It’s Saturday, after all, and I’m running on my favorite track at Central Park, my shoes hits the concrete in a steady thump, thump, thump, in sync with the beating of my heart. The sunrays is peeking through between the trees, another early birds are busy with their pick of activities. They're warming up, riding their bicycles, even those yoga enthusiasts are already making pretzel pose with their bodies.
My smartwatch beeps, telling me I’ve done my five miles for today so I begin to slow my pace and head back towards my car. Fumbling with my earphone, I don’t see where I’m going and crash with something, or someone. It lands me on my ass and send my phone to its meeting with the path.“Ouch!” A small bad word escapes my lips through gritted teeth and I hope to heaven whoever near can’t hear it. Assuming from the pain on my right lady bum, I’ll leave this park with a bruise in the size of Texas. Great.“God, I’m sorry. You okay?”My brain needs a little more time to process those words before it registers the voice. Oh, my God, that voice!I look up to find a familiar pair of blue eyes dancing with worry. And amusement.Will I ever stop be an amusement to him?And I’m fangirling again. Dang it, brain. Work!I shake the star-struck astonishment out of my system, clearing my throat. “Good God, I mean. You’re good. Nononono, Me. I am good. I mean, I’m fine. Uhm ....”He chuckles.No, you know what? I’m not fine. I am actually a mess.Nate extends his hands down at me, which I absentmindedly take so he can help me back up on my feet, his triumphant smirk never wavering. I wipe my palms on my legging and feel the sting pierce through the skin.Hearing the hiss that get past my lips, Nate reaches. “You’re hurt.”“It’s okay,” I reply, trying to brush it off. “I have a first aid kit in the car.”“Come on.” He gestures for me to lead the way. “I’ll help you clean it up.”The parking lot is a lot busier, making getting to my car a challenge. Unlocking it, I then take the kit out from my trunk.“Whoa! That’s some kit,” he teases.Looking down at the small box, I shrug. “Perks of being a paraniod doctor’s cousin, I guess.” And not ashame of it.Heck, I really miss Michael.Maybe Nate catches the sentiment in my voice, I don’t know, because he just open the box and try to allocate things he needed. “You have water?”I grab one from the front seat.He works silently on my cuts, which is just small scrapes on my right palm. And I’m busy trying to calm my erratic heart his body caused, hoping it doesn’t beat too loudly.“You know,” he closes the box, “We have to stop meeting like this.” His ocean blues gleaming with mirth.“Yeah,” I croack out, trying hard not to get lost in those eyes. “And I have to stop making a mess of myself.”Another chuckle rips through his throat. “Nah, I like it. It’s cute.”Cute isn’t what most woman prefer coming from men, especially a man they found attractive, and my scrunched nose show him just that. “No, it’s not,” I retort.He cocks an inquisitive brow, his smug smirk dead center in his face. I roll my eyes in response.“So--”“Thanks--”We say it simultanously. Then we laugh. A stretch of silence ensues as we both stare at our feet.“How about breakfast?”I nod slowly, feeling somewhat tongue-tied at the unexpected question and the sensation it brings. My chest feels tight, and there’s a funny little tingle that happens in my stomach.Is this what they mean when they say they get butterflies in their bellies?****We’re in a coffee shop, again, even though a different one at that. Two cups of steaming coffee on the table accompanying us while we swap stories.Nate is twenty-six, moved here right after high school with only his guitar to chase his dream of becoming the next big name in music industry. In the first five years he had to work odd jobs just to get by instead of working on his music.After busted his ass left and right, had some saving, bought new guitar, he then started to hunt stages. Cafes, bars, even done street performances. “I’ll never lose my hope,” he says. “All it take is just one right day.” Determination laces his words.“I hope your right day happen soon.”I smile, and he smiles. For his sake, I really, really, really hope it’s true.“So, what about you?” he asks. “Are you a transplant too?”Transplant is what they call those people from out of town.“Nope.” I sip my coffee. “Born and bred. My family’s still here, and I can’t imagine leaving them and this city.” Shrugging my shoulder, I say, “Boring, I know.”Nate gives me his rueful smile. “Nah, good for you. I can see you in this city.”“I hope that’s a good thing.”“It really is.”“I’m really close with my family, you know, I think that’s why.”“I can see that too.”“What about your family?”He shakes his head playfully. “It’s a story for another time, Bryanna.”My heart stumble hearing the sound of my name on his lips. And the possibility of a next time like this. “Another time?” I can’t help but ask.“Tell you what.” Leaning closer, Nate places his phone on the table. “You can give me your number so we can make sure there’ll be another time.”That wicked, wicked, wicked smile.And those dangerous, dangerous, dangerous eyes.It’s a losing battle.No other choice than to agree.“Okay.”****What's happening to me?It is not until I hear the familiar voice of Nurse what's-her-name that my hard-beating heart slows down.Holy moly, Batman. I'm a mess."Oh, hey. You must be the baby daddy. Glad to see you," she greets with her cheery voice.Before I can turn on my back and swat that statements away to hell, Linc chimes in, "Hi. Nice to meet you. I'm Lincoln."What in the actual hell? I sit up too fast and get myself a whiplash.Shit."Whoa, whoa, slow down, honey." The nurse suddenly stood beside me and holds me on the forearm. "Didn't think you'll be so excited to see me," she jests, trying to make it light.The giant prick snickers.I try to send a glare at him discreetly but fail miserably when Nurse—I glance at her tag—Laura eyes us back and forth. "Everything alright, honey?" she asks as she checks up on my vital."Yeah," I croak, "everything is fine.""I guess so." She writes something on the paper she brought with her. "And, please, lay low for a while, yeah? No inten
