LOGINHarper POV
The night hums behind me as I walk down the path—bass thudding through the ground, laughter rippling across the lawn. The air smells like beer and barbecue smoke, the perfume of every Hartwell party. I should feel accomplished. Another house visit checked off, another social box ticked before classes even start. But instead my pulse still hasn’t settled since I saw him. Logan Shaw. Four years of avoiding, and he’s somehow more magnetic than memory ever allowed. Taller maybe. Sharper around the edges. Still that same lazy grin that says rules don’t apply to him. “Harper, you coming?” one of the girls calls. “Yeah,” I answer, forcing a smile. “Right behind you.” They chatter ahead, shoes clicking unevenly on the sidewalk, already gossiping about which hockey player had the best smile. I trail a few steps behind, grateful for the noise—it gives me cover while my thoughts keep circling the same place. He remembered me. Of course he did. But he looked at me like I was a puzzle he didn’t have time to solve. That’s fine. I’ve had years to learn that Logan Shaw doesn’t solve puzzles—he collects trophies. ⸻ Back at the Alpha Chi house, everything smells faintly of lemon cleaner and ambition. Our move-in banners still hang crooked from the staircase, and the living room is stacked with boxes labeled Philanthropy, Recruitment décor, Emergency glitter. The other officers collapse onto the couch, shoes tossed aside, giggling over selfies from the Ice House party. I drop my bag by the door and take the armchair nearest the window, pretending to check emails. “Harper, that hockey guy was totally into you,” Becca says. “The tall one. Dirty-blond hair, jawline for days.” “Cole Matthews,” another corrects. “He’s the captain.” Becca shakes her head. “No, not him—the other one. Shaw, right? Logan Shaw?” My fingers still over my phone. “He’s cute,” Becca continues. “A little cocky, but in a hot way.” “He’s… fine,” I say, too quickly. “Anyway, we’re supposed to be focusing on recruitment week, not hockey players.” They exchange looks—the kind that say our president is pretending again—but let it drop. I’m grateful. I already spend enough energy pretending around campus; I don’t need to do it here too. ⸻ Once everyone drifts off to their rooms, I stay downstairs. The house is quiet except for the hum of the fridge and the faint music still drifting from across the quad. I open my laptop to review schedules but the words blur. My brain keeps replaying the porch conversation like a highlight reel. Still charming. Still pretending you don’t like it. He hasn’t changed—just refined the act. And I hate that some part of me still notices. I remember freshman year, before the world decided who we were going to be. He’d been the new hockey prodigy, already gathering followers. I was the scholarship kid from Maryland, trying to blend in. We’d talked twice—once in the dining hall line, once at a study session. Both times, he’d been effortlessly kind and infuriatingly confident. Then I’d watched him walk across campus with a different girl every week. Always the same type—bronzed skin, dark hair, soft accent. Hispanic girls. Everyone noticed. It became a running joke: Shaw’s Rule of Three—three goals a game, three girls on rotation, all with the same look. It wasn’t cruel, just… fact. And I didn’t fit that pattern. Pale, freckled, Irish on every branch of the family tree. A reminder that whatever small spark I’d once imagined between us had been only mine. Even now, years later, the memory still lands like a small bruise I pretend not to feel. ⸻ I close the laptop and wander into the kitchen. Someone left cupcakes from the welcome event on the counter, half-eaten and already going stale. I pick at one just to have something to do with my hands. Outside, headlights sweep across the window—cars still pulling up to the Ice House. I can hear shouting, laughter, someone daring someone else to shotgun a beer. Typical. I tell myself I’m over it. Over him. But curiosity’s a quiet disease. I lean against the counter, arms folded, watching the lights flicker across the lawn like ghosts of every bad decision I’ve never made. That’s the difference between me and Logan. He leaps; I calculate. He breaks; I build. It’s why I’m President now. Why Alpha Chi runs smoother than any other house on Greek Row. And why I’ll never be a story in Logan Shaw’s highlight reel. ⸻ The next morning the house wakes early—coffee brewing, hair dryers screaming, clipboards everywhere. Recruitment season is a machine, and I’m the engine. Becca bursts into the kitchen, phone in hand. “Did you see? The hockey team’s opening party is officially the ‘Welcome Week Mixer.’ Admin even posted it on the events page. We’re technically collaborating.” Of course we are. Cole Matthews and I coordinated it months ago—a charity tie-in, a little PR polish for both sides. I just didn’t expect him to still feel like a variable I can’t control. I sip my coffee. “Good. The more visibility, the better for our fundraiser.” Becca smirks. “Visibility, huh? That what we’re calling it now?” I arch a brow. “That’s what the university calls it.” She laughs and heads out. I stare into the dark swirl of my coffee until it stops moving. ⸻ By afternoon, I’m sitting on the library steps waiting for a meeting, laptop balanced on my knees. Students rush past with maps and iced lattes. It’s hot for September, sunlight bouncing off the stone walls. And then I hear his voice. “Still running the world, I see.” I look up. Logan stands at the bottom of the steps, sunglasses hooked in his shirt collar, hair damp like he’s just come from the rink. He smiles the way people do when they’re testing boundaries. “Somebody has to,” I say. He climbs two steps, stopping just close enough that I catch the faint scent of soap and sweat. “You always did like being in charge.” “And you always did like pretending you didn’t care.” His grin widens. “Maybe I still don’t.” “Good,” I say, closing my laptop. “Then this conversation’s over.” He laughs under his breath. “Still sharp.” I slide the computer into my bag and stand. The sun hits me full in the face; I squint but don’t look away. “Whatever you’re looking for, Shaw, it’s not here.” “Who says I’m looking?” “You always are.” For a moment neither of us moves. Then he tips an invisible hat and backs away, leaving the scent of ice and arrogance in his wake. ⸻ As I watch him go, a thought I don’t want surfaces—quiet, traitorous. What if people can change? I shake it off, tighten my grip on the bag strap, and head inside the library. I have a meeting to run, a chapter to manage, a life that doesn’t orbit around anyone. Least of all him. But as the doors swing shut behind me, the echo of his laugh lingers longer than it should.Cole POVThe locker room should feel electric after a game like that.Hat trick.Big conference win.Scouts practically drooling over Logan again.Everything technically back on track.Except—Nothing feels right.Marco tosses a towel into his locker and shakes his head slowly.“Okay, seriously. Somebody check if Shaw’s secretly a serial killer.”A few guys laugh awkwardly.Not because it’s funny.Because everybody knows exactly what he means.Logan sits three lockers down from me, unlacing his skates in complete silence while the rest of the room celebrates around him.No smirking.No cocky comments.No adrenaline high.Nothing.Just cold.Detached.Like he left every human emotion out on the ice.Coach is happier tonight at least.I can tell.Logan played perfectly.Focused.Aggressive.Controlled.Exactly what everybody wanted.So why does it feel like we lost something instead?“Dude looked like he wanted to fight God tonight,” Marco mutters quieter this time.I glance back at Log
Logan POVThe arena is loud tonight.Not normal loud.Playoff loud.The kind of noise that crawls into your bloodstream and turns everything sharp.Fast.Violent.Perfect.And honestly?I think I need violent tonight.Because if I slow down long enough to think about Harper—About her crying.About her saying goodbye like it physically destroyed her—I’m probably going to lose my damn mind.So instead?I skate.Hard.The puck drops and I immediately slam into their winger hard enough to send him stumbling backward into the boards.The crowd erupts instantly.Good.I want loud.I want impact.I want pain.Because pain feels easier than whatever the hell has been happening to my chest for the last week.“Jesus Christ,” Marco mutters skating past me. “You trying to kill somebody?”“Maybe.”“Cool cool cool. Healthy response.”I ignore him and chase the puck again.Everything feels clearer tonight.Not calmer.Worse.Focused in that dangerous almost-angry way.Like if I stop moving, everyt
