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End of peace of mind.

Author: BlueHaze
last update Last Updated: 2024-10-25 17:24:45

**TRISTAN**

*"Seduce me, Myles."*

I didn’t have to do this, but seeing him blush and lost for words was better than listening to him tell me how much he wanted me dead. The ache in my head throbbed, but I didn’t mind it, watching him attempt to drop his bag, then stop.

I clenched my teeth against the chuckle threatening to escape. What was wrong with me? I thought, letting my eyes quickly flick to the window. Inexperience grated on my nerves, not make me laugh.

It seemed I had only two emotions for Myles—annoyance and amusement.

"Or you can just ask me what to do," I muttered, turning to look at him again, finding his fingers hooked at the edge of his shirt. "But that would mean you pay me for lessons."

"Just shut up, Medici," he whispered under his breath.

I made a mental note to punish him for that. But he was back to being embarrassed, looking around the room for something.

I waited.

"Are these walls soundproofed?"

They were, but seeing him flustered was a sight to enjoy, so I wh
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