LOGINLogan POV
The rink smells like detergent, cold metal, and fresh ice—the only three things that ever calm me down. We’re setting up for the Welcome Week Mixer, which is really just code for * sanctioned chaos with better lighting.* Cole’s got a clipboard, barking orders like this is the NHL Draft instead of a campus event. “Shaw, get the speakers wired. And don’t let Mikey near the soundboard again.” “Why, because last time he thought volume eleven was a personality?” Cole glares. “Exactly.” I plug in cables, the sharp scent of plastic mixing with the chill from the rink. The team’s in good spirits—music testing, tables set for charity sign-ups, banners half crooked. It’s weird, though. I can’t focus. Every few minutes, my brain reroutes to the same person. Harper Lane. President of Alpha Chi. The girl who looked me straight in the eye last night and told me I was still full of myself. She wasn’t wrong. But she also didn’t walk away fast enough. ⸻ By seven, the rink’s transformed. Lights string across the stands, music thrums low and steady, and the crowd filters in—hockey jerseys mixing with pastel dresses. Admin calls it a “partnership.” We call it “good PR for bad behavior.” Cole’s working the crowd like a politician. I stand near the penalty box, drink in hand, pretending not to scan the entrance. Then she walks in. Harper. A fitted navy blazer, crisp white blouse, Alpha Chi pin catching the lights. She’s got a clipboard, a headset, and a presence that makes people part without realizing it. Even from across the rink, I can see the curve of her mouth tighten into that professional smile that hides everything she’s actually thinking. “Someone looks focused,” Mikey mutters, nudging me. “Event management’s serious business.” “Sure. You gonna tell her that before or after you flirt with her in front of the Dean?” “I don’t flirt.” Mikey snorts. “You are the flirt.” ⸻ Harper’s giving directions to her girls by the check-in table, sleeves rolled to her elbows, a pen tucked behind her ear. She’s not the same girl I used to know. She’s sharper now—every word measured, every movement efficient. I take a sip of my drink and start toward her before I can think better of it. She spots me halfway there, eyes narrowing like I’m a quiz she’s already prepared for. “Mr. Shaw,” she says, smooth and cool. “You actually showed up on time. Impressive.” “I live here half the year. Hard to be late to your own rink.” She hums, checking something off her clipboard. “Try not to turn it into a frat party before the guests even get their name tags.” “Wasn’t planning to.” “Really? Because history says otherwise.” I grin. “History’s biased.” Her eyes lift to mine, steady and unimpressed. “You always were good at rewriting it.” There’s something electric in the air between us. It’s not warmth—it’s friction. The kind that burns if you touch it too long. “Relax, Lane,” I say. “I’m on my best behavior tonight.” “That’s exactly what worries me.” She turns and walks off before I can answer. I watch her go, fighting a smile that won’t quit. ⸻ An hour later, the rink’s buzzing. Music loud, lights reflecting off the ice, everyone talking at once. The charity tables are overflowing, and Cole gives me a look that says see, we’re respectable. Harper’s at the microphone near center ice, ready to kick off the formal part of the night. She waits for the room to quiet. “Good evening, everyone. On behalf of Alpha Chi and Hartwell Hockey, welcome to the annual Welcome Week Mixer. Tonight’s event raises funds for the Children’s Cancer Foundation—so while you’re enjoying the food and music, remember that your donations make a difference.” Polite applause. She continues, composed, rehearsed. And maybe I should’ve kept my mouth shut. But I never do. I call out, loud enough for the nearest tables to hear: “You sure you’re not running for mayor, Lane?” A ripple of laughter spreads through the crowd. Harper pauses, jaw tightening. Without missing a beat, she smiles sweetly into the mic. “Thank you, Mr. Shaw. I’ll keep that in mind if I ever want a career in public relations—or damage control.” The crowd laughs again, harder this time, but the victory’s hers. She plays the room better than I do. Cole leans over, muttering, “You trying to start a war?” “Just a friendly scrimmage.” “Don’t make it personal.” Too late. ⸻ Harper POV Of course he heckled me. Logan Shaw has never met a boundary he didn’t test. The rink echoes with laughter, and I smile through it, keeping my voice calm as I finish the announcements. When I step down, Becca whispers, “You roasted him. I swear he liked it.” I exhale. “He likes attention, not consequences.” Still, I feel the pulse of adrenaline under my skin—the strange mix of irritation and satisfaction. He wanted a reaction, and I didn’t give him the one he expected. As I weave through the crowd, I catch snippets of conversation. Everyone’s buzzing about the event, the turnout, the cause. It’s working. My plan, my organization, my