Mag-log in~ LENA ~
On our wedding night, every inch of your body will be mine to explore...
The words haunted me.
They followed me into bed at night, dominating my thoughts as I lay awake beneath the sheets, unable to sleep. When I tried to silence them, they only grew louder in the darkness, replaying themselves again and again in Nathan’s low, intimate voice.
They echoed in the shower the next morning too, as hot water streamed down my skin and I scrubbed myself harder than necessary, as though I could wash away the lingering memory of his touch…his kisses…the way my body had shamelessly responded to him so eagerly.
Even at breakfast, seated at the small kitchen table, staring down at the plate of fries I’d barely touched, I kept repeating the same lie to myself.
It’s okay. You’ve got this, Lena. Everything will be fine. It will all work out in the long run.
Eventually, exhausted from pretending, I pushed the plate away.
Who was I kidding?
There were far too many ways this could go wrong.
It wasn’t just the wedding that terrified me. It was life after the wedding. It was the way my body had betrayed me with Nathan. The way his kisses hadn’t filled me with fear…rather, I’d longed for them.
That was the most frightening part of all.
For now, Nathan believed I was Kimberly. When he looked at me, he saw the woman he loved. The woman he intended to marry in a few days.
But what would happen if the real Kimberly suddenly reappeared?
“She won’t,” Julian kept reassuring me.
He said it again when he arrived at the house shortly after. His tone was calm, almost bored, as if I were worrying over something insignificant.
“Trust me,” he said. “Kimberly won’t be a problem. I’ve already taken care of her.”
“How?” I asked. I needed to know.
He hesitated briefly before answering, like a man deciding how much truth was necessary.
“Okay. Fine. To put your mind at ease, I made her an offer—one she couldn’t refuse.”
I stared at him. “By offer, you mean money.”
“Yes. It’s the only language she understands.”
Of course. The same language he’d used with me. The only difference was that I had a sister who needed saving. What did Kimberly have? A shameless obsession with money? A heart that cared for no one but herself? Or was it simply greed?
Perhaps Nathan had never been anything more to her than a cash machine. Maybe she’d found someone better. Someone wealthier. Someone who made marrying Nathan seem unappealing.
It would certainly explain why she’d walk away weeks before saying I do.
“For the sake of our arrangement,” Julian continued, “I paid her to stay away. Far away. She’s in Paris at the moment.”
Paris.
The word settled the uneasiness in my chest.
“So, you can relax. She’s not coming back anytime soon.”
I exhaled slowly. Knowing Kimberly was out of the picture eased one fear. But it only made room for another.
Nathan.
Yesterday, there had been moments when I’d feared he suspected something was off. Thankfully, somehow, I’d been able to convince him otherwise.
But for how long?
Nathan wasn’t foolish. He was observant. Intelligent. He would start to notice things eventually.
“You’re doing great, Lena,” Julian said, as if reading my thoughts. “Nathan came back earlier than we anticipated, I know. And I’m sorry about that—I had no idea he was returning. He didn’t inform anyone. I guess he was just eager to see Kim…to make sure everything is alright and that she isn’t changing her mind about the wedding.”
My stomach twisted.
“But you handled it perfectly,” he went on. “From everything he told me this morning, you did even better than the real Kim would.”
“Better?” I blinked.
“Yeah. He couldn’t stop talking about the lunch you prepared. Those steak bites…the mashed potatoes… He said it was the best he’s ever had. He was quite impressed.”
Something warm and unsettling bloomed in my heart at the praise. It worried me.
“There’s something else,” Julian added, glancing at his watch. “You need to come with me now.”
I frowned. “Where to?”
“Nathan’s mansion,” he explained. “Kimberly has an appointment with the wedding planner scheduled for this morning. She wants to go over some last-minute checks with you. I’ll drop you off before heading to the office.”
“Wait, you’re not staying?”
He smiled at my obvious panic. “Relax. Dahlia will be with you.”
“But—”
“I can’t stay. I have an important meeting to attend with Nathan at eleven. We have to hurry. He’s already waiting for me at the office.”
I didn’t have the luxury of refusing, so I simply nodded.
Inside, I changed quickly, slipping into a cream Victoria Beckham midi dress that hugged my body in a very flattering way. It made me feel bolder.
I didn’t have to think too hard before making the choice. Instincts told me it was exactly what Kimberly would wear for a lunch outing or a meeting with the wedding planner.
I touched up my makeup, ran a comb through my hair and stepped back to survey the result before the mirror.
The woman staring back at me looked like she belonged in Nathan Blackwood’s world.
Satisfied, I grabbed my bag, took one steadying breath, then stepped out to meet Julian who was already waiting in the car.
I was nervous. Julian sensed it almost immediately. As he drove through the city traffic, he kept up light conversation, clearly trying to distract me and get me to relax.
