Chapter 56 – Jayler I have never seen nor even heard of a drag show or a drag queen before and now that I’m seeing one right in front of my eyes, I’m feeling excited and elated to learn that something sickening and incredible like this exists. The fact that I’ve been to several clubs and house parties before only to learn about this wonderful art now was just fantastic. The Babylon Club was surely the first gay club that I’ve entered in my entire party life and while it looked just like every other club, I was still in pure shock. The amount of gay people and also straight people who support the community was just shockingly amazing to see. Everybody’s just confident and aren’t afraid to be themselves. I guess this is a safe space for most of these people. My parents would surely succumb to death just by entering this wonderful place. They would most probably deem this place as an entrance to hell which was just wildly absurd. I was just as nervous about meeting Lance’s group of frie
Chapter 57 – Jayler By sound of it, Lance seemed like he’s traumatized by things moving faster than it should’ve. For me, I don’t think things moving faster between us was something to be scared of but that’s only because I haven’t been in this place before. Everything that’s going on is entirely new to me and if this is how our relationship is going to go, I’m all aboard with it. And I don’t see any reason as to why something like this can be so scary to him. He doesn’t have to worry about anything because I’m not like playing around him or that I’m just moving along with the flow. I really do like him, I’m pretty sure of that. He makes me happy and I feel like I could just be myself around him. I don’t have to think about my actions because frankly he’s the nicest guy that I’ve met. He opened my eyes about the fact that I really do like guys and if it weren’t for him, I might still be trying to force myself to like girls. This night proved to be something of a great experience that
Chapter 58 – Jayler Waking up the next morning with someone topless right beside me felt extremely new to me and yet I’m thankful and glad that it had to be the person that I have good feelings and great adoration for. I almost don’t remember the last time I had a sleep over mostly because I’m not allowed, having a very religious and strict parents like what I have was utterly constricting. And I’m pretty sure someone’s already looking for me back at home most definitely Lala. I ignored all of those thoughts and I’m just going to pretend that my sister would cover up for me. Fuck it, I’m having a very good time with someone I like and this actually felt good, even better than hanging out with Jasper and Kenneth. I’m not saying that I’m not having a good time when I’m hanging out with them but spending my time with the person that I have kissed multiple times, with the person that makes me smile, with the person that makes my heart skip a beat makes things feel even more fun, exciting
Chapter 59 – Lance I have never been this effortlessly happy in my entire life. I know it’s way too early to say those words but it’s just the lingering truth and I’m already claiming the positive energy all with open heart. Jayler was the sole reason for that happiness and I’m just basking in the glory of the joy and security that I’m getting around him. I am glad that I got to know Jayler motherfucking Mendoza. I’m highly thankful to the gods above that I got to know him even better and I wouldn’t exchange it for anything else in the world. I wouldn’t exchange this beautiful relationship for a better career. I wouldn’t exchange this wonderful human being for money or fame or power. “Can I do the cooking?” Jayler asked sneaking up behind me. He gave me a clingy hug on my waist as I was turning on the stove and I felt incredible that I could just faint in the moment. “You sure ‘bout that?” I turned my head and looked at him. His hair was still messy and frizzy brought about by the w
Chapter 60 – Lance I sat at the couch and stared blankly above the ceiling. My mind and heart seemed to begin cooperating with each other to feel whatever hormones’ acting up. I feel ecstatically happy with everything and I didn’t know I was smiling all alone with my phone on my chest. “I love you too,” The words echoed back and forth throughout my head and my heart wouldn’t stop from pumping fast. That was Jayler’s last response to what I said before we ended the conversation over the phone. I didn’t’ expected myself to utter those three words with eight letters towards Jayler but then I wasn’t buckled up for his eventual response. I just succumbed to death out of the overwhelming dosage of happiness and elation that I’m feeling. I haven’t heard those specific words in quite a very long time and I thought I would never hear them again. But here I am now staring at the ceiling and I could still hear the words reverberating as if bouncing back and forth. I can’t believe I just said
Chapter 61 – Lance My day went on pretty smoothly which was already expected from my point of view and you know what romantic people say, you are blooming when you are in love. I’ve heard that phrase probably a lot of times before, from my workmates to my classmates in college to even random customers that go to the acoustic bars that I perform at and I just don’t know if it was true to life or that it was just a usual saying to exaggerate things. To be fair, I haven’t seen it myself and I honestly really thought it was just some random phrase taken off of a page of a romantic novel. I guess I’m in love now because everyone noticed how I was just filled with bright energy. I don’t see it myself but they’re seeing it and that’s more than enough of a proof. When I got to Fidelitea, my crewmates, Frank and the rest, even the manager, they all asked me if I’m in love or that if I had a really good sex last night because they noticed the apparent glow and the different energy that I’m res
Chapter 62 – Jayler This Monday marks the first day that I’m all paid of the all-around free work that the school head punished me for. The past month was pretty difficult for me and it was undoubtedly a hell of an exhausting month both physically, mentally and emotionally. It has taken a toll on me but I’m all good now. I’m more than glad that all of those negative things, the tiring confusion, the exhausting physical work, the constant overthinking, they all have ended simultaneously. I managed to iron the rift that I have with Lance and it translated pretty incredible as much as I’ve expected things to go well. I just had a long moment of reflection last night after Lance and I had a long phone call. It wasn’t some sort of overthinking but I just had a lot of realization when I played all of the scenario inside my head in a supercut style. I thought my life was all fun and well balanced with Jasper and Kenneth and the constant sneaking out just to party and drink and let loose. An
Chapter 63 – Jayler “What?” Pretending as if I didn’t hear what my dad had uttered, I continued shoving waffles into my mouth. I’m already shaking deep inside and I don’t want to show him that I’m extremely guilty of what he’s accusing me of. I don’t even know who told him that I was out last Saturday night. I’m pretty confident that my sister didn’t rat me out and Lala, she might be the culprit. However, I don’t think she wants to be that person and she’s been trying to stay out of the family drama so I don’t believe she’s the one who told my dad about it. “A little birdy told me that you were out last Saturday night.” Dad went on and I could tell he was trying to keep his voice controlled to a much lower level as compared to his usual shouting tone. It’s the first time that he wasn’t shouting but I could clearly discern the anger gritting in his tone. I’m sure he’s only talking like this because he doesn’t want the tension with my mom to erupt all of a sudden. I kept my mouth shut