I am getting married," I yelled and closed my mouth immediately, how did I let that slip. He hasn't even called me. I don't even know if he has accepted the proposal or not but here I am blabbing and telling my parents about the so called marriage to a strange man, who could be a serial killer or a murderer, maybe one of my parent's enemies.
"Xiao Ming," my mom called and I snapped out of whatever was going on in my head. "Yes mom," I answered. "What did you just say?" Dad asked. I took three quick breathes and turned to him. "Yes dad," I whined. "I did not approve of any man…" I cut him off before he could finish, I didn't want him asking me question even I do not know the answer to. "Yes dad, you do not know him because I did this for myself and I picked a husband who loves me and not someone who is after my family business, I do not want a gold digging, back stabber. I am going to die soon so might as well as make decisions for myself in the next 365 days. It won't kill you not to have so much control over everything in my life, will it?" I asked. I was probably taking this whole thing to the next level.I sighed and took in the atmosphere, it was tensed. I looked at mom's shocked face and dad's unamused state and forced a smile. "I will set a date with him and I am sure you will love him. Trust me for once dad. I swear I didn't make a mistake," I said and dashed up the stairs before anyone could stop me. I really hope I am not making a mistake.My phone felt a little too heavy for my sweaty palms, I dropped the phone on my bed and stared at the screen anxiously waiting for it to ring or even a text, I was not asking for too much, was I?Every single beep or ring made my heart skip, I would rush to my phone only to find a message from the law firm or a call from a possible client. I loved being a lawyer but sometimes I wished I was given a chance to grow up like everyone else, but here I was holding the title of being the youngest female lawyer in Singapore.The hype was worth it but no one actually knows what I went through to get there, from being home schooled all my life, to being constantly watched in university, funny how I thought I was going to be free in university, but it was just another endless controlling moment. I was taken to school and brought back home immediately I was done with my classes for the day, never allowed to mingle, except for business purposes.I am tired of that life, I never got to be a child, never got to live the way I want, make mistakes and learn from them or not. I could not die knowing I never got the life I wanted but everything depended on a man I was paying to marry me and I don't even…My phone ringing interrupted my thought, it was another strange number, what if it was another client, I crossed my fingers and reached for my phone. I was about to answer the phone when I lost connection and my phone went off.In a panic, I stood up to look for my charger but the energy was too much for my weak body. My muscles got weak and I held onto my headboard, it stopped me from falling. "You have one year, there's no rush to die," I said to myself. I took deep breathes and calmly tried to look for my charger but I couldn't fine it. 'Why is life messing with me now, I can't afford a dead phone. I always were my charger is when I need it but now that I need it, it decides to grow wings and fly' I should be calm and not worry too much. It is somewhere open, somewhere I never thought it would be that. I searched my bags and everywhere it could be but I didn't find it.Searching for things when you need when you need them can be so frustrating. I tried retracing my steps to the last time I was home, but that was a week ago and the stupid charger could be anywhere.Taking a deep breathe I decide to arrange my messy room, you never know how messy you room is, until you shift things around while deciding to look for a freaking charger.I cleared my table and made my bed but I still couldn't find my charger, I gave up the search and ran to my parent's room. Picking up her charger I ran to my room, I connected my phone and…Patience isn't easy when you need something done immediately, I stared at my phone patiently waiting for my phone to come on, it was taking forever. I stared at it waiting but nothing was happening. My patience was being stretched thin, I never wanted anything as much as I wanted my phone to come on, I realized my phone wasn't connected and all this while it wasn't charging. Life was making a deliberate mockery of me. I watched as my screen lit up slowly as it turned on. One minute felt like forever. I stared anxiously at my screen as it finally lit up displaying my wallpaper. I haven't appreciated the default wallpaper as much as I should have, I inputted my password and was about to call the number when mom walked into the room. I turned my phone off and turned to look at mom, everything had to pause until she left the room, my parents can't know that I was going to be getting married to a complete stranger. It sounded stupid to me too but it was the only way to achieve my dreams
I should get a new name, maybe bad luck because I don't understand why nothing was going well, first I get stage three cancer, isn't that good news. And now the one thing I need to complete my stupid plans won't even pick up the phone. It was a phone, all you had to do was swipe and listen to the crap I was saying. "There is lunch downstairs, you don't have to eat all your nails," my mom said and that scared me. How long has she standing by the door?“Hello," a strange voice murmured and I had to quickly end the call. "Lunch?" Mom asked and I nodded. I do not want to eat, I want to stay here and talk a stranger into marrying me. Standing up I watched my phone ring, I turned to look at mom and then my phone, I couldn't answer the phone and talk with with mom in the same room as me. I groaned and followed her downstairs. "Àmà" I whined as she dragged me downstairs. I could walk around erfectly there was no need for the rush. "Your dad is waiting and the food will get cold," she cauti
