This is officially my fourth week in New York, and I'm getting used to being here.
Wearing hijab is a norm in Indonesia but here in New York, especially in my office, I'm like a rare species simply because I'm the only one who wears it.I've received multiple questions from my colleagues that sometimes I wonder if they ask because they genuinely don't know about it or simply to mock me; “Do you sleep with it”, “Do you shower with it”, and the one that got me extremely speechless was, “Do you actually have hair?”I try to be positive and answer them with a smile eventhough sometimes I do wanna be spiteful and throw that “Of course I shower with it, I use Hijab and Shoulder”. But no, compose yourself Alya. Show them that Islam is beautiful, not condescending."Oh wow," I hear a gasp next to me, "You look so much better without that thing!"I turn to her as I put another one of my friendly face, "Thank you." Is all I said then I get back to putting on my hijab. Sometimes this chiffon shawl I'm using is quite slippery that it moves hence the need to fix it at the restroom every few hours."Such a shame you've gotta cover up," she makes that sad puppy eyes with the pouty mouth, showing sympathy to me."It's okay, I'm happy to do it." That's what I've been telling myself since I last taken my hijab off.Two weeks ago I left Cupcake headquarter with the determination of never stepping my foot there ever again. What was proposed is an insult to me as a woman, downgrading us as if we'd do anything for money.Fifty thousand a week is a lot of money, but I'm willing to say no to that if it means keeping my integrity intact.Miss Collins called me three days after our meeting to which I gave a no as my answer. She accepted it and thanked me for coming to her office, but at the same time reminding me of the NDA.I continue living my life the way I've been, though at times I do imagine what it’s gonna be like if I'm indeed married to a man.I'm twenty nine this year, obviously still single with no prospect of getting married soon. After the Arab boyfriend, I did get into two relationships afterwards but all failed because I don't think they measure up to my standard.My grandmother told me countless of times to never be pressured with the fact I'm getting older, or that my younger brother is already married with a baby on the way. “It's better to get married later with your soulmate who checks all your list than to settle with just anyone and get divorced two years later.”Thankfully my parents have an open mind regarding this, mainly because of what happened with the Arab guy is a big lesson learn to all of us. They'd rather I'm single but happy than to lose myself in the name of being a wife.Most of my friends are married with kids and I can't help but to wonder, how does it feel to be one?But then again, what my Grandmother said really makes me think twice that I'm a bit scared to dip my feet into that realm. What if it doesn't work out and I end up getting divorced after a year? What will happen if I'm already with child? It's a scary thought so I'd always stop and forget altogether about getting married.I Go0gled about Mr Gunn right after I came home, to know what is it that he does for a living since he paid such a large sum of money to the sugar babies who pretend to be his wife.Unfortunately, there are a lot of Gunn that came out from the search so I'm not sure which one is the cuckoo Mr Gunn. I rest my case and from there on, I don't ever indulge into finding out about him except to occasionally think what would it be like if I said yes, if it will curb my curiosity of how it feels like to be a wife. ***"I'm gonna be honest with you." I really am being honest with him by showing up in my work clothes as well as this turban hijab on my head, causing him to mouth a big O the moment he saw me standing in front of him."There's more?"I chuckle at his subtle joke as he sips on his tea. We're both sitting at a nearby cafe for a chat I requested once he got over the shock of discovering me being a hijabis."I wanna know about being Scarlett."He smirks in a teasing way, "Aha! Somebody's interested!""I am. But as you can see," I stop there as I wave the turban on my head, signalling religion as my stop sign to the proposal."You really wear that thing? Not just for fashion?"I laugh to another comment regarding my hijab. But shake my head as to answer him, "I've been wearing this since I was nineteen.""But you look like you're fifteen."Have I told you how comfortable I feel with Drey despite this being our second meeting?"Tell me," I urge him, "What it's like being a Scarlett? I take it you've dealt with lots of Scarletts in the past?""I do. I train all the Scarletts.""You dooo?""I've been training them for years, but you would be the first one who's this short. And of course, a Muslim too if I have to point the obvious."I nod understandingly, the way he said years means Mr Gunn has been a cuckoo for a while now. Has he never gotten his head checked? Why would he want to be with someone who has left him and never moved on? What's