MARISSA
“Hello my blonde beauties!” Denise’s voice rang out from the hall before she turned the corner into the kitchen.
The fuzzy purple hat sitting on top of her fiery red hair was dotted with white snowflakes. She’d pulled off her coat already and was working on her gloves as she flicked on the kettle and plopped down in her seat for breakfast. “Man, is it coming down out there. I’m frozen.”
“And apparently you’ve taken a dislike to knocking and doorbells,” I told her, unable to help the smile pulling at my lips. I loved that she felt so at home here she no longer knocked, but I had to give her at least a little grief about it.
Rolling her olive green eyes, she piled some egg onto her fork and bypassed my comment. “Why are all men the same?”
“They can’t help it. It’s because of their—” I trailed off, suddenly remembering Annie was in the room with us. “Anatomy. It’s because they’re so much bigger.”
Denise winked at me, but then she sighed. “Bigger, yeah. Got you. Still, guys suck.”
“Justin doesn’t suck,” Annie chimed in, adding, “He got a dragon. I think it probably bites. Maybe it’s still a baby and it still sucks.”
“Okay, okay,” Denise conceded. “Not all guys, just guys my age. I’m giving up on dating.”
“I’ve been telling you that since I met you,” I told her. The kettle started boiling and I got up to fix us some coffee. “What happened?”
“Dating is gross,” Annie stated, as though it was a fact we should have been very well aware of.
“Yeah, dating is gross,” I agreed, adding a dash of milk to our coffees before carrying them over to the table and handing over Denise’s mug.
She shot a look in Annie’s direction and shrugged. “Let’s just leave it at me taking Annie’s advice. Dating is gross and I’m done with it. Let’s talk about something else.”
“I’ve got the rest of the week off,” I volunteered. “Annie and I talked about doing something fun later. Maybe ice skating.”
“You and I would look like giant blobs at the ice rink, but yeah, that could be fun.” Denise and I were both what people would caller bigger, beautiful women. We weren’t shy or embarrassed by our body types, though. We owned it and often joked about it.
I had never been, and never wanted to be, stick thin, and Denise felt the same way. We’d bonded over it shortly after I met her. Real women had curves, and that was how we felt about it. We were not unhealthy, we exercised whenever we could fit it in, and enjoyed the occasional ice cream.
It was society’s obsession with girls who had their ribs sticking out that was unhealthy. Not the girls, necessarily, but the obsession with it. The way I looked at it, your build was your build. You could either accept and embrace what ‘mother nature’ blessed you with, or spend the rest of your life being unhappy and feeling bad about yourself.
Denise drew my attention back to reality. To the kitchen where I was enjoying breakfast with my family and not, in fact, busy delivering a motivational monologue to the crowd of women I was talking to in my mind.
“When do you go back to work?” She asked, smiling. “Next week there’s a ballet starting I thought Annie might like to watch. Do you want to come with us?”
“I love ballet,” Annie said, dropping her cutlery to clap her hands together excitedly. “Do you think we’ll get to dance?”
Denise's eyes remained on mine and clearly she could see there was something wrong. “Sissy? When do you go back to work?”
She had started calling me Sissy a few months ago, a play on my name, but also a sentiment about how close we’d grown. I’d never been a sister to anyone before, but I had always wanted one. I had found that in Denise, a kindred spirit I saw as my sister.
I shrugged, not wanting Annie to get alarmed about my job or our conversation about it. She was so sensitive to my feelings. “I have no clue. Since my boss passed, no one really knows what’s going to happen. Human resources just told us to take the week off.”
“I’m sure it’ll be fine,” Denise assured me. “In a company that size, the boss doesn’t really matter.”
“In mine it does,” I told her, doing my best to keep my voice even. “People hired us for him, not the firm. There’s no one to take over work only he could do.”
“They’ll figure something out,” Denise said. “Plus, who knows, maybe your boss left you some money.”
“Yeah, I wish, but I know that’s not the case.” It would’ve been nice though, to receive an unexpected windfall.
Denise, Annie and I would have been able to live out the rest of our lives without worry for a fraction of what he was bound to have had in his bank accounts. It would be nice not to have to worry, but hey, worrying was what moms did anyway.
