I don’t know how long I spent outside crying my eyes out like a lunatic. But when I was finally calm enough, I got up from the ground and gathered my dirty shawl, tossing the wooden sword aside as I made my way back into the Palace. As I snuck back inside I wrapped my bleeding hand with my shawl, fighting back a yawn as I made my way down the hallway. But as I neared my door I froze, feeling the presence of someone nearby.
I turned as quickly as I could, angling my body so I was facing the direction that the presence was coming from. But there was nothing, just empty silent space that was partially lit by the moonlight streaming in through the windows. Cautiously, I entered my room and closed the door, making sure to lock it before climbing into bed. It didn’t take long after that for my body and mind to give in to exhaustion, and I eagerly welcomed the kiss of darkness that swallowed me whole.
The next morning I was woken up by Ivy’s overly cheerful voice as she jerked the curtains open and let the sunlight in. She went on and on about how cleverly things were run in the Palace and that she felt at ease working there. I, of course, cut in by asking her how she managed to get into the room when I had locked it. And she happily showed me the new thin necklace she wore that held two keys on it, explaining that as my Handmaid, she only had the keys to unlock my room. After that she brought out my breakfast and went on about something that the other Queeness’ were apparently doing.
“They’re using their Handmaids as spys My Lady!” She said, bouncing in her seat across from me while I ate. “They tell their maids to assist in the basic chores of the Palace maids so they can gather any new information that might reach their ears first.” I nodded as I chewed, still too tired to really give her the attention she wanted. “I could do the same for you My Lady, if you wish.”
“There’s no need Ivy.” I said, speaking around another yawn. “I already told you that I have no interest in truly competing while I’m here.” I smiled at the sight of her pout, shaking my head before continuing. “But if you really want to do it, I won’t stop you.”
She squealed and jumped from the loveseat, rushing around the center table to hug me.
Just then we heard a firm knock on my door and Ivy hopped over to answer it. She gasped as a Palace maid and two Knights walked into my room, following them as they stopped in front of me.
“Lady Delphia.” The maid started, smiling sweetly as she presented an elegant cream color envelope. “We have come here to present your first Queeness challenge, please read this and begin your preparations.”
Ivy approached the maid who handed her the envelope, opening it for me before handing me the paper that was inside. The Knights and maid left as I read the paper, my eyes growing wide as I took in this new information.
“What is it My Lady?” Ivy rocked from side to side as she waited, shifting her weight from foot to foot until I looked up.
“The Royal family is hosting a last minute festival on the Palace grounds in three days.” I set the paper down as I leaned back in my seat, my mind spinning as I spoke. “It’ll last for six days and each Queeness will perform their family’s Chorus Superbia.”
Ivy gasped as I thought of what this meant, my chest quickly filling with determination as I thought of it.
A ‘Chorus Superbia’, or Pride Dance, was a unique and special choreographed dance that can only be performed by the women in a family. It was a way for girls and young women to honor their family name and their ancestors during the big moments in their life. Graduating with honors from a prestigious Academy, Shifting into your animal form for the first time, during their wedding reception and after the newborn blessing of their baby’s. These and other rare moments where a woman would perform this dance alone to show others that she was honoring and respecting those that came before her. Showing respect for their sacrifices and the lives they had that led up to them being a part of that family. It was also only passed down through direct descendants, so a woman could not perform the dance just because she married into a high status family.
It didn’t matter if you were Noble, Royal or of a Knighthood; If your family lineage was long or if your ancestors did something that earned them the right to high status among others, you had a Pride Dance. And it just so happened that the Delphia family had one that hadn’t been seen since my great grandmother married and had my grandfather.
My mother never got the chance to perform it. I thought bitterly, clenching my hands in my lap as Ivy jumped around my room excitedly. She never married, and Arden and I were never permitted our blessings as baby’s. She wasn’t even allowed to perform it after she was given the title of Grand Knight because the Duke wouldn’t let her leave the estate after learning of her pregnancy. And now, here was an opportunity to not only show off a breathtaking dance that would honor my family, but I would also get to use that moment to further distance myself from the Du Pleasant shadow.
