chapter two. the divorce

I was in bed sleeping like a log of wood after wetting my blue bed sheet with tears, I felt a warm hand on my shoulder and looked up to see my son's gentle, slate-blue eyes. He smiled and said,mom, everything will be okay, you still have me, we both have each other. He said, looking like a warrior who survived battle. thank you baby, I said. have you eaten anything yet,he replied like a baby,yeah, I ate some eggs and salad, I asked about Sarah, has she gone back home,he said, yeah she left early this morning.

My brain started recalling how they had sex, please don't stop ,fuck, fuck ,fucker, she said ,while their bed frame was slamming against the wall. the thought of it made my clit vibrate. my clit hasn't done that for years. my clit had this kind of reaction the first day Jim had sex with me.

We had been dating for about a year and a half then and things were beginning to get serious.

We had talked about sex before. He wasn't a virgin, and neither was I, but we hadn't made love yet. A couple of times when we were horny enough, I would hold his dick,he'd let me touch it and feel it. he told me he was ready for my pussy,but we just needed to wait for the opportunity to make love for the first time. And tonight was that time.

he had called me around 8 pm. His voice was low and soft. Sexy. he told me he was getting harder by the minute. he couldn't stop touching himself and she was ready for me. I told him I would be down as soon as I could.

My aunt was out of town and I was home alone. Perfect. Tonight was going to be amazing and I wanted us both to enjoy it.

I was there in about five minutes. A full moon was out and followed me on my way over. Keeping me safe on my journey to love.

This playful activity was a regular. I reach the door, He knocked softly.

The door was closed and the light was off.i swung the door open. he asked, "What took you so long, sorry baby," I replied.

"How about I let you in tonight?" i asked this as he reached down and felt my pussy.

"I think that could be arranged," I said as I reached for his chest. he carried me upstairs, and immediately to the room,he cupped my left boob in his right hand and massaged it. I pulled my bra down and exposed my little, brown, nipple. I looked at his eyes. Jim's hand glided over my nipple over and over as he began sucking on my tongue and lips. Not long after, he moved from my mouth to my breast . he sucked on my nipples very slowly. I moaned softly and grabbed his dick harder.

I moved my hand away from his cock and pulled off my bra, exposing both of my tits. he moved to my right breast and sucked on that nipple. i moaned a little more and began breathing heavier. Her nipple slid on his tongue with ease and grew harder.

he took his mouth away from my nipple and went back to my mouth. his hand reached to my panties and I felt it between my legs. my clit vibrated immediately.he took his index and middle fingers and rubbed my pussy slowly. i got more and more wet. Then he pulled my skirt down.

he got off and pulled off his jeans and threw them in my pile of clothes on the side of the bed. My hairy pussy couldn't hide my wetness.

i reached under Jim's boxers and grabbed his cock. he reached under my panties and felt my warm clit. he began stroking his dick slowly and I began rubbing my pussy slowly as well. i began to moan as I began picking up speed. I let go of his cock and he helped me pull my panties down.

Jim took my clit and began sucking on it faster. The tip of his tongue began moving in small, quick circles. i moaned a little louder. Her breaths became more and more shallow. I kept going. i started calling his name. I began humming. i was climaxing. my moans came to a stand still.

"That feel good baby?"he asked

"Oh, Darlene suck my dick, hun..."he begged.

he closed his eyes as he saw me move closer. i took his cock and put it in position to be sucked. Pretty soon, i got his dick head nice and wet. Then I moved my tongue all over shaft.

he moaned and said my name,DA......RLENE......

I opened my eyes. I looked up at Him and he looked down at me."That feel good?"

"Amazing..."

I stood up, and turned to the bed frame,positioned my ass is, his penis lead straight into my little pussy. The tip of his cock had trouble getting in at first cause I was so tight then. But he managed to maneuver his dick deeper. The rest was history. After giving birth to Leo, my sex drive reduced,I focused more on making money.

I got up from lying to sitting on the edge of the bed, and stretching my body like chewing gum,Leo reached out and placed his hands on my shoulders, his touch gentle and comforting. He started rubbing my back in slow circles, trying to soothe me. To him, this was just a son helping his mom. He had no idea what was going on inside my head.

The moment his skin touched mine, my mind betrayed me. The heat between my legs flared up again. I looked up at him, with his bare body and green short ,seeing not my son, but a man. His hands felt so strong on my shoulders. All I could think about was how much I wanted those hands to go lower and pull my pink pant ,I imagined him grabbing me, pressing my neck,pulling me close, and kissing me hard. the way I felt for my husband when I was still sexually active.

I felt guilty, but I couldn't stop the thoughts. I pictured him laying me back on this very bed. I wanted him to touch me everywhere. His innocent rubs felt so good on my light skin, making my heart race and my breath faster. I was getting so turned on, and it was terrifying because he was just standing there being sweet, completely unaware of the bad things running through my mind. I am a bad bad mom, I thought to myself.

I knew if he kept touching me, I wouldn't be able to control myself. I needed him to stop before I did something I couldn't take back. Give me some space, I said, my voice sounding a bit shaky. "I really need to get ready for work."

