I walked out of my exam not even sure If I had done all that I needed. Pissed off with my father for distracting me just before I had gone in, and unable to stop myself but wonder if that had been his plan. He had always been reluctant for me to come to college. Adamant I would learn more from being by his side in pack. That was what he wanted to mould me into, the next version of him. The thing was, I was nothing like him. I was ready to change our pack. Modernise it. Update it... Change was not a bad thing. Being stuck in the past was.
My hand lingered upon my phone within my pocket, considering calling, desperate to know what it was that had been urgent enough for my Dad to call. He only called when he had urgent business to discuss. And I did not believe for a moment his excuse of him calling to wish me luck on my exam. He never had before...
No. I was not going to give him the satisfaction. 'Not yet you mean?' Blade chuckled inside of my mind. He seemed to be in a cheerful mood despite our lack of sleep, and the exam.
'Not funny.' I warned him, which earned me another chuckle. He knew I was desperate to call, but I would fight that urge as much as I could, and I continued to make my way home, only hoping my Dad may be the one to cave first and call me.
Presley was waiting for me by the front door to my place, coffee in hand and a warm smile on her face. She was looking far more human than the last time I had seen her. Or as human as a werewolf can... “Hey you.” She greeted me.
“Oh, so you are back in the land of the living now?” I teased.
“Erm, excuse me, I have come to see how your exam went, and brought you a coffee to say thank you for taking care of you. I can run the other way if you are going to act like a grumpy mother fucker, and throw around insults, you know.” She stuck her tongue out at me, flicking her long hair pink hair, which had now been neatly brushed, over her shoulder, in a faked angry motion, making me laugh.
“You run? Ha!” I continued to tease. “But if you have turned over a new leaf and have suddenly taken up exercise and not told me and do chose to run, please leave the coffee. I didn't get chance for one before the exam.”
She offered me the large take away cup, along with a wry smile. “You failed then?” She teased, crossing her eyes at me playfully, while pulling her face. Presley knew how hard I tried in my classes, and I knew she believed I would easily pass the exam. The thing was, after what had happened this morning, and the fact my mind had been so distracted, I was unsure now that I would. I was genuinely worried I could fail. After everything, I may actually fail; and thought terrified me.
“Hey, what is wrong, Zee?” She looked at me with concern as I sighed, opening the door. “Did the exam not go as you expected?”
I shrugged. “Not helped that I was distracted by my Dad’s call. He said he needs to talk to me later.”
Her beautiful big brown eyes narrow as she turns to me, before she drops to the sofa now we are in the small lounge within my apartment. “You think he did that on purpose?”
Why does it not surprise me that my friend went to the exact same thought space as me when it came to this? This girl has sat for many an hour listening to me complain about my controlling Dad. She understood what a pack was like. What an Alpha was like. I trusted her, so she was often my go to person for complaining about Dad and his frustrating ways. And not once had she judged.
“I don’t’t know. He said it is nearly time for me to go home. Basically said to stop wasting time.”
She shook her head slowly. “It has gone quick, huh?”
I knew that Presley had loved her time in college as much as I had. She was popular. Had been since the day she had arrived. That smile of hers drawing people in… and, despite her lack of tolerance for alcohol, and the fact she was somewhat lacking in common sense, she was incredibly smart. But, I knew she actually would not mind heading back to her pack. She was much loved there, and her degree gave her options. Many of which would benefit her pack while she remained there. Presley had a great future ahead of her. Basically, she did not have the same responsibility laying upon her as I did when leaving the fun filled space that college had been…
I could feel her eyes upon me. Eyes filled with concern. “If you’re worried, call him.” She urged. "Get your answers, and but your mind at rest. Don't let him ruin those last few days here, Zee." Her hand rested gently on top on my own. Would my Dad actually leave me days without explaining what he wanted to talk about? Presley could be right... that would be the sort of trick he pulled. Control... But me calling him was showing he had control.
“And admit he got inside of my head?” I told her dismissively. That would be exactly what he would hve wanted. I was not about to let that happen. I was stuck.
“You are a stubborn ass you know that?” Presley rolled her eyes at me. “Because now it will be on your mind all damn day. Longer if he continues to play his game and keep this going for longer.”
“We could always go for a drink?” I suggested with a grin, knowing today she was class free. I may not be able to drink continously if my Dad did not get in touch until I return home, but I could avoid thoughts of it today at least...
“I have only just recovered from last night.”
“Three years into college and you still cant handle your drink. Jeez, girl…” I teased, dropping next to her on the sofa, her head instantly finding my shoulder. “Get some food down you and you should be good.”
