LOGINEmre goes to Ghent in June and sits with Absalom Lieth for four days.
He does not expect anything. He says so on the phone to Veira on the first evening, in the flat voice of a man managing an expectation downward before it can damage him.
"He doesn't know me. He hasn't known anybody since 2013."
"Then why four days."
"Because he taught me everything and I read something out at his memorial while he was alive and eleven years is a long time." A pause. "And because if there is one lucid hour in a year I would like to be in the chair when it happens."
There is no lucid hour.
What there is, on the third afternoon, is a photograph album that a nurse brings out because a visitor is the first Absalom Lieth has had in nine years and the staff have decided to be kind.
Emre goes through it slowly.
Ghent. Lyon. A dog. A conference in the 1980s. And then, on the fourth page from the end, a photograph taken in a garden that Emre recognises immediately because he has walked in it, with a man in his fifties and a woman with dark hair, both squinting, both laughing at something outside the frame.
He telephones Veira at eleven at night.
"There's a photograph," he says. "1993 or 1994, Lyon, in Lieth's garden. He's in it and so is a woman." He is breathing carefully. "Veira. It's your mother."
The line is silent for a long moment.
"Are you certain," she says.
"I have been looking at it for four hours. I'm certain."
"How does a public health postgraduate from Aberdeen end up in a Kin investigator's garden in Lyon in 1994."
"I don't know. But she went to Braehead Lodge for the first time in March 1994, and this photograph is from the same year." He stops. "There's something written on the back. It's in Lieth's hand and it's four words."
"Read it."
"She asked to be told."
Veira does not say anything at all.
"I don't know what it means," Emre says. "It could be about the photograph. It could be about anything."
"It isn't about the photograph."
"No," he agrees. "I don't think it is either."
She is quiet for a while and he lets her be.
"He recruited her," she says at last. "Or he tried to. Aldara said there were nine of them and she was the ninth and she recruited nobody." A pause. "Aldara was recruited in 1974. Lieth was still active in 1994. What if he went looking for a tenth?"
"And chose a human."
"Chose a human with no bloodline, no affiliation, no register entry, and no stake in any of it." Veira's voice has gone very quiet. "Who then went to Aberdeen fourteen times over three years to sit with a woman nobody else would sit with, and never told anyone, and had a daughter in 1997."
"And said one sentence about it, eight years ago, on her deathbed."
"Don't let them be the first voice." Veira breathes out. "She wasn't warning me about the Folklore, Emre. She was warning me about the register. About the nine people who spent a hundred and thirty-six years deciding what hybrid children were allowed to know about themselves."
"I don't think you do, actually, because you've been carrying the second half so hard you've forgotten I've been carrying the first." She pulls her coat round her. "I love you. Not the way you're asking. In the way where there are two of us in the world and there always will be, and if you ever needed me at three in the morning I'd be on a plane before you finished the sentence, and that isn't a consolation prize, Emre, it's the only relationship of its kind that has ever existed."He does not say anything for a while."That is considerably better than what I was braced for," he says."It's also true, which helps.""Is it Cole.""It's been Cole for about four years and I've been refusing to look at it because I was fairly sure I was dying." She picks up a stone and turns it over. "Which he knew, and never once raised, in four years."Emre laughs a real one, short and surprised."He's a better man than I am," he says."He's a better man than most people are. It's very irritating." She
She tells Nell on the deck as they come back into the fjord, because the boat is loud and the wind takes half of it and it is easier to say difficult things when the weather is doing some of the work."It's happened before," she says. "Three times. Same conversation. Somebody at the end of a channel apologising for closing it.""And it came back.""Every time. Not soon they were very clear about not soon, and their not-soon is not our not-soon." Veira watches the black cliffs go past. "But it's not an ending. I've been carrying it as an ending for a year."Nell is quiet for a while."Can I say something you won't like," she says."You will anyway.""You've been treating this whole thing like you're the last one. Since Aberdeen." Nell has her hands in her pockets and is not looking at her. "Every time you talk about the channel closing you say it like the door's shutting behind you. And there's nine of us and there's a school and there's an empty chair in Geneva that Zofia's going to s
It grieves her, which is different, and worse in a quieter way."Then I need to talk to them," she says. "Before it goes. Properly, not a report.""About what?""About what happens to a channel nobody can hold." She stands. "They've been in the Vein since before the compact. They waited seven hundred years for a conduit who could hear them. And in about a year there won't be one, and I'd like them to hear that from me rather than have it stop."Croft says, "You'll need a boat.""I'll need a boat," Veira agrees. "And I'd like Nell to come."Nell looks up sharply."You can't hear them," Veira says. "I know. But you're going to be doing this for sixty years after I stop and I'd rather you'd been in the room once."The Friðargeir is eleven years older and so is Brynja, who greets them at the Reykjavik dock with the expression of a woman who has been waiting five years to be asked again and would rather die than say so."You brought more people," she says."Six.""Last time it was seven."
The programme runs for four years.That is the sentence Veira will use afterwards, when people ask, and it is accurate and it conceals everything, because what four years actually consists of is Tuesdays.Nell takes a full share at seventeen and a second at nineteen and by twenty is carrying more than any of them, and it does not kill her, and by then Joon-Ho has eleven hundred days of monitoring data proving why: gradual, consensual, taught, and above all known the thing that killed the eleven in Utrecht was not the load but the fact that not one of them was ever told what they were holding.Aoife from Cork takes a share at twenty-two and immediately becomes insufferable about it.The girl from Kraków, whose name is Zofia and who did not speak for eleven days in her first month, takes hers at eighteen and then does something none of them anticipated, which is enrol in a medicine degree in Warsaw on the grounds that somebody is going to have to be able to treat this properly in thirty
The committee reports on the Friday and the Assembly convenes on the sixth of April, and Veira is not there.She watches it from the farmhouse on a link Sunnsdottir arranges through a procedural clause nobody has used since 1974, and Sebastien sits beside her for eleven hours and does not once say anything unless she asks him something.Croft opposes the conduit holding the seat. He does it in seven minutes and it is the best speech anybody makes all day and he loses the vote nine to four.Then Veira's written submission is read into the record by the convener, and Solvieg reads all of it, including the last paragraph, which several Elders have plainly not been shown in advance.I decline the seat. I ask the Assembly to create it and leave it vacant until a member of the restored bloodline is of age and willing to hold it. If that takes fifteen years, the vacancy is the accurate record of what was done, and I would ask the Assembly to look at it.There is a silence of about four secon
The committee reports on the Friday and the Assembly convenes on the sixth of April, and Veira is not there.She watches it from the farmhouse on a link Sunnsdottir arranges through a procedural clause nobody has used since 1974, and Sebastien sits beside her for eleven hours and does not once say anything unless she asks him something.Croft opposes the conduit holding the seat. He does it in seven minutes and it is the best speech anybody makes all day and he loses the vote nine to four.Then Veira's written submission is read into the record by the convener, and Solvieg reads all of it, including the last paragraph, which several Elders have plainly not been shown in advance.I decline the seat. I ask the Assembly to create it and leave it vacant until a member of the restored bloodline is of age and willing to hold it. If that takes fifteen years, the vacancy is the accurate record of what was done, and I would ask the Assembly to look at it.There is a silence of about four secon







