Chapter Forty

It was Thursday morning. I'd arrived at work, still riding the wave of positive energy that I'd been feeling all week long. Life was really looking up right then. It seemed like everything was going my way, for the first time in a long time.

Maybe I should tell him today, I thought to myself. I felt a pressure in my chest telling me that I needed to do it sooner rather than later, yet... I was scared. I was terrified that it would change the dynamic we'd just found.

I decided that I just needed to wait for the right time. I needed to do it right. My secret wasn't going to change in the next few days. Telling him today or telling him tomorrow would be the same. I would do it. I just needed a little bit of courage and the right timing.

But it would be soon. I set myself a hard deadline of one week. If there wasn't a good opportunity over the next week, I would just tell him by next Sunday. That was as long as I was willing to wait.

I sat down a