I can hear his adorable laugh the moment I step out of the elevator. I quicken my steps to our place, all excited to smooch that three year old creature. He's got to be the cutest creature alive!
"Mama Ninaaaaaaa!" He runs to me the moment I walk into the house. I lower my body as I open my arms, ready to welcome such big hug from him."You didn't tell me you're coming!" I carry him to the kitchen, where Toffer is busy transferring food from the pan to a big serving bowl."I would if Daddy gives me a phone.""In your dream, young man." Toffer glances at us before bringing the bowl to the dining table."Are you sleeping here tonight? Mama Nina mish you so much!" I smooch him on the cheek as he giggles, "I miss you more!"Toffer takes my huge tote bag from my shoulder so I can freely hug the little boy with both of my hands, "Sleep with Mama Nina tonight?""But Daddy wants to sleep with me.""But Mama Nina mish you.""But Daddy misses me since Friday.""But Mama Nina mish you.""But I already promised Daddy to sleep with him.""But Mama Nina mish you," I keep on repeating it until he sighs, then turns to Toffer as if asking for his permission."No, you promised me you're sleeping with me tonight." His Daddy gives a look that makes him sigh again."It's okay buddy," I hug him, then whispers, "Come to my room when he already sleep okay?"He giggles and nods, whispering back to my ear, "Okay!"The three of us have dinner together while I wink at him from time to time to remind him of our secret plan. He giggles every time, totally excited.Bath time, bedtime story, and by 8pm, they finally dissapear into the other bedroom.I guess Lauren is playing her part after all, letting Toffer bonds with their son today since she's had him for 2 weeks straight.See, like I said, Lauren is a sensible woman. She's pretty, outgoing, smart, sensible, everything a millionaire would date. Oh yes, I can't help but to picture his hot boyfriend every time I think of her.I wish I'm as lucky as her to have everything a girl ever dreams of.***"Do you think I should buy a car?"I ask him after we drop Kai at his playschool, "I don't feel good riding with you anymore."It definitely came out wrong that he immediately looks at me before both of us burst into laughter."You get what I mean." I told him after we've toned it down.Ever since he moved in with me, he's been my unpaid chauffer to work, to dinner at Mom's, to hangout sessions with our friends, urgh I was fine taking the subway before he became my roommate but now I feel like I'm abusing the priviledge.I mean, I paid the rent like fifty percents below market value and now the landlord is my driver too?"Your office is on my way to work anyway, why do you keep bringing up this issue? Which is not even an issue, Nina.""I feel like I'm taking advantage of you. I live in your house, make you drive me around, eat your food-""And my dick," he continues which earns him a smack on the arm."Stop it Toff I'm being serious!""But you did last night,” he adds while turning to a corner to drop me off at the usual spot."Shut up," I lean into his space and give him a peck on his cheek, "See you later."“I’ll text you before I leave the parking.” He has been saying this since he first sent me to work two years ago, reminding me to watch out for his text later in the evening when he’ll come to pick me up.“Yeah yeah. Bye Toffer.”“Bye Princess Nina.”***"How's your impromptu date?"I ask him when he steps into the house, seems to be so tired despite still looking sharp in his three piece suit.“She's so pretty it's a pity she's a little bit boring."I laugh hearing his comment, "Like you're THAT fun, duh!"He chuckles, approaching me in the kitchen while getting rid of the suit coat, "How did you get home? Sorry for the last minute notice.""Nah, it's okay," I reach out for his tie once he stands in front of me, help him to loosen it, "I walked home since it was still early. Good thing I did that because I saw a new bakery in front of the book shop. Want something sweet?"Without waiting for his answer, I move to the fridge along with his tie in my hand and open it, revealing the treat. He comes from behind, carelessly bumping his front to my ass, eyeing the treasure I kept in this food heaven."The cheese cake is so good I think I just found the perfect cheese cake, everrr!" I excitedly take it out as he steps away, giving me some space so I can walk to the kitchen counter, placing the cake on it. He grabs two forks and joins me."So tell me, what happened? Why did you say she's boring? How pretty are we talking here? Like Lauren-pretty or me-pretty?”Lauren used to be a sore topic between us but after a year since the break up, we’ve eased down on it. Now we can even joke about it.