schedule. Then I hear his voice again. “Nice speech, Madam President.” I turn. Logan’s leaning against the rail, sleeves rolled up, tie loose, the kind of picture that makes people forgive bad behavior before it even happens. “Glad you approve,” I say. “Oh, I didn’t say that. Just nice delivery. You’d make a killer press secretary.” “Funny. You’d make a terrible one.” He laughs, low and warm. “You’ve been thinking about my career path?” “Only when it intersects with property damage.” He smirks. “You’re feisty tonight.” “I’m busy.” “Can’t be both?” “I don’t multitask with hockey players.” That hits something in him—a flicker across his expression, gone too fast to name. “Still got that edge.” “Still have a clipboard,” I counter, holding it up like a shield. ⸻ The rest of the night blurs into conversations and photo ops, but I can feel him somewhere nearby. Always in my periphery. Laughing with teammates, shaking hands with faculty, and somehow still aware of me. It’s infuriating. He’s every headline cliché: co-captain, record scorer, rumored NHL prospect. Girls whisper his name like it’s a secret spell. And yes—he still has his type. Every photo on social media, every date I’ve seen him with, the pattern’s the same. Hispanic girls. And me? I’m not that. Not his type, not even in the same hemisphere. I remind myself of that whenever my heartbeat does something stupid in his presence. It’s almost comforting, knowing the boundary’s built-in. Except it doesn’t stop me from watching him when I shouldn’t. ⸻ Halfway through the event, I’m at the donation table when Logan joins me, holding two cups of punch. He offers one. “Peace offering.” I raise a brow. “Is it spiked?” “Would I do that to you?” “Yes.” He laughs. “Fair. It’s clean. I think.” I take it, sip carefully. It’s just fruit punch, too sweet. “So what’s the occasion? Feeling guilty about the mayor comment?” “Guilty? No. Impressed, maybe.” “Because I didn’t crumble under public humiliation?” “Because you owned it.” I study him. “You surprise me, Shaw.” “That’s the plan.” “Good luck with that.” He tilts his head, smiling. “You ever get tired of pretending you don’t like me?” I set the cup down slowly. “You ever get tired of assuming you’re irresistible?” The air between us goes still, stretched tight like a pulled thread. I see the flicker in his eyes—part amusement, part curiosity, something that wasn’t there before. Then Cole calls him from across the rink. Logan steps back, expression unreadable. “Duty calls.” He walks away, and I tell myself I’m relieved. I’m not. ⸻ When the night ends, I’m alone by the doors, clipboard under my arm, watching as the hockey guys finish cleanup. Logan’s laughing at something Cole says, and for a second, he looks younger. Less legend, more human. He glances over his shoulder and catches me staring. I look away too late. He raises his hand, mock salute, grin easy. I shake my head and pretend it means nothing. Because it should. But the truth is—it doesn’t. Not anymore.Cole POVThe locker room should feel electric after a game like that.Hat trick.Big conference win.Scouts practically drooling over Logan again.Everything technically back on track.Except—Nothing feels right.Marco tosses a towel into his locker and shakes his head slowly.“Okay, seriously. Somebody check if Shaw’s secretly a serial killer.”A few guys laugh awkwardly.Not because it’s funny.Because everybody knows exactly what he means.Logan sits three lockers down from me, unlacing his skates in complete silence while the rest of the room celebrates around him.No smirking.No cocky comments.No adrenaline high.Nothing.Just cold.Detached.Like he left every human emotion out on the ice.Coach is happier tonight at least.I can tell.Logan played perfectly.Focused.Aggressive.Controlled.Exactly what everybody wanted.So why does it feel like we lost something instead?“Dude looked like he wanted to fight God tonight,” Marco mutters quieter this time.I glance back at Log
Logan POVThe arena is loud tonight.Not normal loud.Playoff loud.The kind of noise that crawls into your bloodstream and turns everything sharp.Fast.Violent.Perfect.And honestly?I think I need violent tonight.Because if I slow down long enough to think about Harper—About her crying.About her saying goodbye like it physically destroyed her—I’m probably going to lose my damn mind.So instead?I skate.Hard.The puck drops and I immediately slam into their winger hard enough to send him stumbling backward into the boards.The crowd erupts instantly.Good.I want loud.I want impact.I want pain.Because pain feels easier than whatever the hell has been happening to my chest for the last week.“Jesus Christ,” Marco mutters skating past me. “You trying to kill somebody?”“Maybe.”“Cool cool cool. Healthy response.”I ignore him and chase the puck again.Everything feels clearer tonight.Not calmer.Worse.Focused in that dangerous almost-angry way.Like if I stop moving, everyt
