PAIGEI wake up early, and Samuel is still asleep, so I take a shower and when I'm ready, I have to wake him up to take me to the mall to work. Today I only have a couple of hours off between my morning and afternoon shifts, so I go out to eat at a nearby store; while nibbling on a slice of pizza, I send a message to Ashton:How was the doctor's appointment?Today Owen has a check-up, and I can't wait for them to remove the bandage because I can't stand seeing him like this. In less than five minutes, I receive a photo. It's Owen, still with his arm bandaged, but he's happily playing with something on the floor.One more week.I don't want him to spend Christmas uncomfortable and unable to run. It breaks my heart. We're entering December, and there are a lot of things I want to show him, like the snow. But it seems like he doesn't mind wearing the arm so stretched out anymore because when I finally see him on Monday, he's running around with his friends again, still using only one arm
ASHTON"Have you thought about it?"I punch the punching bag with a closed fist."No, damn it. I don't trust you one bit.""I'm your father.""And a fucking drunk who spends money on prostitutes," I snap. "Why should I trust you with your damn business?""Hey! No phones in here," Apolo yells from the other side of the gym.What do I care about his damn rules?"Why don't you come to dinner tonight so we can talk and you can meet Lucy?""Pass. I'll think about it."I hang up the phone and toss it into my bag before Apolo comes to ruin my entire day. I punch the bag harder for fifteen minutes, until sweat sticks my hair to my forehead and I can't see.How bad can this shit go? I spend days researching it and talking to that asshole Apolo because he's the only one who knows how a business works even though the gym isn't the most "business-like" thing. It doesn't seem like complete shit to me; car dealerships make money, legal money, something that would suit me just fine; reluctantly, I a
PAIGETo say that I'm scared is too much, but to say that I don't care is too little. It unsettles me. It's been a week since my exams ended, so I've finished this semester, and now I don't see him anymore and I've deleted contact with him, but today he decided to stroll around the mall knowing it's almost an hour from campus, and it's obvious he's just coming to be a nuisance.Now that I only have my afternoons occupied, I've used these days to do things with Owen until I start work, and Ashton has come over to the apartment more often, not just to see him, because we ended up naked in the bathtub and maybe accidentally in Jo's room.I'm about to leave, and Ashton better have left Owen sleeping at home. Maybe he's even gone, and I think about calling him to see if he can come because the situation scares me a bit. Although maybe... "No! He's crazy!" I hesitate, but I leave accompanied by Laura. Together, we pick up dinner from a nearby restaurant and walk together to the car with som
ASHTONI entangle her in my hips, she's light, and I feel her against the back of the couch rubbing against me like an animal."Can you wait until I leave?"Paige pushes me by the chest, and I want to kill her friend. She gets off the couch and puts on her clothes."Are you leaving?" she asks."I had plans with Ian, I was waiting for you, but I see you have company, so I'll pass on sticking around to listen to you."Better that she leaves; I want to fuck her like an animal, but she's not the same anymore, not Paige, because I have her tits in my hands when a little voice separates us."Mama?"Paige pushes me away again and kneels on the back of the couch. Owen looks at us, holding onto his blanket with his little hands."How did you get out of your crib?"She puts on her clothes, and I turn away because I have a tent in my pants. And just like that, she's gone from being my sexual fantasy to a damn mother. She bends down in front of him, and he throws his arms around her neck."I want
PAIGEChristmas is much better than last year, although when I arrive at Liv's house in the afternoon, her son Lucas asks me about Owen, but I assure him that Owen will be there for them to play on New Year's Eve. I don't know what Ashton's plans are, or what they'll do, even though we've been spending a lot of time together lately, but the main thing is "for Owen."These holidays with my family were very normal, although I can't lie and say they weren't nice; but I don't talk to them anymore, and I can compare how fun it is to have dinner with people who now love and support me. Liv lives not far from the apartment, but since it's very late when we finish celebrating and playing bingo among the four of us, and Jo has overdone it with the drinks, we decide to stay over, and in the morning we exchange the few gifts we have compared to the mountain Lucas has. Around eleven in the morning, when I think it's a good time for Ashton to be awake, I dare to send him a message:Merry Christmas
PAIGEClasses drag me back into a routine, especially after the holidays and things with Ashton. I feel like going back to the usual will distance us, and I don't want that because Jo already made me confess out loud that I like Ashton too much. It's the first time I've liked someone like this; we have a son, and it's the first time I've liked a guy."Isn't he coming to see Owen today?" Jo asks me.I sling my bag over my shoulder and shake my head, pushing the door."It seems not, we haven't talked much either."Jo shrugs."Ah well, I'm sure he's thinking about you. See you tonight. Bye."I sigh because I know Ashton isn't like that. It's all about sex for him, right? But it can't be, what about those gestures?I've never thought so much, but the workday keeps me busy and almost suffocated by how quickly the days pass. By the time I realize it, Laura and I are closing the store, I always wait for her now, we pick up dinner together, and I stash it in my bag. We walk out whispering thi
ASHTON"I want you to come over for dinner. Lucy and I want...""Do you want to play house? I have better things to do," I snap."It's not that, Ashton. I want to spend time with you.""And you think I want to be with you? You've never been a father.""Don't you want your son to forgive you if you mess up?"Why the hell does she have to bring Owen into this? It's about him, about what a shitty father I was."I'm not going to abandon my son.""Ashton...""I have things to do, don't call me just to mess with me."I shove the phone into my coat pocket and wait. She exits her college, books stashed in her backpack, not even looking at me, walking with her gaze fixed on the ground and in the opposite direction. I have to chase after her, touching her shoulder, and she hits me with a notebook. Her green eyes widen as she looks at me."Don't sneak up on me," she scolds, but a smile creeps onto her lips."I was waiting for you. Where are you headed?"It wouldn't matter in any other case, but
PAIGE"Do you want to come to a market?" I dare to ask."What?"He pushes his tousled hair out of his face. We slept together again! I love it!"There's an organic market near home. I was planning to go today, do you want to come?""Do you want me to come?"I nod almost unconsciously."But I have to go to the apartment first to get his stroller. I don't think he'll walk that much, and it'll be cumbersome to carry him in our arms."Ashton nods. It's the first time we're doing something like this, it's the first time I do it with a guy and with Owen, and I'm glad it's with him because for Owen, it must be incredible to see his parents together. He doesn't let go of either of us; on the way to the car, his hand holds onto Ashton's fingers, and he has me by the sleeve of my sweater.Truth be told, I've never done an activity like this before. Ashton comes in my car; I don't mind driving that much because the trip is quite pleasant. Owen babbles from his seat, talking nonsense and playing