Se connecter~ LENA ~
On our wedding night, every inch of your body will be mine to explore...
The words haunted me.
They followed me into bed at night, dominating my thoughts as I lay awake beneath the sheets, unable to sleep. When I tried to silence them, they only grew louder in the darkness, replaying themselves again and again in Nathan’s low, intimate voice.
They echoed in the shower the next morning too, as hot water streamed down my skin and I scrubbed myself harder than necessary, as though I could wash away the lingering memory of his touch…his kisses…the way my body had shamelessly responded to him so eagerly.
Even at breakfast, seated at the small kitchen table, staring down at the plate of fries I’d barely touched, I kept repeating the same lie to myself.
It’s okay. You’ve got this, Lena. Everything will be fine. It will all work out in the long run.
Eventually, exhausted from pretending, I pushed the plate away.
Who was I kidding?
There were far too many ways this could go wrong.
It wasn’t just the wedding that terrified me. It was life after the wedding. It was the way my body had betrayed me with Nathan. The way his kisses hadn’t filled me with fear…rather, I’d longed for them.
That was the most frightening part of all.
For now, Nathan believed I was Kimberly. When he looked at me, he saw the woman he loved. The woman he intended to marry in a few days.
But what would happen if the real Kimberly suddenly reappeared?
“She won’t,” Julian kept reassuring me.
He said it again when he arrived at the house shortly after. His tone was calm, almost bored, as if I were worrying over something insignificant.
“Trust me,” he said. “Kimberly won’t be a problem. I’ve already taken care of her.”
“How?” I asked. I needed to know.
He hesitated briefly before answering, like a man deciding how much truth was necessary.
“Okay. Fine. To put your mind at ease, I made her an offer—one she couldn’t refuse.”
I stared at him. “By offer, you mean money.”
“Yes. It’s the only language she understands.”
Of course. The same language he’d used with me. The only difference was that I had a sister who needed saving. What did Kimberly have? A shameless obsession with money? A heart that cared for no one but herself? Or was it simply greed?
Perhaps Nathan had never been anything more to her than a cash machine. Maybe she’d found someone better. Someone wealthier. Someone who made marrying Nathan seem unappealing.
It would certainly explain why she’d walk away weeks before saying I do.
“For the sake of our arrangement,” Julian continued, “I paid her to stay away. Far away. She’s in Paris at the moment.”
Paris.
The word settled the uneasiness in my chest.
“So, you can relax. She’s not coming back anytime soon.”
I exhaled slowly. Knowing Kimberly was out of the picture eased one fear. But it only made room for another.
Nathan.
Yesterday, there had been moments when I’d feared he suspected something was off. Thankfully, somehow, I’d been able to convince him otherwise.
But for how long?
Nathan wasn’t foolish. He was observant. Intelligent. He would start to notice things eventually.
“You’re doing great, Lena,” Julian said, as if reading my thoughts. “Nathan came back earlier than we anticipated, I know. And I’m sorry about that—I had no idea he was returning. He didn’t inform anyone. I guess he was just eager to see Kim…to make sure everything is alright and that she isn’t changing her mind about the wedding.”
My stomach twisted.
“But you handled it perfectly,” he went on. “From everything he told me this morning, you did even better than the real Kim would.”
“Better?” I blinked.
“Yeah. He couldn’t stop talking about the lunch you prepared. Those steak bites…the mashed potatoes… He said it was the best he’s ever had. He was quite impressed.”
Something warm and unsettling bloomed in my heart at the praise. It worried me.
“There’s something else,” Julian added, glancing at his watch. “You need to come with me now.”
I frowned. “Where to?”
“Nathan’s mansion,” he explained. “Kimberly has an appointment with the wedding planner scheduled for this morning. She wants to go over some last-minute checks with you. I’ll drop you off before heading to the office.”
“Wait, you’re not staying?”
He smiled at my obvious panic. “Relax. Dahlia will be with you.”
“But—”
“I can’t stay. I have an important meeting to attend with Nathan at eleven. We have to hurry. He’s already waiting for me at the office.”
I didn’t have the luxury of refusing, so I simply nodded.
Inside, I changed quickly, slipping into a cream Victoria Beckham midi dress that hugged my body in a very flattering way. It made me feel bolder.
I didn’t have to think too hard before making the choice. Instincts told me it was exactly what Kimberly would wear for a lunch outing or a meeting with the wedding planner.
I touched up my makeup, ran a comb through my hair and stepped back to survey the result before the mirror.
The woman staring back at me looked like she belonged in Nathan Blackwood’s world.
Satisfied, I grabbed my bag, took one steadying breath, then stepped out to meet Julian who was already waiting in the car.
I was nervous. Julian sensed it almost immediately. As he drove through the city traffic, he kept up light conversation, clearly trying to distract me and get me to relax.