Logan POVFor a second after Harper says it—I honestly can’t move.“I think I have to let you go.”The words hit like a body check straight to the chest.Hard.Violent.Knocking the air completely out of me.I just stare at her.Because no.No, absolutely not.That is not happening.Harper stands in front of me crying so hard she’s shaking, and somehow that makes this worse because I know she means it.She really thinks this is love.Walking away.Destroying herself to save me.And maybe that’s the cruelest part of all this.She loves me enough to leave.“Don’t.”The word comes out rough.Barely even sounding like me.Harper wipes quickly at her face, unable to fully look at me anymore.“Logan—”“No.”I move toward her immediately.Fast enough that she instinctively steps backward again.That tiny movement nearly wrecks me completely.“Don’t look at me like I’m already gone,” I say quietly.Her face crumples harder.“I’m trying to do the right thing.”“For who?”“For you!”The answer
Harper POVThe room feels too small.Like the walls are closing in around us while Logan paces back and forth across my dorm room trying to hold himself together.And honestly?I think this is the first time I’ve ever truly seen him scared.Not angry.Not frustrated.Scared.That realization alone nearly breaks me.His hands drag through his hair again as he stares down at his phone like he wants to throw it through the wall.I stand frozen beside the bed, heart pounding so hard it hurts.Because this—This is exactly what I was terrified of.Not the fighting.Not the rumors.Consequences.Real ones.Scouts hearing things.Questions being asked.Logan’s future suddenly becoming shaky because of all this chaos surrounding us.Around me.“I should go.”The words leave my mouth before I can stop them.Logan freezes instantly.Slowly turns toward me.“What?”“I should go.”His expression hardens immediately.“No.”“This is getting worse.”“No,” he snaps sharply. “My father is making it wo
Logan POVI stay with her until almost two in the morning.Not talking much after a while.Just… existing together.Like both of us are too emotionally wrecked to keep fighting but too terrified to let go either.Harper eventually curls into my side on her bed while I sit against the headboard, one arm wrapped around her automatically.Protective.Possessive.In love.Dangerous combination.And honestly?That should probably concern me more than it does.The room is quiet except for soft music playing from somewhere in the dorm building and Harper’s uneven breathing against my chest.Every once in a while, I feel her fingers tighten slightly in my hoodie like she’s checking whether I’m still there.I always am.That’s the problem.I stare down at the top of her head, exhaustion pulling heavily at my body now.Not physical exhaustion.Emotional.Like the last few weeks have cracked something open inside me that refuses to close again.“You awake?” Harper whispers quietly.“Yeah.”“Me t
Harper POVThe second the lock clicks, I regret it.Because now he’s here.Actually here.And I already know one look at Logan is going to destroy every ounce of resolve I barely managed to hold together.I open the door slowly anyway.And there he is.Breathing hard like he came straight here without stopping.Hair messy.Hoodie half-zipped.Eyes locked onto me with a level of panic that instantly cracks something inside my chest.God.I hate that he looks scared.Especially because I’m the reason.His expression shifts the second he sees my face fully.Pain.Immediate pain.Because I know I look awful.I’ve been crying for over an hour and there’s no hiding it anymore.“Jesus, Harper.”The softness in his voice almost kills me.I look away immediately.“Don’t.”“Don’t what?”“Look at me like that.”“Like what?”“Like I’m breaking your heart.”His jaw tightens instantly.“You are.”The words hit so hard my breath catches painfully.Silence stretches between us.Heavy.Raw.Because th
Harper POVThe bar is louder than it has any right to be on a Friday night — loud enough that the floor vibrates under my boots when we walk in. Warm bodies crowd the front, and the smell of beer and fried food hits like a wall.I’m immediately regretting this.Kenzie practically shoves me through
LoganVictory tastes like cheap beer and bad lighting.The bar near campus is packed—students, locals, a few alumni who still act like they’re twenty-one. The music’s loud, the floors sticky, and the booths overflowing with bodies pressed far too close.Classic post–game chaos.The guys are eating
Logan POVThe clock on the wall says 3:08 AM.The house is quiet — or it should be.Everyone’s asleep.Except me.Except the ghosts in my head that won’t shut the hell up.Harper’s name glows in the dark on my phone screen, the last message still sitting there like a bruise.I hate this.Me too.Bu
Harper POVI don’t feel my legs as I go up the Alpha Chi stairs. I’m floating, or sinking, or just moving on autopilot.A couple sisters are in the hallway in pajamas, mascara smudged from studying, hair in buns. They stare when they see me — wide-eyed, knowing, concerned.One opens her mouth.I sh