“Ivy, go get my brother.” I told her, feeling completely awake now and eager to share the news with him. “He’ll want to hear this.”
She nodded and raced out of my room while I walked over to my bed where Ivy had laid out my dress for the day. I rushed to put it on so I could start practicing, not bothering much with my hair or shoes as I started to move around the furniture in my room. Arden and Ivy walked in just as I finished pushing things to the side, leaving a nice wide open space for me to practice.
“I hear your first challenge is a special dance during a festival.”
I smiled, nodding as he and Ivy took a seat on one of the loveseats I had pushed away.
“Yes, each Queeness will get picked at random, with two perfoming per day.” I explained, stretching my limps on the floor as I spoke. “One will start the festivities for that day while the next will close it. And the winner will be determined by the reaction of the audience.”
“I thought you weren’t going to try to win anything?” My brother questioned, flashing me a sly smile when I turned to look at him.
“Are you going to ask me to step down from this?” I questioned back, sitting up to look at him better. “And avoid showing off for our family while simultaneously and publicly cutting ties to the Du pleasants?”
“Of course not.” His smile grew then, giving me all the encouragement I needed. “I was just wondering.”
“Besides, it’s just one challenge.” I added on, returning to my stretches. “Winning this one event won’t crown me as Queen.” I chuckled lightly, shaking my head at the thought of actually becoming Royalty of any kind. “I’m not aiming to be Queen at all, or fight for the Princes’ attention either… those desperate Nobles can have him.”
“I still think you would make a great Queen My Lady.” Ivy huffed, pouting at me from her seat next to my brother. “These other Lady’s are just too greedy, vain and petty to make good Rulers.”
Arden laughed at her words, nodding along while I stood and prepared to practice.
“You know, for what it’s worth, I agree with her.” His words made me pause for a moment, turning to face him and see if I had heard him correctly. “You would be the perfect Queen.”
Our identical amethyst eyes locked for a moment, his sincere words touching my heart in a way that made me picture it in a different light. But I shook my head clear of those thoughts and smiled at him, walking over to give my dear brother a little kiss on the cheek before returning to the middle of the room.
I danced and practiced as much as I could for the next three days, taking in criticism from my brother and Ivy who I had asked to be as picky as possible. Ivy would struggle to find anything wrong with my dance and spent time complimenting me on everything. Arden was the one who was much more critical, pointing out any misstep, hesitation and weakness in my dance. He would remind me of our mother every chance he got too, telling me how proud she would be of me and how she would cheer for me if she was here to see my practice.
This motivated me immensely, giving me that extra push to perfect every last step, sway and turn that I needed to perform.
When it was finally the night before the first day of the festival my brother brought in his sword and let me use it so I could add a little more flare into my dance. I even added my deep violet flames in as well, stunning my brother and Ivy when I showed them what I wanted to do with it during my performance. Ivy burst into tears and happily squealed and clapped when I was done, and my brother rushed over to me with the biggest smile on his face. Pulling me in for a big hug that nearly crushed my lungs.
“You are going to blow them all away Amara.” He said, kissing my forehead as I walked him out of my room. “Mom and Grandpa would’ve been so very proud of you.” A few tears slipped out after he said that, making me chuckle weakly as he wiped them away. “And I’m proud of you too.”
That night I dreamed of my mother, seeing flashing moments of my childhood pass through my dreaming mind. Seeing her practice with our Grandpa, having a picnic by a lake and curling up in her bed during a storm, just the three of us. Those distant, warm memories helped relax me as the hours ticked away, pulling me ever closer to the moment in which I would show the world the true beauty, grace and power of a daughter of Delphia.
