated people who didn’t have a big brother to protec
ANAHERA The sound of fist meeting jaw echoes through the room, shattering against the festive atmosphere. The stranger stumbles back but he doesn’t go down. He may be as big as Dominik, but my brother is running on pure, unadulterated big-brother rage. He lunges again, grabbing the guy and shovin
ANAHERA I stare at the dashboard. My reflection in the rearview mirror looks terrified. My hair has been pulled back into a severe, no-nonsense bun that says, ‘I am a professional, do not mess with me,’ but my eyes are too wide and frantic.Oh my God, I’m going to throw up at whats-his-name’s feet







