Landon was just asking Jamie if she wanted to go out with him when Mo comes barelling from the front door with few paper bags in her hands. I sit and hit pause. Shane West and Mandy Moore froze.
“Guess who’s back from a shopping trip with her future mother in-law?” she exclaims. She drops those bags on the floor and plops down the other side of the couch. Dreamy sigh leaves her pink-tinted lips.I know with one thousand percent of certainty that this was not her first time doing shopping with Tom’s mother. But she always come home like this anyway; sated and happy.“How’s your day?” she asks. Looking at me, my state of dressing, and the stilled scene on the screen, she chastises, “Don’t tell me you’ve been vegging out on this couch all day.” An even scowl replaces her smiley face.I feign hurt, clasping my hands over my chest. “How cruel of you to think about me like that!”She rolls her eyes at my antic. A flower-printed cushion comes flying my way. I catch it before it make contact with my face. “Stop being so dramatic. What are you doing home at this hour?”“It’s still eleven in the morning, future Mrs. Thomas Henry Clarke the third,” I counter, pointing at the clock. “Look who’s the dramatic one now.”Her eyes follows. Morwenna have the audacity of looking sheepish after she realizes her fault. She giggles. “Sorry.”The flower-printed cushion fly back at her.I continue my favorite movie as she gets settle. “You, my friend, are one beautiful, rich but boring girl.”Ain’t that the truth, my friend, ain’t that the truth.****“That’s my baby girl,” I hear Dad’s voice booms through the foyer as Mo and I walk through the front door. “Happy birthday, sweetheart.” He envelopes me in his embrace.Feeling emotional, I hug him back as tight. He always have the best hug.From behind him, I see Mo giving me a wave and keep walking to the kitchen. Dad kisses my temple, then realeses me while still holding me at arm length. “I can’t believe you’re twenty four now. It seems like it was just yesterday when I first hold you in my arms--”“This tiny pink bundle of joy,” Adrian completes Dad’s sentence. He climbs down the stairs leisurely, hands in his pockets. “You always said that, Dad.”Dad looks up at him and shrugs, then he look back at me with so much love. “And she will always be my baby girl.”How can I not be a Daddy’s girl?“Thank you, Daddy.” I stand on my toes and kiss his cheek.Adrian shakes his head at Dad. “Come here, Bug. My turn now.” He opens his arms.“I don’t know, Bud, you didn’t text me on my birthday,” I reply with my hands across my chest, but keep on walking to him.“I’m sorry,” he says, regret in his voice. “I have tons of work at the west coast office this week. But I’m here now.”Adrian’s hug is the second best.“I know.” I hug him tight. “And thank you.” We let go and he kisses my temple.“Ask me anything as your present this year.”“No, it’s fine. I got what I want here.”As if on cue, Mom appears. “My Sweet!” she exclaims.Soon I’m engulfed in the cloud of Channel no. 5 she’d used for as long as I remember. She realeses me, teary-eyed. “Happy birthday, Sweety. I can’t believe you’re all grown up now.”Dad step behind her and place a hand around her hip. “We’re so proud of you, Sweetheart.”Seeing my parents, the way they hold, love each other, the way they love and nurture us, I know I luck out. To be born in this family, to have them as my family.“Group hug!”My parents’ laughs and Adrian’s groan fills the room.****Nate : *Morning, beautiful*Bryanna : *Nate?*Nate : *I like that we already nicknamed each other*Nate : *You busy today?*Bryanna : *It seems unlikely, but I don’t know.*Bryanna : *Things could come up. Why?*Nate : *Just want to make that another time real.*Bryanna : *Already?*Nate : *If that’s okay. Sorry if I come out strong.*Bryanna : *Nonono, it’s okay, for real.*Bryanna : *I’m just really bad at this.*Nate : *This? What is this?*Bryanna : *This flirting?*Bryanna : *I don’t have many experience in dating, so I’m kinda rusty.*Bryanna : *Am I suppose to say that?*Bryanna : *Omg I already ruin this.*Bryanna : *Now I'm freaking out*Nate : *Hey, it’s fine. You can say that.*Nate : *How about tonight?*Nate : *I have a gig at Stewart’s.*Nate : *We can hangout after.*Nate : *We’re just two people getting to know each other, no need to overthink.*Bryanna : *Sorry. I’m embarassing myself*Nate : *So tonight?*Bryanna : *Yeah I like that.*Nate : *Okay, then.*Nate : *See ya there, beautiful.*Bryanna : *See you, Nate.*****After sending the last text, I run to Mo’s door and start pounding. “It’s too early, Bry.” Tom’s voice is heard from inside. “Give us an hour.”“I’m sorry, Tom, but I don’t care. It’s emergency. I need my best friend now.”A lot of whispers, grumbles and giggles before the said door open revealing Mo’s ruffled appearence. “What now?”I pull her to my room, toss her my phone then hid myself under the cover, pillow above my head.Morwenna can’t hold her laughter after she read my text convo with Nate seconds later. “You are really rusty, Bry.”