“Just don’t lose sight of—”
“The end goal.” I moved around her but stopped to kiss her cheek. “Yeah, yeah, Dad already gave me the lecture.”
“We’re not lecturing you, Aaron. We’re just aware you’re under a lot of pressure.” “Not this again.” Sofia shuffled into the kitchen, bleary-eyed and yawning.
“Something you want to tell us, sweetheart?” Dad’s brow went up at her bedraggled state.
“I didn’t sleep well. Is there coffee?”
“Fresh pot,” Mom answered. “I’ll make it. Sit.” She went over and pressed her hand to my sister’s forehead. “Are you feeling all right?”
“I feel fine. Exhausted, but fine.”
“You let me know if you start to feel sick, okay?”
“Sure, Mom.” Sofia dropped her head onto her arms and I glanced at Mom.
“And you worry about me burning the candle at both ends.” “I’m fine,” Sofia murmured, lifting a hand in a small wave.
“Where’s Ezra?” Dad asked.
“Probably over at the Chases’.”
“He’d better not—”
“Morning.” Ezra clapped Dad on the back.
“We were just talking about you.”
“What’s up?”
“Do you know when you and Ashleigh might want to go to New York yet?”
“It’ll have to be a bye week or we’ll wait until after the season ends.”
“Listen to you.” I chuckled. “Who knew Ezra Bennet could be such a team player.” He flipped me off behind Mom’s back.
“It’s good to see you so motivated, Son,” Dad said. “After everything…” “Let’s not go there.” Ezra clicked his tongue.
It had been a rocky few years for Ezra and our family. He was our foster brother—adopted brother now—and had found it difficult accepting things. Accepting that we loved the shit out of him and wanted to make him a Bennet permanently.
“You’re right.” Mom smiled at him. “The past is the past. We’re only focusing on the here and now, and the future in this house.”
“Is that official guidance counselor speak?” Dad’s laughter echoed through the room.
“No, that’s Mya Bennet knows best speak.” She wrapped her arm around his neck and dipped her head to kiss his cheek.
Ezra and I smiled. Maybe it was a bit gross watching your parents paw all over each other, but it had never really bothered me. I liked that they still had a spark. Sure, I didn’t want to see too much PDA, but their relationship, the way they’d weathered every storm that blew their way, together, was something to strive for.
“Are you riding with Ashleigh?” I asked my brother, and he nodded.
“You know, we could all ride together.”
“Do you really want to ride with them?” Sofia’s head popped up. “They can’t keep their hands off
—”
“Less talk about hands and other body parts over breakfast, please and thank you.” Dad grinned, and I smothered another chuckle.
“Okay, I’m out of here.” Ezra tore open his protein bar and waved it at us.
“Ashleigh’s here already? But it’s still early.” Mom frowned. “Why do you need to go in so earl — oh. Oh.” Her eyes crinkled as me and Dad started laughing again.
“And on that note, I’m out.” Ezra left and Mom turned her attention on me and Dad. “Should we be worried?”
“About E? No way. He’s happy.”
“Yeah.” Her expression softened. “He is, isn’t he?”
“Life is good, my love.” Dad brought her hand to his lips and kissed her knuckles.
“Can you two please stop?” Sofia said. “It’s just too much cuteness for this time in the morning.” “At least you think it’s cute and not gross.” Mom smiled.
“No way. It gives me hope.” “Hope?” Dad asked.
“Yeah, you two were high school sweethearts and stayed the course.”
“Something you want to tell us, Sofia?”
“No. I just mean most guys of today are so… flaky. It’s nice to know that true love still exists.”
“Oh, it exists, but it’s rare, baby.” Mom kissed Dad’s cheek again before going to the refrigerator.
“What your mom is trying to say is that when you do find it, you hold onto it. But when you’re older, sweetheart. Much, much older.” “Typical,” Sofia huffed.
“What? I’m just saying there’s no rush for all that.” “Ash,” Mom warned, and I fought a grin.
This was typical them. Dad got carried away and Mom had to rein him in.
I was definitely more like him than her.