“No, first tell me how did you ask her for a date. Okay, go!" I urge him again, desperate to know the details since I haven't gone to one like five months now. If it weren't for him, I might have forgotten there's male species on earth."I helped Suzanne picked up the online stuff she bought from her since she's caught up in a meeting. This girl, Marion, she's so pretty that I asked her out before we parted. She'll be leaving for a holiday tomorrow that's why I had to ditch you and dine with her tonight."I nod a couple times while gobbling the cheese cake, “Okay now elaborate on the boring part."He unbuttons his shirt while replying, "I feel like talking to a robot. Even Alexa is more human than her."I laugh remembering how obsessed Kai is with Alexa. He's such a curious creature that Toffer and I resort to Alexa to entertain his mind-blowing questions. Science, history, vocabulary, oh God I swear he knows more about this world than me."Are you still on your dating strike?" He asks, now dropping his shirt on the floor, joining his pants there.He knows how anal I am at putting dirty clothes in the laundry basket but he keeps on doing the same thing. I don't bother much these days since I know he'll pick them up before he's off to his room.Or he’ll be faced with the wrath of his only roommate; CHRISTOPHER JOHNSONS, AM I YOUR MAID OR YOUR ROOMMATE?!“How long has it been? Four months? Five?”"Yup, five months. Going strong." Strong indeed that I deleted all my dating apps."Keep your opinion to yourself, thank you." I warn him before he drops another snarky comment on how frequent I've barged into his room since I stopped pursuing guys to date.Both of us have a rule regarding our little third-base ritual. We can ‘have fun’ as long as we're not dating anyone at that particular moment, hence the frequency."Wanna shower with me?" He offers while picking up his dirty pile of clothes."I already showered.""Come by tonight for another sweet treat," he said it casually as he walks to his room.Yeah right, as if I won't even without an invitation.It was so awkward four years ago to join my circle of friends with majority of them bringing their spouse and kids at the outings. Four years ago, when I broke my engagement with Josh. I was alone, while they were busy chatting with their partners. Well they did try to include me in their conversation but sometimes you know, you just feel it. Alone. Even among the crowd who loves you.Now I'm immune already, I even help babysit their kids while they enjoy their food. "Oh my God!" Kelly's gasp distract me from continuing telling May about my healthy brownie recipe. All of us turn to the figure that's hugging her. "Chris?!" May stands up and runs to him. My heart stops beating seeing his wide smile as he hugs his best friend. Well, used to be best friend. Heck, I'm not even sure if they're still best friends since May never mentions about him in front of me. Either out of respect or simply because they're not talking anymore.
Step one is admitting it. So yes, I admit I can't wait for this day to arrive. Step two is facing it. Yes, I'm currently facing him. Not facing him like face to face but yeah, I'm standing at a corner while looking at him with his supermodel-like girlfriend. Step three is to accept it. After two weeks of harrasment from Toffer and May, I have finally accepted that I'm still not over him. Verbally, not just in my mind.Step four is to move on. So this is where it gets tricky. How do I move on if I'm still not over him? Do I listen to Toffer? Try again, get him to deflower me (urgh that word) then finally move on if it really doesn't work. But he has a girlfriend, silly. "Does Eva knows you dated him before?" Charlotte asks when I'm still watching the happy couple from a distance. "Not sure. Maybe not." "Yeah why should he, right? It's in the past. Everybody knows it's a bet anyway," she gives out
"You're doing good?" His deep voice throws me out completely. I turn to the side, at the guy who used to love me. Used to? Did he ever, actually? Was it just a bet? But it was six years. Six long years. "Pretty good. What about you?" "Excellent." He smiles as he takes a seat next to me. "So that's Christopher? Toffer?" He asks while his eyes point towards my best friend who's playing slides with the kids. I nod, "Yeah." "You guys are together now?" I laugh as I shake my head, "No, we're just friends. Roommates." "Oh you two are living together?" "Yup, since the past two years. I actually rented his apartment four years ago but he moved in two years later when he broke up with his girlfriend." Maybe too much info? God, he still makes me nervous. And when I'm nervous I vomit words. Unnecessary details. "So you're back for good?" I immediately ask him, wanting to divert the topic