LAYTONIt was still early, the sun wasn’t even fully risen yet. Annie and I had both snuck out of bed early this morning to make this breakfast. Marissa was fast asleep, lying on her side on the bed.Annie set down the tray and the glass and shook Marissa’s shoulders. “Mommy! Wake up Mommy! We have a surprise for you.”Marissa’s eyes blinked open slowly, confusion clouding them until she rubbed it away as she sat up and took in the scene in front of her. “What’s all this?”“We’re celebrating,” I told her. “I spoke to Craig earlier. They’re on their way to the site for the final clean up. The building’s finally done.”Her lips curled into a sleepy smile. “I can’t believe that it’s over. It’s really all done?”“It’s really all done,” I confirmed, picking up the tray and placing her plate on it on her lap. “Eat up, we’ve got a lot of celebrating ahead of us today.”“Shouldn’t I be the one feeding you breakfast in bed for this?” She asked, frowning slightly. Lifting up the duvet, she patt
LAYTONIn the past two months since Annie’s first ballet recital, there had been three more. Which were four more recitals than I ever thought I would attend. Or actually enjoy.But I did enjoy them. I enjoyed them so much I was even starting to consider myself something of an expert in ballet. I knew was arabesque meant, what pas de deux was, and that attitude referred to a position in classical ballet, and not a little girl shaking her finger in your face.I watched Annie practicing every night, since I had now officially moved in with them. So officially that there was a tenant renting my place and everything. Marissa didn’t know it yet, but I had been looking at houses for us online for the last couple of weeks.Most of my furniture was now in storage since our house wasn’t big enough for all my furniture and all of Marissa’s. I didn’t love the thought of my stuff gathering dust in a storage unit and I wanted us to have a place that was truly ours, not mine or hers.I had to wait
MARISSALayton also threw himself deeper into his commitment to our family. He started driving Annie to school sometimes or offering to pick her up. He took her fishing a few more times and taught her how to play catch.Our lives together was everything I was ever too afraid to hope for. Watching him watch her recital now, tears burned the backs of my eyes.His eyes still hadn’t left the stage for so much as second and I could see the pride he was feeling, I felt it too. He was so much better of a father to Annie than Brice ever could have been. And he stepped into that role gracefully and seriously.I wondered if he would bolt when he eventually realized she was starting to look at him as her dad, but he’d done the complete opposite. On the contrary, he freaking loved being her ‘dad.’The final notes of the recital ended, the girls all dipping into low bows as the hall exploded in applause. Parents leaped to their feet and Layton and I joined them.“She was fantastic,” he yelled into
MARISSALayton’s eyes were glued to Annie on stage. Watching him now, it was hard to remember a time when I doubted his love or his commitment to her. Or to me, for that matter.The past six months had been perfect. A fairy tale I never believed was in the cards for me. But somewhere, somehow, someone sent Layton to me and let me keep him.After I finally told him I loved him, there was no turning back. And neither of us wanted to. We came clean to Annie about our relationship that same week and she was thrilled.She hugged both of us and refused to let us go. That next week Layton stayed over for the first time that Annie knew of. She was so excited when she saw him arriving with an overnight bag that she zoomed and bounced around all night before finally crashing hard. When she fell asleep, it was on the couch between us.Layton had insisted on being the one to carry her to her bedroom and when he came back to the living room, he had this expression of absolute serenity on his face.
LAYTON“I was just thinking about something that happened with Annie a few weeks ago,” I told him, shaking the memories out of my head. As the site came back into focus, I noticed how much progress there had been in the week since I was last here. “It’s looking good, Craig. You guys are really outdoing yourself on this one.”“We’re doing our best,” he said, shrugging. “I encouraged you to do this by yourself without that other asshole involved. Least I can do is to have your back now that you’re actually doing it.”“Thanks, man. I appreciate it.” I still couldn’t believe some days that this building really was all mine. I tried not to think about it too much, since there was still a lot that could go wrong. I didn’t want to tempt fate by thinking about how well it was going. “Has the flooring been delivered yet?”“Right on time,” Craig said. “They delivered on Friday morning as promised.”I breathed out a sigh of relief. The people who manufactured the flooring called two weeks ago to
LAYTONSix months after Marissa first told me she loved me, I walked onto the construction site where the museum was just about done. The scaffolding was coming off today and the team was moving inside. We had two months left to go, tops.The past six months had been the best months of my life. By a long shot. The museum was progressing without any major hold-ups, which was more of a relief than I cared to admit out loud.Marissa, Annie and I were doing better than ever. In the last few weeks, we’d started talking about moving in together, and I was sure it was going to happen soon.I knew it was going to be an adjustment to live together, especially for Annie and me, but it was what I wanted more than anything. I wanted to wake up next to Marissa every morning, to have breakfast with her and Annie before we headed to work.I wanted to be there to tuck Annie in at night and to spend lazy weekends with them. Only a year ago, if anyone had told me I would ever want that kind of life, I