What the hell is he doing here? Who do he think he is showing up in my room after ALL that he did? And, yeah, I really mean ALL OF IT.The nerve of this freaking prick."Sweetheart, is everything okay?"Dad's voice break through the fog of disdain that coated my brain, but, still, it takes a while for the question to truly register. I shift my eyes from the big, uninvited, and unwelcomed guy that now standing near my bed to my parents.And, it's not a surprise to see confusion painting their faces. Because of course they didn't know. And I don't want them to ever know about what had happened between me and the guy who they think of as their own son beside Adrian.Don't ask. I personally don't know why I'm still trying to keep this as a secret from them. Either I want to keep my name, or ....Don't. Don't go there.I shouldn't think like that way. I shouldn't think about it anymore.This is all his fault.But I can do nothing about it in front of mom and dad. "Yeah, yeah, Daddy. Everyth
What the fuck did he just say?What. The. Fuck?"What the fuck, Linc? You're not listening?" protests Adrian.Yep, you see that right. The very best friend who had ghosted me for this past months is now drinking my liquor like it's fresh water and he's been stranded on the Sahara.I should have known when I saw his ass walking in from the door that he wasn't bearing any good news. I should have known when I saw him and he just waved his hand asking for a drink. I should have known.When the most stubborn prick on the planet shows up at your bar after punching your mug ugly, giving you silent treatment for months, you know something is wrong.And it really is. Terribly, fucking devastatingly wrong."Slow down, man. You want to knock yourself out or something?" I warn, reaching for the bottle he is gripping so hard like a lifeline.He swats my palm. Hard. Fuck, that hurts."Yeah, yeah. I wanna do that so baaad," he slurs. He then chuckles. "You realize how funny it was? I'm trying to kno
I can't. I can't do this anymore.My body is so weak. There's nothing left to be released from my belly, but my throat don't get the memo and keeps on constricting. Dry heaving is sooo draining.With shaky legs, with the last strength I have in me, I drag my body out of the bathroom and reach for my phone on the bedside table.I can't do this alone.I can't if I want my baby safe.I can't if I want to safe me too.The call is still connecting.Come on, pick up. God, help me, God. Help. Please. Please. Please.She picks up on the third ring."Sweetie?" she asks, a little hesitant. Maybe she's questioning her own eyes. She doesn't believe I am calling her now. This is my fault. I did this to her. I stopped calling her months ago.God."Mama," I answer, as loud as I can. But, with the abused throat and the dehydration, I sound like a scratch on a sandpaper.Hearing this, her alarms picks up. "Sweetie, what's happening? Are you okay?" Panic colors her voice."No, Ma," I croak again."Oh my
And suddenly out of nowhere Nate is everywhere.The internet is blowing with the news of this up and coming artist who will certainly make you lost your mind with his voice and his charm. They talked about his looks. His hypnotizing blue eyes, his lean but now muscular body. They talked about the aura he's giving out. They talked about his first single which successfully placed Nate on the chart, on people's attention. The other star starts to notice him too. They talked about that "mini tour" he did. They talked about his soon to be out first album. They talked about a real big all around the States tour after that. They talked about everything Nathaniel Moore. And they talked about all of his sexcapades. It seems like the rising star has already spread his wings in the women section. Then I see it. A photo of Nate kissing a woman in front of a building, a hotel to be exact. Bile rising in my throat. I'm gonna be sick. I run to the bathroom in my office and heaving to the toilet
NowShe darts through the apartment and be in my room in a speed of light. "Tell me you listened to me," she demands as soon as she's here.I am leaning back against the head of the bed with pillows supporting my back and going through social media like nothing happened. I mean, nothing had happened if I consider what I did as nothing. Right?"Bry!" She snatches my phone away. "Hey!" I exclaim, sitting up. "I know you're upset but can you please not take it out on my phone?""Tell me you didn't do anything stupid," she insists. Her beautiful eyes penetrates me, searching for the truth from deep inside of me. She, like hundreds of times before, sees everything. "You did, didn't you?"Gotcha. But I keep my eyes on hers. "Why, Bry? Why? He's a jerk! You've been good these past months. You're better. You're happy again. Why?" I shrug. She's still waiting for my answer. She gets none of it. "That's it?" she gawks at my response. "I'm worrying myself sick about you and you just shrug