LOGINHer father gave her another of his sharp, assessing looks, as if he’d somehow picked up a note of protest in her tone, though there hadn’t been even the faintest hint of one. “You don’t have to marry him, Anna. No one’s going to force you. It’s not the Middle Ages after all. But the logical thing to do is to get all the information so you can make an informed decision.”
She didn’t know how he’d managed to pick up on her reluctance, not when she’d barely acknowledged it herself. Or perhaps it wasn’t reluctance, only surprise due to the unusual nature of the request. Whatever, her father was right. She needed to gather all the information before making a decision, in which case accepting the Duke’s invitation was the logical thing to do. Really, she was viewing this with far too much emotion, especially when she didn’t even know what kind of proposal the Duke was going to put forward. It clearly wasn’t going to be a real marriage, not when they’d never met. Perhaps it was because of some legal difficulty? Not that it mattered. Marriage—whenever she thought of it, which she seldom did—seemed to work well for some people, but it required a certain amount of emotional involvement that she wasn’t willing to give. She would have to inform the Duke of that when they met so he was clear. She certainly wouldn’t want to mislead anyone. “No, you’re right,” she said in the same cool tone. “You can tell the Duke that I’d be happy to accept his invitation.” Her father was pleased, she could tell, and that gave her a certain satisfaction. And, since she wasn’t going to get anything done if she thought about it too much, she put it out of her mind. __________ The next day came and Anna couldn't put it out of her mind any longer. Today, she had to come up with a way to tell a man that she wouldn't be getting married to him…Or she would be engaged… Depending on what he was offering. Would it be worth it? She told herself that she wasn’t in the least bit nervous as she surveyed her very meagre wardrobe, trying to decide on what to wear. She hardly went out anywhere, except for a few times with her friends, Collins and Sara, so she didn’t have a lot of nice dresses. She picked a summery, cotton white one and decided to wear it. She liked the dress, but putting it on made her feel as though she was making an effort and some stubborn part of her didn’t want to be seen to be making an effort. The same stubborn part of her that had refused to look up anything about the current Duke of Springbrook on the Internet. There was bound to be something about him—some photos at least—to give her an idea about what to expect, but something inside her absolutely refused. She knew that giving in to her stubborn streak wasn’t a good idea, since it had caused her problems in the past, but she rationalized it, by telling herself that she didn’t want to go to Haerton with any preconceived ideas. Besides, she’d find out about him soon enough, and there was always the possibility that the whole ridiculous situation was a joke. Or something her father had misunderstood, or some other easily explicable thing that would become apparent the moment she arrived. It wouldn’t have anything to do with her actually marrying some man she’d never met, and a duke at that. So she didn’t make an effort. Instead, she wore jeans and a serviceable shirt in plain white and she didn’t even touch her make-up. She made sure her father had everything he needed for the evening, double-checked his phone was within reach so he could call her if he had to, and then she stepped outside and walked across the lawn to the little path that would take her to Haerton. It was a beautiful evening, the long summer twilight lying over the moors beyond the woods lighting the gray stone of the large house. Ivy covered the walls, softening the stark, square lines and the austere front entrance. While Anna loved Haerton grounds—its wild wood and large ornate gardens—she’d never actually been in the house itself. But she’d always been curious about it. Nerves fluttered inside her as she stopped in front of the big front door and pressed the button for the doorbell set in the door frame. The door was immediately opened by a slightly cadaverous-looking man who was clearly one of the Duke’s staff. He greeted her, requested that she follow him, then, without waiting for a response, stalked off, leaving Anna no choice but to do what he said. She wasn’t given time to look around, though she caught a glimpse of high ceilings and ornate plaster-work, and paintings in heavy gilded frames. The floor was worn parquet and her footsteps scuffed as she hurried after the staff member who was obviously doing butler duties. He opened a door to her left and ushered her into a very comfortable sitting room with a huge fireplace down one end, where a collection of couches and arm-chairs were arranged in front of it. Bookshelves stood against the white paneled walls, piled high and untidily with vast amounts of books. There were occasional tables scattered about and littered with various knickknacks, piles of papers, more abandoned books, plus a few cups and saucers. Old silk rugs covered the floor, softening the stark feel of the place, but nothing could mask the faint smell of must and damp. The scent of an old, neglected house that had been shut up and abandoned for far too long. Despite that, the sitting room gave the impression of a room well lived-in, and it was warm, and Anna found herself relaxing somewhat. “The Duke will be with you soon,” the man said and left without another word, closing the door behind him. Anna stood for a moment, the silence of the house settling around her. Out of the corner of her eye she spotted a small painting near the fire. She was just starting towards it to have a closer look, when she heard the door open again behind her, then close just as quietly. And all the hairs on the back of her neck lifted in a kind of primitive awareness. “Hello Anna,” a deep, rich and very familiar male voice said.Because she loved him. Because she didn’t want to spend her life wishing she’d been brave enough to fight for what she wanted. Because he was sweet and sexy and tender and knew exactly how to push her buttons and drive her nuts, and because she needed him to keep her grounded. But how could she say all that?