It worked. But just for a while. As the city gradually thinned out and the noise faded into something quieter, my apprehension returned realizing where we were. Riverdale—the neighborhood where Nathan lived.
Now it was my turn to try to distract myself before the anxiety got the best of me.
I turned to Julian, asking him something I’d been curious about, something that had been nagging at me ever since we met.
“Julian… Can I ask you something?”
“Sure. Go ahead,” he replied easily. His eyes were fixed on the tree-lined street he was driving through. His grip on the steering wheel was relaxed, his tone casual.
How he could be so relaxed given the circumstances was totally beyond me.
“How—” I hesitated. “How did you find me?”
“Private investigator,” he said simply.
“And…was this the plan all along? I mean… How could you have been so sure you would find someone like me? Someone identical to Kim?”
He sighed. “Getting a substitute for Kim wasn’t the initial plan. At first, all I wanted after she disappeared was to find her, convince her to come back. But when she made it clear she wasn’t interested anymore, desperation kicked in. I started looking for alternatives to fix the problem. As fate would have it, that same day I came across your picture on social media. At first, I thought it was Kim. But when I saw your name, it hit me that you were two different people.”
“That’s when you came up with the idea.”
He glanced at me for a second, enough time for me to see the firm sincerity in his eyes. “I’ll do anything to protect Nathan…and the company.”
I studied him quietly, his words lingering in my mind. Julian was the kind of man who didn’t hesitate when it came to family. He was fiercely loyal to Nathan. He was his right hand, his shield.
I recognized that kind of loyalty. It was the same thing that had dragged me into this. The same reason I was sitting in this car, pretending to be someone else, risking everything.
I turned my gaze back to the road as the car slowed and Julian turned into a wide driveway. Black wrought-iron gates opened automatically as we approached. Behind them, Nathan’s home stood impressively like something out of a magazine.
It wasn’t ostentatious, but it was huge, bigger than the other houses we’d passed by. A mansion with pale stone walls, tall arched windows, and a sweeping balcony above the entrance. Everything about it whispered old money.
The driveway curved upward, lined with stone and manicured greenery. It felt like we were stepping into a fortified palace. Security cameras peeked from their discreet corners. Guards were stationed near the perimeter, their presence not obvious but unmistakable if you looked closely.
My stomach squeezed with more anxiety as I stepped down from the car, but I forced myself to appear calm and confident. I forced myself not to stare, to act natural, like Kimberly who’d been here countless times would.
Something, perhaps the feeling of being watched, drew my eyes to the balcony above.
A woman with shoulder-length, silver-blonde hair stood there. She was elderly, perhaps in her early sixties, elegant in pearls and a black dress. She didn’t move. She just stood there, looking down at us—at me.
She didn’t smile, didn’t wave. Her face was composed, almost unreadable. But her eyes… They were sharp, assessing, and…cold.
Cold in a way that slipped beneath my skin and made my chest tighten with a quiet, unexplainable unease.
Who was she?
Certainly not Nathan’s mother. Julian had told me she died when Nathan was still a boy.
My gaze lingered on her, searching for something—anything—that might reveal who she was.
But there was nothing. Just that same chilling stillness, that same quiet scrutiny, like she had already seen through me and found me lacking.
In that moment, without a single word spoken, I felt it with a deep, sinking certainty.
Whoever this woman was, I wasn’t just unwelcome. I was a problem.
And somehow… I knew she was going to be one, too.
