CHAPTER FIFTY: Bad For Me

ANTONIE’S POV

I opened my eyes after I had come down from the high of an orgasm. Immediately, the full weight of what I had just done came crashing down on me.

I just masturbated and came thinking about the one person that I can't sleep with. My mate.

Although she's my fated mate, she's bad for me. I know it and she knows it. That is why she keeps pushing me. She keeps testing my limits.

I ran my hand through my hair in frustration. "Fuck" I said angrily.

"You know, you don't have to torture yourself so much," my mate Elda said.

I really didn't want to listen to him now. I don't need him trying to influence my decisions so I can lose my mind and do something I'll regret.

"Shut up. I don't want to deal with you now" I said fiercely. It seemed as if I was having a conversation with myself.

"You don't want to deal with me or you don't want to admit what you're feeling?" My wolf asked.

"You know that I am in love with Sophia. There's no way that I can forget about her. And I defin