~Secret~ Everyone has secrets. It's just a matter of finding out what they are. ~ Stieg Larsson ~ ~ ~ ~Upon getting home, I lock all the doors and take a shower before making dinner. Shifting my eyes to the window that's across from mine and is as empty as always, I can't help but wish to see Ryan pop up. As much as I'm trying to run away from these foreign feelings I keep having whenever I think of him or I'm around him; I keep being pulled back and always find myself catching them like my lungs depend on them to breathe. After minutes of sitting still and in silence, I finally realize that he's not going to pop up, I then turn my head away and head downstairs to enjoy the rest of the night -- that's if I will.Laying on the couch, I stare a
~I Wish You Were Mine~ Of all the people my heart could have chosen, it decided on someone who didn't have enough room in his own heart to love someone like me. ~ A.V ~ ~ ~ ~Days go by and things are still the same between Tessa and I, keeping such a huge secret from her is taunting and I don't know how much longer I can hold it.Even though Jake hasn't denied nor confirmed it by mouth, everything is crystal clear; from the looks he gave me on that day, I know what he does and sadly, I can't tell Tessa. I can't tell her for her own good and safety. Days have gone by and I've tried to put this behind me but the thought of him doing something illegal gets me up at night, I can't shake the fear that keeps tormenting my heart day
~Deep End~ Falling hard and fast. And there didn't seem to be a thing I could do about it. ~ Lisa Kleypas ~ ~ ~ ~Sitting at the bottom of the staircase as I play with my dolls, I hear noises coming from the kitchen; they're loud and aggressive. Puffing out a breath, I turn my attention back to my dolls and proceed to play with one of the doll's hair. Excitement fills my heart when I finally succeed in tying the doll's hair into a ponytail. I did it! I smile; I'm overfilled with joy and after finally achieving something I thought was impossible, I feel like I can do anything. I'm too excited, too busy complimenting my doll that I don't notice that th
~Train Wreck~ As your feelings for someone grow stronger, so does your fear of losing them. ~ Unknown ~ ~ ~ ~At age 18, we were faced with a big life decision. 'I'm keeping the baby,' She said as she walked to the other side of my dorm room. Her face was pale and beads of sweat trickled on her forehead.She always talked about being a mother one day but I didn't think she'd give up her dreams of becoming an author. We both had just started school that year and we were looking forward to the college life experience as well as following our dreams, however, I shattered all of that for her.I couldn't help but blame myself for cutting her dreams so short and even though she was happy and was
~Train Wreck~ As your feelings for someone grow stronger, so does your fear of losing them. ~ Unknown ~ ~ ~ ~At age 18, we were faced with a big life decision. 'I'm keeping the baby,' She said as she walked to the other side of my dorm room. Her face was pale and beads of sweat trickled on her forehead.She always talked about being a mother one day but I didn't think she'd give up her dreams of becoming an author. We both had just started school that year and we were looking forward to the college life experience as well as following our dreams, however, I shattered all of that for her.I couldn't help but blame myself for cutting her dreams so short and even though she was happy and was looking forward to having the baby, deep inside I knew she was sad, worried, and scared
~Collide~ We never taste happiness in perfection, our most fortunate successes are mixed with sadness. ~ Pierre Corneille ~~~~Lately, we've been spending so much time together -- sort of. Seeing her spare her time just to come and see Melissa makes me happy and thankful. I can't deny that there's something that has changed in me since she started coming here more often, not only has their been a change in the way I feel about her, but there's also been a change in the way I act around her. I try to cast these feelings away but they seem to be getting out of control — it's starting to become obvious that I like her more than I'm supposed to. It's starting to become obvious that a single touch of her hand on my skin ignites a fire in me I can't put out. Before, I hardly held eye contact with her because of how nervous I was around her,
~Fictional~ Just thinking about you Brings a smile to my face A twinkle to my eyes And a skipped beat to my heart. ~ Ash Sweeney ~~~~Hours into the party and I'm still feeling downcast, my heart is still aching and there's nothing I can do about it. They've been talking for a long time now, laughing their hearts out like two people that have known each other for a long time; and a part of my heart is chipping away with every second they spend together. Unable to keep the hurt pinned down, I rush outside and sit on one of the garden chairs facing the kitchen; thankfully, no one else is outside except me and I hope the dim lights are enough to keep me hidden from anyone. I just need some alone time to breathe. Not long after I see a male figure walking toward me and it doesn't take me long
~Fictional~ Just thinking about you Brings a smile to my face A twinkle to my eyes And a skipped beat to my heart. ~ Ash Sweeney ~~~~Hours into the party and I'm still feeling downcast, my heart is still aching and there's nothing I can do about it. They've been talking for a long time now, laughing their hearts out like two people that have known each other for a long time; and a part of my heart is chipping away with every second they spend together. Unable to keep the hurt pinned down, I rush outside and sit on one of the garden chairs facing the kitchen; thankfully, no one else is outside except me and I hope the dim lights are enough to keep me hidden from anyone. I just need some alone time to breathe. Not long after I see a male figure walking toward me and it doesn't take me long