“Because…I love you,” she said simply. “I fought it, but I do. I want you, I need you. Please don’t go.” She used her dirty sleeve to wipe her face, but more tears trickled down her cheeks as she waited for him to respond.She could hear Lily and her father behind her, but she kept her gaze on Tyler, waiting for his reaction. Was she too late?His expression dark, tense, Tyler stepped closer. Without a word, he cradled her face in his hands and lowered his head, kissing her until her body warmed from the inside out and her toes curled in her soggy shoes.Behind them, Lily screamed in happiness. But then everything faded when the kiss went on and she didn’t care what anyone though
She finally tossed the shovel aside and placed the fawn into the grave, her chest so tight and full she could only take shallow breaths. “There you go.Nice and snug.”Thunder rolled in the distance and the wind and rain picked up, cold where it hit her cheeks. Lexi ran her hand over the rain-slicked fur of the animal’s neck, then set to work with the shovel again, every movement quicker than the last because she couldn’t stand the sight of it, half-covered in mud. Deer were considered stupid animals but would the mother miss it? Feel its loss. She hadn’t felt the baby move but— Lexi shut down her thoughts but it was too late. The pain came, fast, stabbing, stealing what was left of her breath. When the last shovel of dirt was in place, she turned to go back to the house and the soothing tea she’d left behind, but along the way the light from her flashlight caught a gleam of red.Daniel had towed her car up the driveway to the house so that he could rush to the hospital. He’d put it
“Because I’m tired of settling. I want a wife who loves me and wants me as much as I love and want her. I want to be with someone who trusts me and wants me enough to share her fears and her secrets and know I’d never deliberately do anything to hurt her. Lexi, I want a proper marriage. But this isn’t it.”She tried to pull away but he wouldn’t let her. His hands tightened over hers, the bug inside lighting up every few seconds. “This is my promise,” he stated roughly. “But you have to decide right now if you’re going to keep it or throw it away. The choice is yours.”Tyler released her hands, staying close because he wouldn’t take that step unless he had to. He saw Lexi's throat work as she swallowed, heard the rasp of her breathing and still he waited for her to speak, to say something, to fight. For them and their marriage, for herself and the future they could have if she’d only try.But without a word she opened her hands and he watched as the lightning bug lit up and took fligh
Throwing the last of the trash she’d dragged out of the house into the Dumpster, she jumped back when a bumblebee buzzed so close to her face she felt the breeze created by its wings. Her heart thumped hard in her chest and the air left her lungs in a gush, and she laughed at her silly reaction. But it was a similar reaction to how she felt with Tyler. She’d never admit to the belly-clenching, spine-tingling, heart-in-her-throat rush she got whenever he was near. Still it was true, and if weeks with Tyler left her feeling so out of her depth, what would a year be like? Two? She had to stay strong, not let him wear her down. He’d get fed up with her moods and her baggage and stupid issues and walk away for good. It was only a matter of time. Maybe Lily was right about some things, but she was definitely wrong about others. Nothing was worth the fear of loving something you couldn’t control. ________ Tyler felt Paul's stare and braced himself. “Whatever it is, just say it.” Lexi's f
“Be nice. I worry myself sick every time I'm at home. Now I’m here and I’m spending the day with you.”Lucky me. Who else is going to show up?“Think I’ll go get the rest of the supplies we talked about since Tyler's here to help unload them,” Paul said.“I don’t want him hanging around. I want him gone.” Lexi's head throbbed. “It’s been a week and every time I turn around, he’s here. Why won't he go back to Olkfield? He’ll never be happy here.”Lily stared at her, hurt apparent on her features. “Why wouldn’t Tyler be happy here? You're his wife. This is technically his home.”Arms across her chest, Lexi clenched her teeth so tight pain shot up the side of her jaw. “Why don't you go home too?”“Now, don’t be a witch. And you know, maybe Tyler would be happy if you’d talk to him.”“He left.”“But he came back.”That he had. But why? “You convinced him to, didn’t you?”“I did,” Lexi confessed. “He’s your husband and he belongs with you,” She fiddled with the strap of her purse. “You’re
Lexi leaned her full weight against the door the moment she heard Tyler start his car. That had to be the hardest thing she’d ever done in her life. But he’d survive—better off for not having her to deal with.“I never realized what it must have been like for you.”Lexi froze at the sound of her father's voice. Tyler's vehicle raced away with a roar of the engine and she felt dizzy from not being able to breathe. Why wouldn’t they all leave her alone?“It was really hard for you too. Losing your mother like that. I was so caught up in my grief that I didn't really pay much attention to you. Instead I carved your life out for you… In a way I thought was right, because I thought I was protecting you. I’m so sorry.”“I survived.” Her hand hurt where it grasped the knob but she couldn’t let go. She’d fall if she did. “If you taught me nothing else, it was how to survive.”“Is that why you’re doing this? Is that why you’re shoving a good man away?”Wasn't it ironic that these words were co