so special with this original Scarlett?"Tell me about her.""I can't," he sighs, "You need to sign a contract for that.""I already signed an NDA.""No, that's for us to be able to make an offer to you, to be a Scarlett to Mr Gunn. The contract I was talking about is actually agreeing to be his pretend wife, for at least three months. Only then I can tell you more, Sweetheart.""But I can't be his pretend wife.""Why not? I promise you he's a nice guy.""It's just that he's a bit damaged on the head?"He laughs at my choice of words but I continue, "Look, I'm twenty nine and I wanna be married. I wanna know how it feels like to be married. But at the same time I don't want to be married to the wrong person. And this Mr Gunn sounds like a wrong person to me.""So what if he's the wrong one? If you can't take it anymore, then just tell him you wanna quit. At least you get to cash in a day or a week, however long you can last. A day equals five thousand, and it's double on the weekends. Who's gonna give you twenty thousand for just spending your Saturday and Sunday with that cuckoo head? Hmm? Shit, even I'm calling him cuckoo. Collin’s gonna kill me if she hears I call our client that."I grin as he takes another sip of his tea, "He's cuckoo, right? You're agreeing with me.""Just sign the contract so I can train you already.""I can't.""Why not?""It's against my principle.""Which principle are we talking about? That you're a Muslim? But you were just fine showing up with your hair two weeks ago?"I shake my head repeatedly, "No, not that one.""Enlighten me.""Don't you think it's degrading to offer yourself for money? I'm not gonna sleep with a man for fifty thousand."He laughs as if I was telling him something funny, "Ohhh you've gotta listen better, Sweetheart. Collins already told you, she can negotiate that part. You don't have to sleep with him. You just need to show up as Scarlett. Fifty thousand coming your way while your legs are tightly screwed together. I've told you, Mr Gunn is nice.""So nice guys don't get horny?"The laugh gets louder but he nods while flicking his index finger a couple times, agreeing to my argument."I promise you it will be worth your time. And I don't always promise, Sweetheart.""Mr Gunn accepts the first two conditions," Miss Collins announces on the follow-up meeting after I laid out five things to be brought to him prior my agreement to the contract, "But he won't tolerate the remaining three." First, I will never, under any circumstances, have sex with him be it oral sex, vaginal sex, anal sex, fingering or hand jobs, dry humping or genital rubbing, or masturbation. Fucking wrap your junk and hide it from me. Second, I will not sleep with him even without any physical contact. Because satan is always beside us to influence us towards sinful acts. Third, I will only be available during the weekend. Fourth, I will not live with him.Fifth, family is off-limit. Be it mine, or his."So I have to live with him full-time?" That would be impossible, "I have my day job. There is no way I'm gonna apply leave from work for three months straight for him." Even if it guarantees me a hundred and fifty thousand dollar.That's 2.1 billion rupiah. I will not just b
I thought he'd be proud to know I've memorised all the utensils on which to use for what but he's a tough one to please because I stutter the moment he asked me to demonstrate on how to use the spoon for soup in case it's hot. "You do it half moon crescent," he runs his spoon in the soup in front of him, "Not blowing it as if you're playing trumpet." I giggle again and pick up my soup spoon, copying his act, "Like this?" "Make sure your spoon is facing the other way when you dip into the soup." I sigh, "I'd rather not eat soup in front of people my entire life if there is so many rules to follow." I'm sure he'll faint if he sees how hard I blow my instant noodle and slurp it loudly whenever I‘m eating it. No, not eating it. GOBBLING it. After we're done with the food etiquette class, it's the styling class next. It's a miracle no matter how many hours I've spent with him for this particular class, there will always be something new to know about Scarlett, or being a rich woman i
"Is it laundry day?" My sister, Dian teases me in Indonesian as she munches on her snack while watching me button the tweed jacket I've just put on. "No, no, no. Wrong question. Is it pay day?" Oh I know what she meant by that. Being sisters means we share our clothes despite the difference in our size; she's two sizes smaller so she can wear mine but I can never fit into hers. That also means she knows every article of clothing I own, and this two-piece skirt suit is too obvious for being a brand new expensive-looking item I just owned. "Whose is it?" "Not mine." "Yeaaaaa I know it's not yours, obviously," she rolls her eyes at the last word, "But who's the designer? How much is it?" To be honest, I have no idea how much does this skirt suit cost. All I know is Drey specifically asked me to wear this on my first meeting with Mr Gunn. Uhh, I mean Honey. "Uhm let me check," I walk to my bed and grab the skirt I laid there, wanting to inspect the tag at the back to which she ga