The chill in the air was biting as I walked through the garden with Lanalee. It had been so long since I was able to spend time with her and I knew that once my baby was born I would have even less time. So, even though Dorian wanted me to rest and keep warm within the Central Palace while he traveled with his father to the Capital, I wrapped myself up in a warm cloak and decided to take a walk. We were enjoying the gentle calm the winter breeze blew in when Calix appeared, running towards us in his own little cloak and boots. “Why are you out in the cold My Lady?” He asked me, his breath making little puffs of white blow out with his words. “Calix.” Lanalee chastised, shaking her head at her son. “I told you, it’s not ‘Lady’ anymore, it's Madam, or Your Majesty.” “Oh, right.” He bowed and corrected himself, maki
The flutters and kicks of my little baby increased as the day of our wedding came closer and closer. And Dorian would constantly stop what he was doing to place his hands over my round stomach, smiling when he’d feel our baby kicking against him. His mother had to kick him out of the office a few times so that I could focus on my lessons, making me laugh when he would pout as he walked away. On the morning of the big day, Ivy and Morina woke me up and helped me get ready. They prepared my bath and poured oils and flower petals into the water while other maids pulled out the dress and all the adornments that were going along with it. I was massaged, wrapped in silk and sprayed with perfumes. I was made to lay in bed with a mask of herbs and flowers on my face and forced to sit still for hours while my hair was treated and combed. A light coating of make-up was placed on me while my nails were polished and
I jumped out of bed the next morning, startling Ivy as she pulled out my dress for the day. I rushed towards the large mirror of my vanity and moved my hair out of the way, smiling broadly as the reflection of the Mark from the dream stared back at me. The happiness I felt spilled over to Ivy who cheered and squealed when I told her how the Mark appeared on me. And when I stepped out of my room I was quickly pulled into Dorian’s arms, laughing at his excitement. The Temple quickly spread the word on the Prophetic dream they had had, coming to look at the Marks on both our necks and discussing how wedding ceremonies would be different now because of them. I also managed to pull my brother aside before my lessons began with Queen Avelia, explaining how the Marking worked in more detail. He took this moment to tell me that he was planning to propose to Morina and wanted to ask if they could hold their weddin
*Amara* After the Queen left I found that Ivy had been brought to my room and had prepared a bath for me. I was grateful for the soothing feeling of the warm water and the smell of my favorite oils and flowers swirling in the tub. Ivy chatted excitedly about becoming the Nanny to a little Prince or Princess while she combed my hair and helped me slip into my nightgown. I hadn’t realized just how tired I was until I caught myself yawning and almost falling asleep to the feeling of Ivy’s gentle fingers in my hair. So, instead of exploring my new space like I had planned, I crawled into bed and muttered a good-night to Ivy, quickly being pulled into a heavy fog of sleep that I gladly welcomed. The familiar feeling of floating came to me and I smiled as the same clearing that I had met the All Mother in materialized
*Prince Dorian* After my mother led Amara out of the room I turned to my father and waited. I knew that there was something important that he needed to say to me, and my mother knew, so she distracted Amara and walked her out so we could speak in private. “Before I tell you anything,” He started, sitting up as a rare smile grew on his face. “I want to congratulate you, on both retrieving your Mate safe and sound, and the baby.” My own smile grew even more at his words, and I couldn’t help but repeat them in my head. My Mate, my one and only perfect half… My Amara. Erebos echoed my words, his own happiness blending in with mine. Our
The silence that stretched on made me feel increasingly more nauseous as I waited for his reaction. I felt as though the entire world around me had gone still and was hanging by a thread as I continued to wait. A sudden pit of fear started to settle in me and I wondered if he would toss me aside because of this, my mind taking me back to the terrible mistakes I made with Kaliden. I soon felt his arm around me and his free hand came up to gently cup my cheek, guiding my eyes back to his. “A baby?” He whispered, his garnet eyes glowing and filled with amazement and joy. “We’re having a baby?” I shakily released the breath I held and nodded, smiling up at him as my brother began to cheer next to us. He pulled me in and kissed me before dropping to his knees, his hands going over mine as he stared at my stomach. Rosa