~Train Wreck~ As your feelings for someone grow stronger, so does your fear of losing them. ~ Unknown ~ ~ ~ ~At age 18, we were faced with a big life decision. 'I'm keeping the baby,' She said as she walked to the other side of my dorm room. Her face was pale and beads of sweat trickled on her forehead.She always talked about being a mother one day but I didn't think she'd give up her dreams of becoming an author. We both had just started school that year and we were looking forward to the college life experience as well as following our dreams, however, I shattered all of that for her.I couldn't help but blame myself for cutting her dreams so short and even though she was happy and was looking forward to having the baby, deep inside I knew she was sad, worried, and scared
~Collide~ We never taste happiness in perfection, our most fortunate successes are mixed with sadness. ~ Pierre Corneille ~~~~Lately, we've been spending so much time together -- sort of. Seeing her spare her time just to come and see Melissa makes me happy and thankful. I can't deny that there's something that has changed in me since she started coming here more often, not only has their been a change in the way I feel about her, but there's also been a change in the way I act around her. I try to cast these feelings away but they seem to be getting out of control — it's starting to become obvious that I like her more than I'm supposed to. It's starting to become obvious that a single touch of her hand on my skin ignites a fire in me I can't put out. Before, I hardly held eye contact with her because of how nervous I was around her,
~Fictional~ Just thinking about you Brings a smile to my face A twinkle to my eyes And a skipped beat to my heart. ~ Ash Sweeney ~~~~Hours into the party and I'm still feeling downcast, my heart is still aching and there's nothing I can do about it. They've been talking for a long time now, laughing their hearts out like two people that have known each other for a long time; and a part of my heart is chipping away with every second they spend together. Unable to keep the hurt pinned down, I rush outside and sit on one of the garden chairs facing the kitchen; thankfully, no one else is outside except me and I hope the dim lights are enough to keep me hidden from anyone. I just need some alone time to breathe. Not long after I see a male figure walking toward me and it doesn't take me long
~Fictional~ Just thinking about you Brings a smile to my face A twinkle to my eyes And a skipped beat to my heart. ~ Ash Sweeney ~~~~Hours into the party and I'm still feeling downcast, my heart is still aching and there's nothing I can do about it. They've been talking for a long time now, laughing their hearts out like two people that have known each other for a long time; and a part of my heart is chipping away with every second they spend together. Unable to keep the hurt pinned down, I rush outside and sit on one of the garden chairs facing the kitchen; thankfully, no one else is outside except me and I hope the dim lights are enough to keep me hidden from anyone. I just need some alone time to breathe. Not long after I see a male figure walking toward me and it doesn't take me long
~Stupid Cupid~ I will never be yours, And you will never be mine, Nevertheless, I can honestly say; I've fallen so deep for you, And there's not a thing I can do about it. ~ Reenie ~ ~ ~ ~I drift from sleep into wakefulness, my head is pounding and I'm still feeling fatigued from last night's party that lasted for what felt like an eternity. Pushing my body up against the headboard, I run my fingers through my hair before picking my phone up. Reading a message from Tessa asking me if I'm alright, memories from last night flood back in my mind -- the sad memories to be specific. After talking to Ryan, I wasn't the same; as much as I tried to conceal the hurt that was tearing my heart apart, Tessa saw right through me that something was bothering me. I tried to brush it off but th
~Empty Space~ I wanna tell all my friends But I don't think they would understand It's something I've decided 'Cause only you could fill this empty space ~ James Arthur ~~~~Upon gulping down my water from the bottle, I run my fingers through my hair as I expel a sharp breath from my mouth. It's been hours since I left the party and I still can't get over what happened, from the time I walked into the party to the time I left. Seeing her face light up as I approached her is a sight I'll hold onto for as long as I can. She looked so happy to see me despite trying to conceal it, and honestly, I was feeling the same way too; seeing her sent joy to my heart I couldn't stop smiling in her presence. I had spent days looking for the perfect gift to give her immediately her mother told me about the party. Since I started spending time
~Breathe~ Shake me from my sleep, whisper in my ear Tell me it was all a dream And you're here to make, the nightmares, go away ~ Unknown ~~~~ ~ ~ ~ ~Upon dropping off the school bus, I run inside the house with my thumbs tucked under the straps of my pink backpack. Since morning, I've been looking forward to coming back home and watching my favorite cartoon, the Powerpuff Girls while eating my favorite cereal, Coco Pops. As soon as I open the door, I hear yelling coming from the other side of the house. The loud roaring voice of my stepdad echoes in these walls that it sends shivers down my spine. Lately, that's all he's been doing, yelling at her and calling her all sorts of names. Scared, I start running to my bedroom that is upstairs but freeze instantly the s
~The Other Side~ It is not enough to dream of the Impossible love, It's necessary to conquer it too ~ Paulo CoelhoA few days have passed since Becca came here and memories of her hurting before she walked out of the door are still playing in my mind. I've thought about calling her to find out if she's doing okay but I can't go back on my word, I told myself to distance myself from her, and calling her is not a way to distance myself. With Melissa spending a lot of time at my sister's place, this house has been quiet and empty and I've been trying to do everything I can to keep my mind busy. Upon wiping down the kitchen countertops, I take the trash bags out of the bin to rid of them. I've been deep cleaning since morning, and thankfully, it has been therapeutic. It's mid-afternoon and I'm tired out I just want to relax after this. As soon as