RivenI try to work out if they’ve fucked or not. Kennedy’s got stronger control over his fucking dick than I have if he hasn’t fucked the girl already.Whatever heated exchange they’re having on my living room carpet dries up as I return. You could cut the atmosphere with a knife as Anna scrubs the carpet like a lunatic.Oh how quickly things change.This morning I boarded a plane with the sole intention of putting an end to Kennedy’s Anna Josephine insanity for good. This evening I’ve invited the crazy girl to stay in my home, not for Kennedy’s sake, but for hers.Hers and maybe mine.I’m rarely excited by anything, but I’m excited by her.When I was a kid, I loved going to watch daredevil stunts with my dad. I loved the guys on bikes doing flips in the air and the people getting shot out of cannons. I loved magic shows where the pretty assistant always got sawn in half in a box.It always felt so exhilarating – the inevitable buzz of adrenalin that zipped up my spine at the thought
KennedyI should be long asleep when the text message sounds.It’s Riven, of course, not Anna.My heart thumps at the possibility that she’s already decimated his patience. Maybe she’s already descended into hissing monster Anna and he’s thought better of his offer. Maybe it wouldn’t entirely be such a bad thing, having to bring her back here.Maybe I could hide her from Pam long enough to figure something out. Maybe having her around could work, even if I won’t allow myself to cross the line with her. Maybe I’d even be able to help her through her shit without having to check all the right boxes at work.I open the message, expecting the worst – but it’s nothing like that.Man to fucking man, Kennedy, are you gonna fuck the girl or what?My reply is instant, even though my gut aches with it.Of course I’m fucking not.It takes a while for him to reply. I’m just about drifting off to sleep when the phone bleeps at me.But you want her? I’m talking for real here.I don’t let myself go
AnnaI know Riven and Kennedy both think I’m being a lazy bitch who doesn’t give a shit, not for all the advice they’re trying to give me, and not for the way they sigh and shake their heads and try to work me out. I tell them nothing about the work I’m doing on the fences while they’re busy in their day jobs. I tell them nothing about the way I leave Riven’s place every morning and dig around the outbuildings for supplies as soon as his big fancy car pulls off the driveway.I keep my mouth shut because I’ve never done this kind of shit before and I don’t want to look like a total fucking idiot for getting it wrong. I’ve never hammered in fence posts and strung wire fencing, and trimmed back overgrown hedgerows and measured out planks before. I check out videos on my phone through Riven’s Wi-Fi whenever I’m grabbing a quick sandwich for lunch, and I may not have any swanky grades from school, but by the end of the first week of sorting out Riven’s neglected grounds, I think I might be
I notice Riven’s only pulled out two mugs. “Where’s Kennedy?”“Leaving do. Some temp worker from his office. He’ll be over tomorrow.”My heart drops. “Tomorrow?”Riven nods. “Will probably be a late one, these crappy socials normally are.”“Only if you want to stay at them.” I can’t help feeling rejected, even though it’s stupid. I can’t help feeling like he should be as excited to get here as I am excited to see him, even though I hate him now.“He’ll be over in the morning,” Riven says. “Give the guy a break, will you? He’s been fawning around you all pissing week already.”He hasn’t been fawning around me at all, just trying to get me some shitty council accommodation, but I don’t say it.I must look sad because Riven tips his head and sighs. “If you miss him so fucking much, maybe you should stop being such a cow when he’s here.”“It’s complicated,” I say and he laughs.“You’re fucking complicated, Anna.” He stirs my tea, and I love the way he knows just how I like it now. He puts
RivenI should have known by now to expect the unexpected from Anna Josephine. I should have known that my suspicions were right and there was more going on with her than vegging in front of my TV every day, stacking up plates as though she’s been having a one-girl feeding frenzy, even though the fridge is still stocked full.I should’ve also known better than to tell her she should’ve just shown me her tits if she wanted to, and not contemplated the possibility she would follow through with it.But here I am, standing open-mouthed as Anna pulls down her grubby white top and bares her perfect pale tits to me.She’s confident at first, cocky even. Her shoulders are back and proud as she juts out her sweet rosy nipples.And I was wrong.I have seen plenty of tits in my time, but I haven’t seen it all before. I’ve never seen a pair of tits that make my mouth water like this pair.She has a beauty mark to the side of her right nipple. There’s a smear of mud above her left. And they’re bea
KennedyI barely even know this temp. It’s like we’re having a bastard leaving party for everyone these days, even if they’ve only been there five minutes. Drury’s is busy with Friday night drinkers, and I’m huddled in a corner, wedged between Pam and Julie as they recount office stories from ten years ago.They were boring the last three times I heard them, and my nerves are on edge as the clock ticks, counting down my window of opportunity in which I can legitimately turn up at Riven’s to see Anna.She can’t freeze me out forever, even if she’s doing a mighty fine job of it this week.I’m not usually jealous, that isn’t my style, and I definitely shouldn’t be jealous of Riven, given that he’s been my best friend for almost a lifetime, through thick and thin and everything in between, but I am.I’m jealous of the way she doesn’t snipe at every word he utters. I’m jealous of the way he goes to sleep in the room next door to her every evening.I’m jealous of the closeness they’re devel
AnnaI hear Riven’s car pull away and it breaks my heart.He’s running from me.He’s running because he doesn’t want me. He’s running because I made a stupid fucking mistake and showed him my tits and he hated them.He hates me.I try to calm myself down because things never end well when I get freaked out. I try to tell myself that I didn’t just fuck up so bad that I have to leave this place. That Riven isn’t like the others.They let me stay because they had to, because I was a kid and they were obliged to care for me. Riven let me stay because he wanted to, and he hasn’t kicked me out yet, not even when he thought I was being a lazy bum all day.Maybe he won’t throw me out for showing him my tits either.I take a shower to get rid of the mud, and hope I can wash the embarrassment off with it. My plans for a passionate encounter in the kitchen seem so fucking silly now. He didn’t even touch me.I thought he wanted to, but he couldn’t have. Not someone like Riven.Riven’s the kind of
KennedyRiven and I stare at each other for what feels like an age. My palms are clammy as I think the unthinkable; that I might have to watch my best friend become romantically involved with the girl I’m in love with.It’s not that I’d resent Riven being happy, or Anna either. Of course I wouldn’t.But fuck, the thought makes me feel sick as a dog.“If you want to be with her, I’ll back off,” Riven says. “You saw her first.”“How could I make a move now, knowing you want her too?”“I’d deal with it,” he says. “I’d have to deal with it.”“And I’d have to deal with it if it was you she wanted to be with. And it might be. She’s barely spoken a word to me in days.”“But she wanted you first. She almost certainly still does.”“She showed you her tits less than an hour ago. I’d say her interest in you is pretty current, Riven.”He shakes his head. “I can’t believe this is happening. Both of us going fucking crazy over an eighteen year old girl.”“She’s not like other girls,” I say and he l