146|I love you, Lilith🔞

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Lilith pov

What was love?

What was it to love someone?

There had been many definitions of love, many forms of love.

I loved father and mother because they were my parents.

I loved Theila as a mother figure.

I loved Lily as a friend.

And I had loved Kael as a lover in the past.

And from what I knew…

 To love was to care.

To love was sacrifice.

To love was to give.

So what was the love I felt for the three terrifying men?

Silas.

Lucien.

Claude.

Was it the kind of love that came from them being  my Alphas or was it something more?

My heart raced when I was with them.

My thoughts tangled into a mess.

My body betrayed me.

There was a connection.

A strange pull I could never fully understand, could never quite name.

What kind of love was it?

I wasn’t sure.

However…

I was certain of something.

I wanted him. I wanted them—in ways I had never wanted anyone else.

Not just lust. Not just sex. But intimacy.

And just that thought alone made me draw in a slow, shaky breath, my eyes fluttering shut, my hand tightening around the base of his dick.

That musky, addictive scent filled my nose, made my pussy clench, tighten in on itself. It made it ache, made it plead for intrusion. For anything.

It made something inside me break.

“Show my dick some love,” he spoke again, his voice deep, hoarse, sliding through the air, repeating in a trance-like state, “…Lilith.”

My eyes opened slowly, lust bright and twinkling, as I looked up at the man before me, watching me with desperation in his gaze, his dick resting against my face, between my eyes.

Hard.

Throbbing.

Veiny.

Angry.

Thump. Thump. Thump.

My lips curved into a slow smile, and without hesitation, without flinching, I did as he asked.

I stuck out my tongue, leaned forward, and dragged it along his length—slow, hungry, savoring every inch as though it were my favorite, sweetest candy.

It was hot.

So hot.

Veins pulsed, skin tight, white, salty precum glistened at the slit of his tip, calling me to taste.

“Mmm…”

A moan slipped free, eyes fluttering in bliss, but I resisted, moving lower.

And lower.

To the base of his dick, feeling his dark, piercing gaze fixed on me as I paused, opened my eyes, and then—

I kissed him.

Soft, deliberate, lips pressing an inch from his balls, along the veiny base. 

And, almost immediately, he reacted, grunted.

“Fuck…”

His abs flexed.

His dick pulsed.

His voice deep, hoarse, strained.

“Lilith.”

Was it a warning?

A plea?

I didn’t know.

But I was just beginning.

“Alpha Silas…” I drawled, leaning back just an inch, eyes locked on his.

His face, usually cold, emotionless, trembled for me now, filled with lust, with something more, something raw.

A man who never reacted was unraveling under me.

And, I loved it.

Oh, I loved it so much.

That look, I needed more.

I was wet, shaking, dripping, twitching, my mind  a mess.

“I love you so much.”

The words slipped free, unfiltered, and his eyes widened, confused, aroused, trying to process the effect they had on him.

I moved higher, lips tracing another inch, pressing a soft, fleeting kiss against him.

Another grunt, deeper this time, sending shivers through me.

“I love your dick so much, Alpha Silas,” I whispered, breathless, trembling, lips gliding over every ridge, lingering.

“I love how hard it is.”

Another kiss, tracing each twitching vein. Never breaking eye contact. Never wanting to.

“I love how veiny it is.”

My waist arched, butt high in the air, soaking through my panties, inching higher and higher, lips teasing upward with adoration.

I kissed him slowly from base to tip.

Then, I stopped.

At the tip.

Just for a fleeting moment.

I paused and whispered,

“I love how it responds to me.”

And without hesitation, I slowly stuck out my tongue, teasing him deliberately.

I swirled it around the swollen head, tasting the salty precum, letting my lips brush and tease him with every movement.

“Fuck, Lilith…what are you doing to me?” Silas hissed, deep and rough, like he truly needed an answer, as I licked, teased, and circled him, chest heaving, hips jerking.

His eyes flickered to the ceiling, filled with both lust and confusion.

Time seemed to stretch, the tension thickening the room, and without hesitation, I pulled back slightly and smiled at him, eyes locked on his. I whispered, breathless,

“Loving you, Alpha Silas.”