"At least 5ft 10, blonde, blue or green or whatever captivating eye colour it is, outgoing, slutty in bed but classy on the street, and an hourglass figure." I'm basically listing the qualities that Lauren has. Well actually, the quality of all his ex girlfriends slash flings slash one-night-stands. "Tall with abs, muscles, rich, handsome, a little bit French-" I wanna stop him at 'a little bit French' but he beats me at it when he continues, "and a fuckboy." "A fuckboy? Really?" I roll my eyes as he laughs, "You're the one who told me he fucks every time you guys broke up.""We're listing the criteria of the one that you and I want to date, not describing an ex! Which by the way, get your facts right. Jason wasn't a fuckboy.""No need for the pretence, I can read you like a book, Nina. We are definitely talking about that Frenchie fuckboy, not your softie ex."I roll my eyes again. Fine, when he mentioned the firs
I drop by at the new bakery again for another slice of cheesecake. Correction, another slice of heaven-on-earth. No, correction again, another slice of heaven-on-mouth. Mhmmm yums. As usual, instead of just buying the one that I aim to buy, I somehow managed to purchase a few other treats considering Toffer's not gonna have dinner with me tonight so I might just eat all these sweet stuff as dinner. A glass of wine, or maybe two, and a whole bag of dessert. What a life! I go to bed as early as 9 to ensure I have enough sleep before Toff comes home from his date, and keeps me up all night with his night activity. I did complain to him which the following week I was gifted with a pink limited-edition Bose noise-cancellation headphone. Yes, it's very helpful. But I still can't sleep with those giant headphones on my ears thats why I opt for sleeping early and covering my ears with the headphones once I got woken up by the screaming and slapping and so many kinky stuff I have yet to und
I'm not sure is it because I'm a bit reserved, or the girls are too expressive, or he really feels that good because seriously, I can't wrap it in my head of how loud those ladies-during-the-day-but-loud-during-the-night are. As of tonight, Cassie is seriously screaming like she's in pain. ... is she? I've known Toffer since I was 18 when we attended pre-uni together. We got closer during the second semester and had spent so much time together up until now. All those time, he is one of the most gentle-men I've ever met, on par with my exes. He can't be torturing them, can he? So tell me, how, or what the hell is he doing that makes Cassie and other previous ladies he brought home scream like that? Begging, weeping, screaming, you name it. I feel like they're making porn together. Hardcore porn. Oh shut up, I watch porn so what? I'm an adult. A fucking thirty year old adult. Yeah I'm a thirty year old virgin but
Instead of serving coffee for the ladies in the morning after a whole night of fuck fiesta, I always choose to sleep in if it's the weekend. So today, I choose to sleep until 1, not even bothered that I miss lunch since I'm gonna go to Mom's around 3 to stuff myself with dinner and leftover lunch. Chicken pie, yums! "Princess, are you up?" I yawn listening to the hoarse voice next to me. He must be sleeping here again. Every Friday night he'd fuck until morning, have breakfast with the lady knowing I'm not gonna be up to serve them hot beverage, send them home, then come back and sleep in my bed until late afternoon. "Hmmmm." I hum as a reply. "What time are we going?" "Three." "Can we go at five?" I open my eyes to find him spread wide beside me, eyes closed with no shirt on, just his boxer. "Did you promise Susan you'd go at three?" He's still talking with eyes closed, "ah n
Perhaps he's being considerate, or Cassie is away for the holiday, but they haven't fucked since last Friday night. The night that I complained she was too loud."Are you reading those smut stories again?" He asks while putting a bottle of wine on the coffee table, along with two empty glasses."Girl's gotta learn, buddy." I grin, now focusing on him instead of my online romance novel."Instead of reading, you can just ask me. I'd like to think I'm an expert in that field." He pours the wine while looking all smug."Do you know that that's how the stories always start? The male lead offering the female lead sex, showing 'the right way' of how it's done. Then BAM! Th