"Beep, beep, beep," I looked up at my reflection, I could see the sadness laced in my movements. "Hello," I heard a voice and I smiled happily. "Hello, this is Mei Xing," I said. "I was calling to book an appointment at the Lin firm but I changed my mind but you kept calling, I promise there is no issue," the person said hurriedly and ended the call. I stared at my blank cell phone, I just wasted my time, it wasn't even the stranger. He probably doesn't want to marry me. Why would he marry me? What am I, Cinderella? Fall in love, be a princess and live happily ever after? Defeated I went back to my room, this was not what I pictured, I pictured a perfect ending, one with me and the stranger. That was so stupid, I sounded right earlier but now the stupidity of my plan glared at me. I laid in my bed, staring at the ceiling, it was so white and so out of reach. I couldn't even leave a normal life and the one thing I wanted, I can't get it. Life just hated me, I never did anything. I
The gut feeling of being watched overwhelmed me, I looked up and saw two pairs of eyes staring at me, I got awkward and fled the building after paying for my meal. "Min Jun," I called out to the stranger. He looked at me and began to walk away again.I quickly stood up and chased after him. "Hey," I called out to him. He continued to ignore me and kept walking away. "Hey," I yelled and ran after him, I grabbed his hand and he turned to look at me. "What!" He yelled. His voice attracted people, they turned to look at us and I got shy. I hid my head avoiding their gazes, I didn't want anyone to recognize me. Min Jun dragged me into a flower store away from the questioning eyes. "What do you want?" He asked me. "You never called me, I just wanted to know if you wanted to be with me or not," I said. While I blurted out my thoughts, I stared at my hands and admired them to ignore his eyes."Be with you?" He asked, I nodded still staring at my hand. "Didn't know you were that desperate to
Rebelling was a lot harder than I thought it would be. Every time I looked at my driver, he seemed to want to drive me back home but I wasn't ready to leave, dad gave me an hour but I can be out here for as I want to be. "Miss your dad is worried," my driver informed me. "Don't worry about him, he'll get over it," I said alright I knew that wasn't true. Dad never gets over anything, he was always so serious. "I may lose my job miss," the driver said and I nodded. "We can leave now," I said and got into the car. I didn't want him to lose his job because of me and I didn't want to get another driver, he has been my driver for as long as I can remember and he understands me. I wouldn't want him to lose his job and make dad get me another driver who'll always report my affairs to dad. As I stood facing the front door, my heart kept beating fast, was I ready to face dad after ignoring his calls all day and coming home later than I was meant to? I raised my hands to pull the door open bu
He looked at me and I should have known what his answer was going to be. He was my dad, he was impossible and never changed his mind. Why was I sad that he said no? He does this all the time, he always wanted to be in control of my life, well not anymore because from now on I was going to determine how my life was going to go. I stared at my phone waiting for Min Jun to call me. Maybe I made a mistake, I never should have given him my business card, I should have gotten his number and reached out to him on my own. But that would be desperate and I didn't want to look desperate although I really am. I took a deep breath and kept waiting for my phone to ring, a new number to flash across the screen, something, anything. No one ever called me so I knew immediately it rang, it had to be Min Jun. But there was nothing, not a mistake dial. An error or a prank call nothing. Should I have offered more money, if he didn't take a hundred thousand, how was I sure he was willing to be trapped
I stared at my blank phone and wondered if he would pick up the call if I called him again. I was going to try to talk to him this tie and not panic. I took a deep breath and dialled his number. It kept ringing but he wasn't picking up. I can't blame him for not wanting to pick up the call after I called him twice and didn't say anything. He was clearly not as desperate as I was. He didn't need me to marry him but I needed to marry him and I needed to do it soon.My second appointment with the doctors were coming soon and although I don't plan on ever going to any of the appointments, I needed to make sure my parents accepted him with no questions asked. "I guess I can wait a while you think," I heard a familiar voice and immediately snapped me out of my thoughts. I stared at my screen unable to form words and making sure I didn't end the call. "I guess you are still thinking," he said again and I smiled.Why was I smiling? He couldn't see me smile. "I guess I will have to call you ag
I lay on my bed and pretended to be asleep while Dad kept calling my name. I have no idea why I laid on my bed but I wanted to avoid Dad. If I had to sit with him and talk like we did earlier it could lead to me exposing my secrets and telling him everything about Jin Min. "Mei Xing," he called out again. His voice got louder and calmer as he got closer to my room and I could finally hear his footsteps.I wasn't good at acting so I turned to the wall, he wouldn't be able to see my face and I could pretend to be asleep and not get caught. A faint knock on the door, a barely audible creaking sound of my room door opening, and a weird feeling of being watched. Dad was in my room "Mei Xing," he called out again and I hummed. Was that too loud? Did he catch me in the act? Does he think I'm asleep? Or is he trying to wake me up? I ignored him and my thoughts and tightly shut my eyes while trying not to move. "Mei Xing," he called out softly.I ignored his request to wake me up and patiently