"Go to the penthouse, meet him there. Have dinner with him. Off you go to your own bedroom to end the night."Step one is completed, now onto step two. Honestly, I'm prepared to give him two kisses a day, as per Drey's briefing. One would be in the morning, when I send him to the door before he go to work. The second would be at night, right before we depart to each other's bedroom. And those kisses were supposed to be lip-locked but being a hard headed, I made it a non-negotiable condition on top of the two he agreed earlier before I signed the contract, that I will only kiss his cheek, unlike the previous Scarletts who would have no problem to kiss him on the lips. I'm a Muslim, remember? But that, was unexpected. I thought I have at least an hour or two to decide if I'm pulling myself out of this charade but one minute in, he already marked his lips on my body. My hair, to be exact. "Bee," the way he calls me as he goes down the stairs gives me this certain vibe, as if I'm r
"Tell him I-love-you as much as you want, that's part of your job description. And don't worry, he won't fall for you." "He never fall in love with any of the Scarletts?" "Nope. Every time we have a new Scarlett he has no problem to switch them up." "You mean he currently has a Scarlett? Like right-now?""Her contract will be terminated just before yours is activated, as in your first day with him." "What? I thought you said he's nice?" "He is. But this is a business transaction. If we have a new product, of course he wants the latest version.""So we're like iPhones? To be changed every time a new one is available? He's a jerk alright." I still remember that conversation I had with Drey, and the remark I made of calling him a jerk. But when he said ‘I love you’ just now, he doesn't seem like he's lying. Like he's not the jerk I thought he was. "I love you too, Honey." I reply sweetly, silently knocking my head to remind me that I'm on the clock. He said I-love-you to Scarlet
This is harder than I imagined. To maintain Scarlett's image, I get out of his penthouse in another designer skirt suit and a pair of Louboutin with matching Hermes Kelly. My hair as instructed by Drey, is kept in a low bun."Scarlett will always wear a suit to work, be it a pantsuit or a skirt suit. Bag, always Hermes either a Birkin or a Kelly. Shoes, make sure they're at least four inches high. Hair, in a bun. A professional bun, very much different than a formal dinner bun. And lastly, red lipstick." I am struggling over here to remove this pencil skirt that will be replaced with a pair of slacks. My slacks. Because it'd be weird to wear a headscarf with a skirt that stops a little over the knee. God, it's so hard to have double personalities. Once I'm done with my pants, I put on my hijab to cover my blonde hair. Then I swipe the red color off my lips and use my usual nude lipstick. Lastly, I replace the Louboutin with my Salvatore Ferragamo flats, the one I always opt for wo
I've always had this dilemma whenever I travel, ESPECIALLY when I travel with my family. We are foodie people, we travel mostly because of food, and travelling overseas means we don't really get halal food all the time. It's easy for my family because they don't mind eating anything as long as it's not pork. But for me, who's a bit particular about food, since I've gotta maintain my hijabis image and all, I'd always opt for vegan or kosher meals. Until it reaches the seventh or eighth day of our vacation that I'd get sick of eating the same old limited-option vegan and kosher meals while watching my family gobble anything in the world except pork. That's how my faith fades a bit and I start to taste just a bite of what they're having that suddenly, out of nowhere, I'm already ordering a full meal for myself. And now, after three months of living in New York with those limited food option, I am now being served a plate of meat that looked fucking delicious with such beautiful deco
My wardrobe is stocked with different types of clothes, already being categorised accordingly by Drey to ease me in choosing one without getting confused. Casual wear-home, casual wear-dates, casual wear-family, casual wear-friends, oh God how many categories are there for casual wear alone? Then there are nightgowns, workwear, brunch dresses, lunch dresses, tea dresses, dinner dresses, Goddd there are so many categories I'm beginning to wonder how committed Drey is with his job for being thisss particular, on top of the extensive training he put me on for two months straight. Today is my first weekend with Honey, and if my memory serves, we're going to have a picnic later. I'm not sure when will it be but for now, I need to worry on what to wear between his coffee at 7 and brunch at 11- assuming we're really having a picnic brunch later- so what should I wear when I'm home with him? Yeah yeah, I have this entire section dedicated for ‘casual wear-home’ but which one should I choo