“You want a ride to school?” I asked Sofia, and she shrugged. “We’ll have to stop and get Poppy.” Her name rippled through me.
There had been a time when I’d have been the first person at her door, wanting to ride together.
But everything was different now.
We’d grown up and things that once had meant nothing, now meant everything.
“Aaron?” Sofia stared at me with a strange expression. “If you don’t want to—”
“No.” I forced a smile. “We can get her.”
“Why do I feel like I’m missing something?” Mom said. “Did something happen between you and
Poppy?”
“Nope,” I said at the same time as Sofia said, “She’s dating Eli Hannigan.”
“Eli seems like a good guy.” Mom launched into a recital of all Eli’s good qualities. His gleaming GPA, successful swim career, his plans for the future. But I shut it all out.
If Eli was who Poppy wanted, I was happy for her.
I was.
Even if it meant I’d lost her.
Crap.
He wasn’t supposed to be here. I snatched my cell off the desk ready to text Sofia and ask her what the hell she was thinking.
But that would suggest I cared.
And I didn’t.
At least, that’s what I wanted her and Aaron and the rest of the world to think.
I was done being the girl in love with her best friend. It was exhausting.My entire life, I’d been his best friend, his confidante, his partner in crime… but I’d never been his girl.I’d never been the girl he looked at and wanted to kiss or touch or love.Jesus, I needed to get a grip.Senior year had made everything more intense somehow though. Aaron had cheerleaders hanging off him at every turn. He was hot property. The guy all the girls wanted a piece of.That hadn’t been a big surprise. Aaron was gorgeous. Tall, dark, and handsome, he had his father’s piercing blue eyes, a tanned complexion thanks to his mom’s Latina roots, and some new ink that gave him that bad boy edge.What was surprising was the way Aaron ate up the attention. The first time I’d seen him in the cafeteria with Zara Willis—head cheerleader and vapid mean girl—draped all over him, I’d thought I was seeing things.Aaron had the attention of most of the girls in our class. Of course he wasn’t going to ever noti
“Aw, look at all that cuteness.”“You call it cuteness, I call it chaos. They run me ragged, and I can swim two hundred yards in one-fifty point eight.”“Impressive.” I grabbed the books I needed and closed my locker.“You should come watch me practice.”“Maybe I will.”His eyes twinkled. “Yeah? I thought I’d have to work a little harder to get you to say yes.”“Half naked guys in itty bitty Speedos. What’s not to like?”“Oh, it’s like that, huh?” Laughter bubbled in his chest. “Can I walk you to class?”“Sure.” I shrugged, keeping a respectable distance between us. It wasn’t like we were dating, not really. We’d hung out a few times. Maybe shared a kiss in the library last week.My cheeks burned as I remembered his words.“You know, my friends told me you were a lost cause. Said that you and Aaron Bennet were a thing.”I’d instantly regretted it—not that I’d kissed him, but that I’d done it out of anger. Because a few days before, I had watched Aaron kiss Zara, and I wanted to get ba
“Well, that’s good. Because what a disaster it’d be if you were going out with him just to get back at my brother.” Her lips twisted with mild amusement but I didn’t reply.What was there to say?I did like Eli.But I loved Aaron.It was going to take time to bury those feelings.I owed it to myself to try though.Aaron“OKAY, GATHER IN,” Coach Ford boomed across the field, and we all fell into line, forming a circle around him. “That was good, you’re looking strong. Cole, good job out there, son. You and Ezra are working those plays hard. But don’t become too dependent on him. Use your other players.Learn the plays. Memorize the shit out of them.“We had it easy last week, but Marshall Prep are going to come at us hard Friday, and we need that win.”“Hell yeah, we’ve got this, Coach,” I said, encouraging the rest of the guys to join in.As captain it was my job to get them amped, to lead by example. I might not have been quarterback but I knew these guys. I knew every player’s stren