“Stop it,” I groan from beneath the pillow. “I’m dying here.”“Yeah, me too. I can feel your face burning from up here.” She tosses the pillow. “Sit.”I can’t believe she order me like a dog. No, scratch that. I BELIEVE it.I sit, palms covering my face. “Mo, kill me now,” I whine.Morwenna reaches for my hands and hold it with hers. “You really like him, don’t you?”The way she ask tells me that she knows what I’m feeling. I already told you I don’t usually date, I wasn’t easily attracted to every guy I met. It wasn’t every day I give time and effort to a guy I barely know.To answer her rhetorical question, I shrug. “I want to know more about him. He seems like a really nice guy.”“Yeah?” Mo wiggles her brows. “And not to mention he get the whole aspiring artist vibe. And nice package.”“Gross.”“Not.”I roll my eyes.“But seriously, Bry, if you find him attractive then maybe you should follow your heart. Give him and yourself a chance. Waiting for the right man is good, but you won’t know he’s right until you get to know him. Right?” Mo swats the air with her right palm. “Gah, look how many rights I used just know. And to think my fiance is an editor.”I roll my eyes at her, again.“Speaking of the right man.” She stands. “I’m going to come back to my man and get my fill.” She wiggles her brows again. “While you,” her finger touches my nose lightly, “Prepare yourself before you grab your man.” She ends her monologue with a wink.Then she sashays out of my room, closes the door behind her, leaving me to my thoughts.I like Nate.Wow.I like Nate.****I stand in front of the tall mirror in my room. In a black halter top, dark-washed high-waisted skinny jeans, and my peep-toe black suede booties, face painted with natural look--because I don’t want to give a wrong vibe, I feel excited. I can’t remember when was the last time I dressed up for a date. Or hanging out with a guy, in this case. Whatever.I grab my cobalt suede fringe jacket before heading out. Closing the door, I find Mo and Tom curls up on the sofa watching a movie. “Someone’s ready to kill tonight,” Tom whistles.“You look good,” Mo says on approval. “I like this waves. And the outfits.” She eyes me from top to bottom and nods.“I like it too,” I replay, grinning. “I hope it’s not too much.”“Nah, girl, you’re perfect.” She untangles herself from Tom and stands to smooch my temple. “I feel like a proud momma sending her daughter to her first prom.” She fake wipes her eyes.Tom shakes his head at her antic. “Darling, let the girl be.” He pulls her down. “You’ll be fine,
Unsurprisingly, nothing can steady the butterflies in my belly and the heady feeling that kiss left me with until this morning. I have to admit that after getting on my bed, I couldn’t stop reliving that kiss over and over again, even my dream. Hence my good mood though I didn’t sleep that long.Or, that well. Wink! His kiss, oh my God, his kiss was soooo good I can still taste it on my lips. How Nate stirred my feelings with only his tongue. I cannot imagine what will happen to me if we ever go further than that. I will be doomed, of that I’m sure. But, it will be a good way to go, right? To die in the arms of your loved ones. To die in pleasure. To die in love. Ah, in love. I can’t wait to– “Bug, wake up! I brought your joe and cupcakes!” Yummy! There's coffee! And ... Wait, what? Isn’t that Adrian’s voice? He is in my apartment? Why is he in my apartment? What did he just say? Joe? Cupcakes? Wait, wait, wait. Cupcakes. Cupcakes! “Coming!” I shout from behind my bedroom doo
My confusion and anger comes to the surface again right after I finish one more cupcake and my caramel macchiato. Don’t laugh. It’s like my body knows what I need so it urged me to feed on some energy before prosecuting what my heart want. Probably twenty minutes behind Adrian’s departure, I put the remaining cupcakes in the fridge and head straight to shower. I have one mission and I want to get my hand on it as fast as I can. I cannot wait to tell Lincoln what’s on my mind. I cannot wait to tell him to shove his unneeded judgement to where the sun don’t shine. An hour later—God, I hate driving in this city—I charge into Stewart’s, having no care about the closed sign on the door. I know he is here. He must be. There’s no other place Lincoln will be but here.The brightly lit room welcomes me. But the broody butthole behind the bar? Not so much. Lincoln stares me down like he doesn’t have any idea what I am doing here. Well, maybe he doesn’t, but it is just because he didn’t kno
