61. Relief of Surrendering

Laura - The house in the suburbs

In the dead of night, when some people may be having a late dinner while most are deep asleep, I creep through the forest and enter the backyard.

I’m sneaking inside the house Paul gave me, his childhood home. Luckily, I still have the key.

It takes a while to get used to being back. The scent of pine trees and the cool breeze coming through the window is a welcome change from the suffocating stench of the city.

I switch on the living room lights and get out my phone to text Paul to come here when he wakes up. I need to clear things up with him once and for all. I could tell from the expression in his eyes that he was not over us the last time I saw him.

I feel a strange mix of emotions surging up within me. I know it's silly to worry about someone you dumped months ago, but I can't help it.

Loving someone entails entrusting them with your whole being. That isn't for me. I will never put someone else through the ordeal of having to share the pain of m