“You really want to be drunk when your Dad calls for that conversation whenever it may be?” Presley suggested, and I grin in her direction. That was exactly what I was wanting…
The moment the call had ended, I walked away from Zaine and out onto the decking. I needed a moment to collect my thoughts. I did not know what to say to him at that moment. The look upon his face said it all, he would see it as me having surrendered to his father’s demands of us returning, but in truth any desire to remain at the beach house had gone. I knew there would be little enjoyment if we were to stay. Our minds would be fluttering back to the pack and the issues waiting for us upon our impending return. Zaine needed to return home and deal with all of this, whether he was willing to accept it or not.But, the frustrating thing was, when it came down to it, despite his initial agreement with me, when his father was on the other end of the phone, it appeared he could not find the courage to speak up. I did not know how to help someone who seemingly did not want to be helped. Or was too scared to accept the help that was being offered.‘We stay. We continue to push him in the ri
Hearing Presley speak to my father that way took me by surprise, but hearing him snarl at her angered me. Whether I had agreed to her wanting to call him or not, she was simply trying to help me. She did not need his temper taking out on her. So, before he was even able to say anything in response to her, I came to her defense. “Do not snarl at her.” I snapped. “She is here trying to help, and does not deserve your anger.”My attitude earned a raised brow glance from Presley, but my focus was more on my Dad who no doubt was currently fuming at the other end of the telephone. He did not like being disagreed with. And even less so, did he like being stood up to. There was a slight grunt of derision from him before he begun to talk. “Help?” My father’s tone was that same demeaning tone he so often used when talking to me. “And had she heard of respecting her elders? Especially those of rank? Because I am telling you now Zaine, she will not fit into our pack, planned Luna or not, if she i
“How do I explain to him Pres that I feel like I am falling apart?” Zaine’s words were filled with heartache, heartache that was mirrored within his gaze as he looked back at me. I wrapped my arms around him tightly. I just wanted to make things better for my friend. He did not deserve to feel like this. I wished he saw himself as I did. So much stronger than he realized. And so much stronger than his father gave him credit for.“You aren’t falling apart, Zee, you just need to be allowed to do things your way. If they allowed you to do that then I know you could flourish. The pressure they place upon you is the thing that will tear you down and destroy you.” I said softly.There was a wry chuckle that felt like it vibrated through my skull, where he had rested his chin upon my head. “Oh yeah, because I am sure my Dad wants to hear that. Every Alpha loves to be told where he is going wrong.”I held back the smile that was threatening. Admittedly, I was not looking forward to putting th
I had heard her correctly. No matter how much I wanted to convince myself otherwise, I knew that I had. Presley was implying all of my doubts were in my own head. But would that mean that they were my own imagination? Was that what she was saying? It sure as hell felt that way…My eyes focused upon her, as anger bubbled in my veins. How could my friend say something so hurtful? I had opened up to her so many times in the past about my feelings, and this was what she came back to me with now? I felt betrayed. “Do you know how much that fucking hurts?” I snapped. “I thought you were different. I trusted you.”Presley shook her head. Her entire body language changed in an instant. Gone was the laidback and casual Presley. This was a more defensive and argumentative Presley. “I have done nothing to make you think anything has changed. This is your own mind, Zee. Do not let it win.” She reached for my hand, in a bid to reassure me, but I snatched it back. How fucking dare she?! She was say
I had woken up in the bed, to the smell of breakfast cooking. I did not remember coming to bed, which told me Zaine had likely put me to bed after we had sat uncomfortably and watched the film. I, no doubt had done my regular movie night flaw and fallen asleep before the movie was even halfway through. But it saved any further awkwardness between Zaine and me,so in this instant, perhaps it was not a bad thing.I stretched lazily in bed, with a big yawn. Shira chuckled as I did so. ‘So, are we friends today, or more?’ She teased.‘You and me won’t be friends if you carry on with that sort of shit.’ I warned my wolf, before sliding from the bed, quickly noting that I was now wearing nothing but panties and the oversize t-shirt from yesterday.‘Presley, it is teasing. You and him could be good together, and you know you could.’ She encouraged, forcing me to put a block up between her and me. My wolf had too much to say. Too much that I did not want to hear. I wandered along the small hal
Presley and I had sat through her film of choice in an awkward silence. My head felt like it was spinning. I didn’t know what it was I was feeling towards her, or what it was I was hoping to do; but Presley had made herself more than clear that what had just happened was not to be spoken about, so I remained quiet. I did not want to risk her panicking and heading home. I did not want my earlier actions to be the thing that caused my friend to turn her back on me and walk away. So, instead, I sat quietly as the film played out, and let my mind wander. My conscience heavy with guilt for what I had done.Soon, I had noticed the heavy weight of Presley’s head upon my shoulder, telling me she had done what she so often would when we had our movie nights, and crashed out. I could probably count on one hand the amount of films she had watched through to the end with me. There must be something about the comfort of a sofa, and the relaxation of watching a movie that sent my friend to sleep; b