Logan POVFor a second after Harper says it—I honestly can’t move.“I think I have to let you go.”The words hit like a body check straight to the chest.Hard.Violent.Knocking the air completely out of me.I just stare at her.Because no.No, absolutely not.That is not happening.Harper stands in front of me crying so hard she’s shaking, and somehow that makes this worse because I know she means it.She really thinks this is love.Walking away.Destroying herself to save me.And maybe that’s the cruelest part of all this.She loves me enough to leave.“Don’t.”The word comes out rough.Barely even sounding like me.Harper wipes quickly at her face, unable to fully look at me anymore.“Logan—”“No.”I move toward her immediately.Fast enough that she instinctively steps backward again.That tiny movement nearly wrecks me completely.“Don’t look at me like I’m already gone,” I say quietly.Her face crumples harder.“I’m trying to do the right thing.”“For who?”“For you!”The answer
Harper POVThe room feels too small.Like the walls are closing in around us while Logan paces back and forth across my dorm room trying to hold himself together.And honestly?I think this is the first time I’ve ever truly seen him scared.Not angry.Not frustrated.Scared.That realization alone nearly breaks me.His hands drag through his hair again as he stares down at his phone like he wants to throw it through the wall.I stand frozen beside the bed, heart pounding so hard it hurts.Because this—This is exactly what I was terrified of.Not the fighting.Not the rumors.Consequences.Real ones.Scouts hearing things.Questions being asked.Logan’s future suddenly becoming shaky because of all this chaos surrounding us.Around me.“I should go.”The words leave my mouth before I can stop them.Logan freezes instantly.Slowly turns toward me.“What?”“I should go.”His expression hardens immediately.“No.”“This is getting worse.”“No,” he snaps sharply. “My father is making it wo
Logan POVI stay with her until almost two in the morning.Not talking much after a while.Just… existing together.Like both of us are too emotionally wrecked to keep fighting but too terrified to let go either.Harper eventually curls into my side on her bed while I sit against the headboard, one arm wrapped around her automatically.Protective.Possessive.In love.Dangerous combination.And honestly?That should probably concern me more than it does.The room is quiet except for soft music playing from somewhere in the dorm building and Harper’s uneven breathing against my chest.Every once in a while, I feel her fingers tighten slightly in my hoodie like she’s checking whether I’m still there.I always am.That’s the problem.I stare down at the top of her head, exhaustion pulling heavily at my body now.Not physical exhaustion.Emotional.Like the last few weeks have cracked something open inside me that refuses to close again.“You awake?” Harper whispers quietly.“Yeah.”“Me t
Harper POVThe second the lock clicks, I regret it.Because now he’s here.Actually here.And I already know one look at Logan is going to destroy every ounce of resolve I barely managed to hold together.I open the door slowly anyway.And there he is.Breathing hard like he came straight here without stopping.Hair messy.Hoodie half-zipped.Eyes locked onto me with a level of panic that instantly cracks something inside my chest.God.I hate that he looks scared.Especially because I’m the reason.His expression shifts the second he sees my face fully.Pain.Immediate pain.Because I know I look awful.I’ve been crying for over an hour and there’s no hiding it anymore.“Jesus, Harper.”The softness in his voice almost kills me.I look away immediately.“Don’t.”“Don’t what?”“Look at me like that.”“Like what?”“Like I’m breaking your heart.”His jaw tightens instantly.“You are.”The words hit so hard my breath catches painfully.Silence stretches between us.Heavy.Raw.Because th
Harper POVAt first, it’s subtle.The kind of subtle you only notice if you’re already paying attention.Logan comes back inside with his phone still in his hand, and his face is… different. Not angry. Not exactly. Just closed. Like someone flipped a switch behind his eyes and turned the lights off
Harper POVThe truck idles in front of the house.Neither of us moves.The engine hum fills the silence, low and steady, like it’s trying to give us time we didn’t ask for but somehow need. The porch light is on, warm and familiar, the sorority house standing there like a checkpoint between this mo
Logan POVHarper looks at me like I just said something in another language.Not angry.Not judging.Just… baffled.“Logan,” she says slowly, “did you forget something?”My chest is still tight. My head still full of static.“Forget what?” I ask.She studies my face for a long second, like she’s de
Logan POVI stare at my closet like it’s going to judge me.Which is stupid.It’s a closet.But somehow it feels like it’s already disappointed in me.I tug a shirt off a hanger, hold it up, then immediately put it back.Too much.I grab another one.Too little.I’m halfway through a third option w