That was all I said. His eyes widened at my words, snapping to me, and for a moment, something seemed to click within him. His eyes glowed just as I opened my mouth and took him inside.

Inch. By. Inch.

I started slow, desperate, hollowing my cheeks, letting my tongue press along the underside of him as I worked him deeper.

His hips jerked, my heart pounded as I felt him twitch against my tongue, stretching my mouth slowly.

I gagged. I choked. I moaned.

He was really big, really thick.

But oh, goddess, he felt so good, so good that I forced myself to take him deeper, eyes squeezed shut, a dazed expression etched across my face as I wrapped my hands around the base, pumping him as I deepened my rhythm, letting him stretch my mouth to the limit.

And oh, fuck… I was practically drenched. Aching so much that it hurts and before I even realized, my greedy hand slid between my legs, brushing inside my leaking panties, right at that dripping, aching spot, right where I needed it most.

As soon as it hit my clit, a breathless moan tore free. I drew him out slowly, then pushed back down, letting him hit the back of my throat, letting my mouth fuck him with precision. 

Faster. Harder 

I worked my way along his length, pumping him with my hands while slipping a finger inside myself. Almost instantly, my body shuddered, and without hesitation, I began pumping in and out of myself, adding another finger, relishing the way my walls clenched around them.

Goddess, it was insane. It felt so good I couldn’t help moving faster, harder, bobbing my head with  desperation, eyes rolling back as my fingers thrust deeper, curling just right to hit that one spot that made my whole body tremble.

But then…

“Love”

I heard him murmur, his voice low, rolling from his lips like he was tasting the word for the first time.

I didn’t stop. Didn’t even look at him, drowning myself in his length, in my own pleasure, sucking him with wild, desperate hunger.

I wanted more. Oh, goddess, I wanted him to spill deep in my throat while I cummed on my fingers at the same time. I wanted it. I wanted more. More. More. More—

“Hahahaha.”

My thoughts stilled, breath hitched, body froze, heart skipping a beat as I heard it: laughter. Deep, amused laughter.

Almost immediately, my eyes snapped toward Silas. His eyes were closed, hand tangled in his hair, chest rising and falling as he laughed, the sound ringing through the air, making every breath in the room vanish.

He was laughing. Silas. With his dick still in my mouth, lips stretched in a bright, unguarded smile.

I wasn’t sure what surprised me more, the fact that this was the first time I had ever seen him laugh, or that it sounded raw, off, but genuine.

My heart pounded so hard I could barely breathe. As I slowly lifted my head from his length, letting him slip free of my mouth, my hand leaving my clit, he murmured again, repeating,

“Love?”

My eyes widened as he opened them, snapping to me the next second, lips widening into a nearly deranged smile, holding my gaze. Something in it sent a shiver racing down my spine.

What was it?

What was this feeling that made me break out in cold sweat, trembling, terrified?

I knew.

It was the look in his eyes.

No longer emotionless, but… obsessed?

However, before I could react, everything blurred, everything shifted. I gasped.

One moment, I was on top of Silas, and the next he was on top of me.

 I was on the bed, eyes wide as I stared at him, a breath away, now smiling like someone learning how to genuinely smile for the first time.

Something was different. Something was wrong.

“Alpha Silas,” I blurted, getting back to my senses, about to apologize for whatever I’d done, but—

My chin was suddenly seized, pulling me closer, lips barely brushing his. As I stared, stunned, his eyes slowly curved into slits, his smile widening.

“Lilith,” he whispered, almost excited, drawing the word out. “Draziel was right… he was right. I—I think I love you.”

Wait what?!

My eyes nearly popped out of their sockets, the world going still as he chuckled and shook his head.

“No. I know I love you, Lilith.”

Then he closed the distance between us.

A kiss.

Not rough, like always. Soft. Tender.

As my gaze trembled in utter disbelief, trying to process what I had just heard, what was going on, I heard Dravena purr in my mind, amused, laughing.

“Well, well. Lilith… you’re in for a wild ride, aren’t you?”