~ LENA ~I looked at Nathan’s face and saw the curious frown pulling his brows together. My heart thudded in my chest, waiting for his reaction, for what he was going to say.“Kimberly, darling...”Deborah’s voice broke through my panic. I looked at her. She was staring at me with mild concern. Or at least, what appeared to be concern.“You look like you’ve seen a ghost. Are you feeling alright?”My fingers tightened around the back of a chair as I forced myself to smile and act like there was nothing wrong. Before I could respond, Nathan moved closer to the flowers, his attention fully on them.“Wow…”The word slipped quietly out of his mouth as his eyes moved over the arrangement. The roses, carnations and daisies were beautifully fanned out inside the elegant crystal vase. Somehow, they looked even more attractive than they had been yesterday.“These are some beautiful flowers,” he said, his gaze lingering on them even as he pulled out his chair and sat down. “Someone’s making quit
~ LENA ~I froze. Every thought in my head vanished at once.For one long, terrible second, all I could do was stare. I stared at both of them wondering if I was dreaming. Was this some kind of joke? A prank? Or something else entirely that I couldn’t understandNathan and Ashley were both asleep in the same bed. Ashley lay curled against his side, her head resting on his chest beneath his chin. One of her arms was draped across his stomach, while Nathan’s arm rested around her shoulders.The sight was so intimate it made something inside me recoil.They looked… I swallowed hard. They looked like a couple. Comfortable. Too comfortable. Like two people who had fallen asleep in each other’s arms countless times before.The thought hit me so hard that I stumbled back a step.No. No, this couldn’t be. I shook my head against what my mind was telling me. Nathan wasn’t like that. Everything I knew about him screamed that he wasn’t that sort of man. He would never have anything intimate to d
~ LENA ~I watched Ashley covertly over the dinner table as she reached for her fork. Her movements were slow, careful. She made even the simple act of lifting her glass of water appear strenuous, as though lifting it required more strength than she possessed.Dressed in a soft, cream sweater, she looked every bit the fragile patient recovering from a serious illness. Her dark hair fell softly around her shoulders, and her complexion still carried just enough paleness to sell the performance.If I hadn’t overheard that conversation upstairs earlier, I probably would have felt sorry for her.Now all I saw was an actress.Deborah sat next to her, looking every bit as polished and composed as she had been all day.Mother and daughter. Conspirators.Conversation flowed around the table while I pretended to listen and contributed whenever necessary, acting as though everything was normal. But my attention remained mostly on Ashley. Now that the veil had fallen, it was easy to spot the pret
~ LENA ~I entered the bedroom and closed the door behind me. The soft click of the lock sounded loud in my ears.For several seconds, I stood there with my back pressed against the door, staring at nothing.My body was still shaking, my mind still reeling from what I’d just heard.The conversation replayed itself over and over again in my head.“You were supposed to fake it! Fake being sick! Not send yourself to the hospital!”“It worked, didn’t it?”“Very soon, he’s going to be completely mine.”A shiver rippled through me.What kind of woman deliberately makes herself sick?A dangerous one. A desperate one. A woman willing to do anything to get what she wanted.And Ashley wanted Nathan. She’d always wanted him, ever since they were kids.Not in the harmless, childish way Rosa had described. Not in the way a younger sister admired an older brother. No. This was something darker. Something uglier.A part of me had always wondered if I was imagining things. Now I knew I wasn’t. Every
~ LENA ~For the past few minutes, I’d been telling myself it was all in my head. Now I wasn’t so sure anymore.The footsteps returned. They were closer this time. Much closer. They matched my pace, then quickened as the sound seemed to rush toward me, closing the distance.My heart leapt into my throat as I whirled around. This time, someone was standing behind me.“Oh my God, I’m sorry!”The woman immediately apologized. Her expression filled with concern as she saw how frightened I was. “I’m so sorry,” she repeated.I pressed a hand against my chest, trying to calm the frantic pounding of my heart. “It’s okay,” I said with a little smile, relieved that it wasn’t a stalker or the mystery man who’d sent flowers.“I didn’t mean to startle you,” she continued. “I was just out for my morning walk when I spotted you walking through the neighborhood.” She grinned, then paused. A sheepish smile crossed her face. The look on my face must have told her I was struggling to place her.“Vivie
~ LENA ~I stood in the middle of the bedroom, arms crossed over my chest as I stared at the flowers I’d abandoned on the bed. Just minutes ago, I was holding them, admiring them. Now I stared at the bouquet with growing unease, as if it was something sinister looking at me.The flowers were breathtaking. Their delicate fragrance drifted through the room, and their soft, colorful petals brightened the pale bedding. But all I could think about was the note that had been hidden inside and the stranger who had sent it.Slowly, I looked down at it, still clutched in my hand, reading it for the umpteenth time.YOU’RE STILL AS BEAUTIFUL AS I REMEMBERA shiver ran through me.The message wasn’t threatening. It sounded romantic. Affectionate. Familiar. And that was what bothered me.It seemed whoever had written it knew Kimberly. The Kimberly who had existed before Nathan.Who could it be? An ex-boyfriend?But if that was the case, then why send flowers now?Why send them here?And why not l
~ LENA ~The day of the wedding arrived. My wedding day.My wedding.The words were strange, like something unreal my mind hadn’t fully caught up with yet.A little over a week ago, I was a woman with a simple, boring life—a modest secretary with a routine that never changed. No boyfriend. No glamo
~ LENA ~Nathan’s bedroom seemed different tonight. Inside, I felt more like an intruder and less like the happily wedded bride I was supposed to be.It was dark outside, and the curtains were drawn. There was no sunlight streaming in through the large windows. No soft afternoon glow warming the po
~ LENA ~As the sun sank lower and evening arrived, the gardens transformed into something much more beautiful for the wedding reception.The rows of white chairs from the ceremony slowly disappeared, carried away by quiet staff in black uniforms. What stood in their place now were round tables dra
~ LENA ~By the time I got back to the house, my head felt heavy and every part of me ached.It wasn’t just tiredness. It was the kind of exhaustion that sinks into your bones. Physical. Mental. Emotional. The kind that comes from smiling too much, from pretending too well, from answering questions