It worked. But just for a while. As the city gradually thinned out and the noise faded into something quieter, my apprehension returned realizing where we were. Riverdale—the neighborhood where Nathan lived.
Now it was my turn to try to distract myself before the anxiety got the best of me.
I turned to Julian, asking him something I’d been curious about, something that had been nagging at me ever since we met.
“Julian… Can I ask you something?”
“Sure. Go ahead,” he replied easily. His eyes were fixed on the tree-lined street he was driving through. His grip on the steering wheel was relaxed, his tone casual.
How he could be so relaxed given the circumstances was totally beyond me.
“How—” I hesitated. “How did you find me?”
“Private investigator,” he said simply.
“And…was this the plan all along? I mean… How could you have been so sure you would find someone like me? Someone identical to Kim?”
He sighed. “Getting a substitute for Kim wasn’t the initial plan. At first, all I wanted after she disappeared was to find her, convince her to come back. But when she made it clear she wasn’t interested anymore, desperation kicked in. I started looking for alternatives to fix the problem. As fate would have it, that same day I came across your picture on social media. At first, I thought it was Kim. But when I saw your name, it hit me that you were two different people.”
“That’s when you came up with the idea.”
He glanced at me for a second, enough time for me to see the firm sincerity in his eyes. “I’ll do anything to protect Nathan…and the company.”
I studied him quietly, his words lingering in my mind. Julian was the kind of man who didn’t hesitate when it came to family. He was fiercely loyal to Nathan. He was his right hand, his shield.
I recognized that kind of loyalty. It was the same thing that had dragged me into this. The same reason I was sitting in this car, pretending to be someone else, risking everything.
I turned my gaze back to the road as the car slowed and Julian turned into a wide driveway. Black wrought-iron gates opened automatically as we approached. Behind them, Nathan’s home stood impressively like something out of a magazine.
It wasn’t ostentatious, but it was huge, bigger than the other houses we’d passed by. A mansion with pale stone walls, tall arched windows, and a sweeping balcony above the entrance. Everything about it whispered old money.
The driveway curved upward, lined with stone and manicured greenery. It felt like we were stepping into a fortified palace. Security cameras peeked from their discreet corners. Guards were stationed near the perimeter, their presence not obvious but unmistakable if you looked closely.
My stomach squeezed with more anxiety as I stepped down from the car, but I forced myself to appear calm and confident. I forced myself not to stare, to act natural, like Kimberly who’d been here countless times would.
Something, perhaps the feeling of being watched, drew my eyes to the balcony above.
A woman with shoulder-length, silver-blonde hair stood there. She was elderly, perhaps in her early sixties, elegant in pearls and a black dress. She didn’t move. She just stood there, looking down at us—at me.
She didn’t smile, didn’t wave. Her face was composed, almost unreadable. But her eyes… They were sharp, assessing, and…cold.
Cold in a way that slipped beneath my skin and made my chest tighten with a quiet, unexplainable unease.
Who was she?
Certainly not Nathan’s mother. Julian had told me she died when Nathan was still a boy.
My gaze lingered on her, searching for something—anything—that might reveal who she was.
But there was nothing. Just that same chilling stillness, that same quiet scrutiny, like she had already seen through me and found me lacking.
In that moment, without a single word spoken, I felt it with a deep, sinking certainty.
Whoever this woman was, I wasn’t just unwelcome. I was a problem.
And somehow… I knew she was going to be one, too.
~ CAMILLE ~By the time the driver turned the car through the gates of the Devereux estate, the dull pounding behind my temples had developed into a full-blown headache.I sighed, lifting my fingers to my temple and pressing them lightly against the throbbing spot the same way I had done several times during the drive home, hoping the ache would finally ease.But it didn’t. If anything, it seemed to be getting worse.I closed my eyes for a moment and drew in a slow breath as the car rolled down the drive. When I opened them again, I was staring at the mansion.It looked magnificent as it always did. Grand. The kind of home people slowed their cars to admire. The kind of house women dreamed of living in.Once upon a time… I’d been one of those women.These days, I barely noticed it anymore. Not the lovely gardens. Or the impressive fountain standing in the center of the circular driveway with its marble Grecian statue.I’d driven past it thousands of times. But just like almost everyth
~ LENA ~All through the ride back home, I couldn’t stop thinking about Camille. Even as Vivienne filled the drive with conversation about the upcoming gala, my mind was barely with her.I believed what she said—that women like Camille were used to being the center of attention wherever they went, and my entrance had probably unsettled her.Still…I couldn’t shake the feeling that something wasn’t adding up. It was obvious from the very second we met that she disliked me. She hadn’t even tried to hide it. Especially after the meeting ended and the women lingered in little groups chatting.I’d watched her from across the room as she spoke quietly with Margaret.When their conversation ended, she’d picked up her handbag and sunglasses from the table.As she turned to leave, our eyes met once again.This time, she paused. Just for a second. Her gaze swept over me, razor-sharp with contempt.Then, without a single word, she slipped her sunglasses into place and walked right past me like I