I drive home in a daze, my mind keeps replaying Lincoln’s sad eyes. And each time, the feeling in my stomach worsen. Now after everything was out, I begin to think that maybe I over-reacted. Maybe Lincoln was just looking out for me. Maybe he thought of me as his little sister he should protect. Maybe Adrian was right. Oh, God ....But, no! He doesn't deserve my guilt. After ... after that, he doesn't deserve anything from me.Damn it! Why do I have this conflicting feelings?I bang my head to the headrest, hoping the hurt will distract me from this gnawing feeling I feel within. I couldn’t find any satisfaction I thought I would feel. When everything is said and done, what was left is–A vibrating sound interrupts my train of thoughts. I glance at the lit up screen before turn left and lead my car to the assigned parking lot. I unlock my phone.Nate : wanna hangout tonight?Joy instantly kicks the worry out of my head and fulfills the space inside the car. My heart begins to race in
I wonder how many times a heart can break until it could not be repair again.I got my first hit today. It was when the only girl I ever loved told me I didn’t have any say in her business. She told me to stay away from her life. She told me to stay away from her. Believe me I tried. I really did. Beside, at that time, I didn’t want to have an intimate meeting with Adrian’s right hook. He has a mean one, even back then. But, this wasn’t a problem anymore. Nothing get past my best friend. He was—and still is—observant to a fault. I still remember the day when he outed me. I chuckles to the thought. Fuck, did I really think I could hide something this big from him? That night freshmen year in college, we were at a beach. Although we were new, we always got invited to any upperclassmen parties because of his and my dad’s names. Adrian was making the best out of it. Me? Nah. I was busy pining a certain brunette back at home. “The fuck, Bro?” drawls Adrian. He is pissed drunk. “Yeah,
“And then he was grabing my hair. And ... and ... he cupped my face. He kissed my jaw, my ear, my neck. I lose my grip in reality because of his touch. Oh ... my ... God.” I suddenly sit up. “We kissed in the middle of Gonner's crowded dance floor. I can’t believe I did that!"My Korean face mask plops down on my lap like a used wet tissue because of my sudden movement. I pick it up and resume my position beside Mo, mindlessly putting the mask back on my face again. It’s okay, five minutes rule apply to face mask too.I continue my story. “But that kiss, that kiss, Mo ... hands down. It was the. Best. Kiss. I’ve. Ever. Had. In. My. Life! It’s like he took some classes for mastering the artrt of kissing somewhere. Or maybe he was just had a lot, I mean, practice. But, I don’t care. I was the one he was kissing last night. I hope I will be the one in the future too,” I describe everything that happened last night until I am out of breath and out off my mind thinking about Nate’s lips on
I hope to heaven my Lyft will be the only thing canceled this afternoon. I order a new one and enter Adrian’s address. Then I can’t call Nate’s number fast enough. Looking at the clock on the screen, I see it’s just three twenty nine. He shouldn’t be on his way to Stewart’s right now.Fingers crossed I don’t have to let my kiss go. Please, please, please, pick up, pick up, my heart chants as the call connects. Nate picks on the third ring. “Bryanna?”“Yes, it’s Bryanna,” I confirm. Who would have thought answering a phone call with question will be a trend today? “Eh, sorry.” He chuckles. “I didn’t expect your call.”“Yeah, me too.” I curse Adrian in my mind. “But my brother just called. He went out of the country and asked me to dogwatch. So ....” I trail off, not sure how to say what’s on my mind.“So what, Beautiful?”“Hm, so ... if you don’t mind, would you like to come to his apartment instead of meeting me atStewart’s? I have to stay there because my building didn’t allow pet.
Detaching his lips, Nate says, “I waited all day to do that.”“Yeah?” My voice is hoarse from the kiss.He kisses me again as an answer.We do this for awhile, a long while, and I still could do it longer if not for the fact that we need to breathe. Drawing out, I inhale deeply before starting another round. Kissing him is officially my number one favorite activity to do right now.I can feel his lips twitch with his usual cocky smirk and taste the satisfaction in his tongue. He likes the way I reacted to his kiss. He likes it that I like his touch. “Nate,” I moan his name.He chuckles. “What do you want, Beautiful?” He asks on my lips.I want you. I want you so bad. I want you, like, yesterday. But, I couldn’t say that out loud. I recall one of Morwenna’s advice she deemed is the keys to a successful dating. ‘Push and pull, Bry. Know when to push and how to pull. The art of this push and pull is what will lure him. And remember, don’t show all your cards.’Well, it’s too late to hide