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I let out a befuddled snort and everyone turns to me curiously. “Sorry. Carry on, please.”I’m proud of the way I cut my meatloaf and move the crackers around the plate to mimic a half-eaten meal. But I’m not very good at using cutlery, and the context—a meal, shared—is as foreign to me as crocodile wrestling. Daisy, of course, notices.“Why is she acting like that?” she whispers theatrically from the head of the table, pointing at my ramrod straight spine, the way I lift and lower my fork like an animatronic puppet.“She’s just not very good at this. Be kind,” Lucien murmurs back from next to me.Daisy nods owl-eyed, and moves the conversation to the important matter of whether she’ll get a new pair of roller skates before her birthday, what color they might be, will they have glitter, and, more important, will Juno take her to the rink to practice.I get to observe Lucien when he’s relaxed. He pretends not to know what roller skates are to irk Daisy just a little bit, or that her bi
It reminds me of a sketch in a comedy show, so absurd that I lean against the doorframe of Lucien’s office and observe it in silence for a few minutes, amused by the visual.It’s the big man. And the way he handles small gadgets, frowning down at them like they’re poisonous spiders. The way he types at the keyboard with one single finger. And the way he doesn’t seem to be able to follow simple instructions, even though Alex is explaining stuff to him in the tone of someone who’s ready to bungee jump out of his own life.“—won’t be activated until you enter this line of code.”“I entered it,” Lucien rumbles.“Exactly the way I wrote it here, on this piece of paper.”“I did.”“It’s case-sensitive. Alpha,” he tacks on. Reminding himself that Lucien’s his boss. His very stubborn boss.“The problem is this fucking machine.”Lucien lifts his hand, ready to hit what has to be an expensive piece of technology. Which leads to Alex chanting with a Dostoyevskian level of dread, “Oh my God, oh my
Turns out, I was wrong about the full moon.It’s further ahead than I thought, three whole nights, and the day before, Mick orders me not to leave my room—ideally—or the house, under any circumstances. He still looks out for me, but I haven’t had a guard camped outside my door since my conversation with Lucien.“How come?” I ask curiously. “I mean, I’ll do as you say. But what’s so different about the full moon?”“It takes a really powerful Were to shift when the moon is small—and a really powerful Were to not shift when it’s big. All Weres will be in their most dangerous form, including many youths who have little self-control. Better not test them with unusual scents.”I laugh at his old-man-yells-at-a-cloud eye roll, but later that night the persistent howling that seems to be all over the lakeshore gets to me. When my door opens without warning, I’m much jumpier than usual.“Daisy.” I exhale and set aside my book. It’s about a nosy elderly Were lady who solves murder mysteries in
Some nights, when he’s walking past her door, he has to whisper to himself: “Keep going.”Two things can be true at once.For instance: I like Alex, because he’s an intelligent, pleasant young man.And: spending time together and watching him be terrified of me sparks joy.Just for fun, I’m tempted to contact a therapist and ask them to quantify how bad a person I am. But by the time Alex and I have been working side by side for five nights, I’ve accepted that reassuring him that I don’t plan to feast on his plasma is futile.Nothing will convince him that I’m not going to exsanguinate him. And I really shouldn’t enjoy it, but there’s something genuinely fun about watching him move around the room like a contortionist to avoid giving me his back, or about running my tongue over my fangs and feeling the clatter of the keyboard stammer to a halt. It’s usually followed by eyes scrunched shut, and low whimpers he thinks I cannot hear, and . . . The Were children who bike all the way to m
“She never mentioned the Weres to me, not even in passing. But she didn’t love her colleagues in the financial division. Maybe she was angling for a better job and exploring nonfinancial stories. Though she would have told me.”Would she? She was clearly hiding stuff from you, a nagging voice offers. I shush it. “I do know that she wouldn’t have gone public with a story that had the potential to endanger a child.”I’m not sure Lucien believes me, but he strokesjaw, carefully gathering his thoughts. “Either way, our priorities match.”“We both want to find out who told Anna about Daisy.”For the first time since this sham marriage—no, for the first time since that hag Anna didn’t show up to help me change my sheets, I feel a real, genuine burst of hope. L. E. Grayson is not just a stray breadcrumb, but a thread to hold on to and tug at.“I’m going to give you access to whatever technology you need—not that you ever asked for my permission,” he adds with a drawl.“You should look into A
He shakes his head and starts cutting the sandwich out of its crusts. I follow the rhythm, mesmerized by his graceful hands, and recall that this is something Anna used to prefer for her food when we were . . . younger than Lucien, for sure. I would not have thought a big bad wolf would be this picky.“Not to be a discord sower, and I promise this is only marginally related to Juno’s hankering for carving my organs out, but maybe you should investigate the possibility that one of them tattled you out.”“I did. Despite them having risked their lives for me a dozen times over.” He says it angrily, like it was sour and painful, something he’s ashamed of, and the thought hits me: that maybe Lucien is the kind of leader who measures his strength not by the battles he wins, but by the trust he is able to accord to others.There is something about him, about the way he commands, that manages to be at once pragmatic and idealistic.He sets the crusts aside and leans his palms on the table onc