~ LENA ~“Oh, Margaret.”Before I could as much as say a word, Camille’s voice cut through the silence. It drifted across the table, smooth as silk, carrying just enough warmth to avoid sounding rude.Heads turned in her direction as she smiled graciously. “I’m not sure that’s entirely fair.”Margaret regarded her with silent curiosity.Camille folded her hands neatly on the table.“Kimberly has only just joined us. She’s still getting acquainted with the Circle.” She looked at me, her smile still perfectly composed. “It hardly seems right to put her on the spot before she’s had the chance to understand how we do things around here.”A few women exchanged uncertain glances.“I don’t think Margaret is putting her on the spot,” Vivienne spoke gently beside me, looking directly at Camille. “She’s only inviting Kimberly to share her thoughts. There’s no harm in hearing from someone new. Let her speak.”On the surface, Camille sounded thoughtful, protective. But beneath her carefully chose
~ LENA ~“All right, ladies, enough of the small talk. Let’s get started, shall we?”As soon as Margaret Hawthorne spoke, the atmosphere in the room changed. I looked around the table. Smiles had faded. Leather folders were opened. Tablets were lit up, pens uncapped. Everyone sat a little straighter.For the first time since I arrived, I wasn’t looking at expensive dresses or sparkling jewelry. I was looking at women ready to work.Margaret glanced in my direction with a pleased expression. “Before we get on with business, there’s someone I’d like to introduce to you all.”My heart skipped.“Kimberly Blackwood.”Every head at the table turned toward me, making the breath freeze in my lungs.Margaret smiled warmly. “Some of you already know Kimberly by reputation as Nathan Blackwood’s wife. As we all know, Mr. Blackwood has been one of the Circle’s most generous supporters over the years, and we’re delighted to welcome his wife as well.” Grinning, she turned to me. “Welcome to the fold
~ LENA ~Silence descended.It wasn’t the peaceful, comfortable kind. It was the type that made every hair on my body stand. Made me aware of the shocked stares of the women closest to us who, apparently, had heard every word Camille had spoken.Then, like ripples spreading across perfectly still water, the silence travelled. Conversations nearby faltered, laughter dwindled, more heads turned in our direction. Not because everyone had heard what Camille said, but because they’d noticed the sudden tension.“Camille!” Vivienne reacted, her smile turning into a frown. Her voice was quiet, but filled with disappointment.Camille looked at her without the slightest hint of remorse. “What?” she asked lightly. “I merely made an observation. Being honest shouldn’t be a problem. Should it?”She glanced around at the uncomfortable faces surrounding us, amusement dancing in her green eyes.“Kimberly isn’t ‘anyone’ as you put it,” Vivienne said. “In case you haven’t heard, she’s Nathan Blackwood’s
~ LENA ~Several minutes passed as I stood in the closet, staring at the rows of clothes, unable to make up my mind on what to wear.Hands on my hips, I wondered which outfit would be appropriate for the Fieldston Women’s Circle meeting.The question had been running through my head ever since I woke up this morning.I was surrounded by beautiful dresses… but somehow, I still couldn’t make a choice.I pulled out a cream-colored dress.Too formal. I abandoned it.A navy jumpsuit.Too casual. I abandoned it, too.I sighed, rubbing my forehead. Why had I agreed to this?I knew the answer. It was because Vivienne wouldn’t take no for an answer.She had called three times in the last two days alone, still trying to convince me.“Just come once,” she’d pleaded. “No commitment. If you feel like you don’t like it, you don’t want to belong, you can opt out, and I won’t pressure you again.”Eventually I’d caved.One meeting, I told myself. That was all.I would sit through it, smile politely, s
~ LENA ~“Touch me.”The words sounded soft, but they sent a wave of heat rushing through my body. It sounded simple. Natural. Like something a wife should do without thinking. But nothing about this felt simple to me. My heart pounded violently in my chest. My palms on his shirt grew damp. Every
~ LENA ~As the sun sank lower and evening arrived, the gardens transformed into something much more beautiful for the wedding reception.The rows of white chairs from the ceremony slowly disappeared, carried away by quiet staff in black uniforms. What stood in their place now were round tables dra
~ NATHAN ~I stood in the kitchen doorway for longer than I meant to. Kim hadn’t noticed me. She was completely absorbed in what she was doing. So focused that she hadn’t heard my footsteps at all.I’d only come to check on her because curiosity wouldn’t let me sit still. I told myself it was only g
~ LENA ~The world came to a standstill.For a second, I was no longer Kimberly Hayes. No longer wrapped in silk and lies. I was just Lena Martinez again—stripped bare by those eyes, exposed, and confronted by danger.“What?” I whispered, barely hearing the sound of my own voice.Nathan didn’t respo