He pulled his hands away, looking a little confused but nodding. "Okay, Mom," he said, don't feel sad anymore okay, I will always be here for you,and walked out adjusting his green short that looked tight on him.

I sat on the bed some more, taking deep breaths like a fat woman running, I pulled my pj and went to the bathroom, I put on the silver shower button ,the shower dripped water instantly, It fell on the floor of the tub white, I sat on the tub while I spread my hairy legs wide open. I looked at the water falling down.

I moved my hand between my legs. I felt the soft skin there. It was wet. I used my middle finger to rub the little bump at the top. I moved my finger in circles. Slowly at first, then faster.

I leaned back against the wall. The water from the shower dripped onto my chest. It felt cold on my hot skin. I kept rubbing myself. The pleasure grew bigger and bigger. I squeezed my legs together while thinking of my son fuckin his girlfriend, while she screams the whole room up side down ,I said his name out loud.Leo, fuck me too, fuck your momma's wide pussy till she begs for messy like a filthy whore.

My breathing became heavy. I moved my fingers as fast as I could. The tension in my body got very strong. Suddenly, the feeling exploded. I shook all over. I moaned loudly in the empty bathroom. The water kept dripping while I sat there, panting and feeling the release wash over me.

I stood up from the tub, prayed, Lord have mercy on me, forgive me my sins, cleanse my body from iniquity,as I go out today, I am blessed, my son is blessed, and no evil shall before me anymore, In Jesus name I pray,Amen.

I left the bathroom, clean my body, applied my cream , put on my blue pant and black bra, while the thoughts of my husband still linger in my head.

My eyes drifted to my phone on the nightstand. The screen was dark. No notifications, no missed calls, no how is he doing? texts. He has not even asked about Leo. . I can handle him not loving me anymore, but I can’t wrap my head around the silence toward our son. A five-minute call isn't much to ask for, yet here I am, staring at a blank screen,I thought to myself.

I stood up and reached for a simple cream-colored sweater. As I pulled it over my head, the soft wool touched my skin, my mind betrayed me. I remembered the night we met.

It was a rainy Tuesday at the old Vista Cinema. I had gone alone to see a Bruce Lee film, the kind of movie everybody still loves, I was walking with an oversized bucket of popcorn and a dripping umbrella when he appeared out of no wear, He was putting on a baggy jeans and black t shirt, he looked good,Need a hand, or are you planning on wearing that popcorn?" he had joked.

He had this eyes that seemed to move around at every corners instantly. I know how it sounds, like a Bollywood romance movie, because the moment our eyes met, I blushed like a shy kid, I did not think about the rain. Love at first sight isn't a good thing indeed, now I will be a divorcee very soon.

That man from the cinema— Who i fell in love with cheated on me, slept with a green haired girl on our matrimonial bed, I walked over to the mirror and brushed my hair, staring at my reflection. I don’t look like the girl I was sixteen years ago. I look tired and wasted. I am getting old indeed, I muttered to my self.

I picked up my phone, slid it into my pocket without checking the screen again, and headed toward the door.

I drove out, and reached school very late, the head administrator saw me and as usual squeezed her face, I did not mind her reaction,I opened my office , my office was small but manageable,with a lot of old papers on the table,I shifted all the files and created a space on the table and got to work.

THREE HOURS LATER

My phone rang hello? I said "Darlene Mitchell? This is the law office. You need to come in now and sign the divorce papers. We’re closing early."

The line went dead. It was really happening. I felt a hot tear on my face,My chest felt tight,I didn't call my boss to ask for time off. I didn't even grab my purse. I just took my keys and walked out, leaving the front door wide open.

The drive was a blur of grey roads and red lights. When I got to the office, the lights were too bright. Everything was white and cold.

The lawyer on faded black suit handed me a pen. I hissed, the lawyer guy hissed also,he said,madam please sign the papers, we are closing early today,I looked at the line where it said Signature. I signed it quickly, the blue ink soaking into the paper. I didn't say thank you. I just turned around and ran back to my car, sobbing so hard I could barely breathe.

I entered my car, and drop the divorce papers on the next seat. I started the car immediately,I couldn't see the road clearly because of the tears. My mind was thinking about how I have become a stranger to the man I gave my all to.

I reached for a tissue, and for just one second, I took my eyes off the road.There was a loud bang and the sound of metal crushing. My head hit the steering wheel, and then everything faded , I heard screams, somebody help, call the ambulance.

When I finally woke up, the first thing I felt was pain in my forehead. The room was dim, filled with the soft beep-beep-beep of a machine. I felt a weight on my right hand. I looked down, my son was sitting there in a big blue chair. He looked exhausted, his hair messy and his eyes puffy from crying. He was holding my hand so tight, as if he was afraid I might run away if he let go.

"Mom?" he whispered, "You're awake."

I couldn't find my voice yet, so I just squeezed his hand back. His skin was warm, and his grip was strong. The divorce papers had made me feel really really sad, but the way he held me reminded me that I was still his whole world. I closed my eyes again, and for the first time that day, I felt like everything was going to be okay.