I shoved away the sinking feeling in my chest. I had three colleges on my list: Pittsburgh, Connecticut, and Iowa. But things had moved slow last year. Coach Ford and Dad constantly reassured me not to worry, that I still had time. But how could I not? I wasn’t like Sofia. I didn’t have my future all mapped out or a 4.0 GPA. I was an average student with average life goals. Except for football.Football was my shot at being something, at making my mark.“Hey, you okay?” Ezra noticed my sullen expression.“Yeah.” I gave him an easy smile. Because that’s what people expected of me. I was the laid-back one, the joker, the good guy. I didn’t take myself—or life—too seriously.“Hey, you guys want to go to Riverside after we’re done here?”“No can do, I’m meeting Ashleigh. We’re going out with McKay and Pen,” Ezra said, dragging his jersey over his head.“Of course you are.” I smiled. He and Ashleigh spent a lot of time with Gavin McKay and his girlfriend Penelope. But McKay was good people
“What? I just want to know that the first girl to catch your eye in forever is worth it.” Leo smiled, but I was too caught on his words.Eli’s new girl.New girl.His girl.My chest tightened and I inhaled a sharp breath. “Me and Poppy go way back, yeah.” “So is she?” He stared at me expectantly.“Is she what?” I gawked, confused.“Is she worth it?” Fuck.Well that was the million dollar question, wasn’t it.No.Say no.But I pasted on a fake smile and said, “Yeah.” I almost choked on the words. “She’s worth it.”Poppy“DO YOU HAVE TO SHOW OFF?” Sofia asked me as I flipped over again.Traipsing over to her, I dropped down onto the end of the lounger. “I need to burn off some steam.”“Can’t you do it without looking so… graceful?” Her lips twisted, and I returned her smile.“You’re just jealous you’re not as bendy as I am.”“Maybe.” She chuckled. “I have brains. You have brains and bendiness. It doesn’t seem fair somehow.”“You do know bendiness isn’t officially a word, right?”“It is
“She doesn’t need to be. Leo is one of the best guys I know.” His eyes lingered for a second and then he motioned for me to get in.“Leo, Sofia. Sofia, this is my best friend, Leo.”“Hey.” He barely looked twice at her, and I was aware of a strange tension between them.“Hi,” Sofia clipped out.“Everything okay?” I whispered.“Fine.” She smiled but quickly averted her eyes.Crap.“Ready to bowl?” Eli chimed, either unaware of the atmosphere in the car or trying to gloss over it.“I can hardly wait,” Leo murmured.My brows crinkled. He didn’t seem too pleased to be here, and Sofia looked less than impressed at her date for the evening.“I can’t wait,” I said with fake bravado.Maybe this was a bad idea.But it was too late now.“Oh my God.” Sofia grabbed my hand and held me back while the guys headed for our lane. “This is the worst. He doesn’t want to be here.”“I’m sure that’s not true. Maybe he’s just having a bad day.”“I love you, babe, but you’re a terrible liar. He hasn’t looked
“Is he trying to piss me off?” Sofia glared at Leo as he sat, more interested in whatever was on his cell phone than our conversation.After bowling we’d gone to Cindy’s Grill for something to eat, but the whole date had gone from bad to worse.Sofia had won at bowling, which only sent Leo spiraling into an even worse mood. Eli got pissedat him and the two of them had a heated discussion on the ride over here, and Sofia wanted to leave.But I’d begged her to stay, hoping that we still might salvage the night.I was rapidly losing hope though.“Dude.” Eli elbowed his friend in the side and Leo winced.“What the hell was that for?”“Poppy asked you a question.”“She did?”“You’d know if you were listening—”“Okay, I’m done.” Sofia shot up. “I’ve tried, I really have. But I’m done. I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?” She gave me a small smile, but it didn’t reach her eyes.And I got it, I did.If our roles were reversed, I would have wanted to leave too.“We’ll give you a ride home,” Eli said
A question I had no intention of answering.What if it didn’t?At lunch, I stopped by Mom’s office to see if she wanted anything. It was something I did sometimes, to spread a little love to one of the most important women in my life. But when I approached her slightly ajar door, Coach Ford’s voice made me stop dead in my tracks.“Dammit,” Mom said. “You’re sure?”“Yeah, spoke to him myself. They’re not interested.”“It’s his top pick, he’s going to be devastated.” No.No.I scanned the empty hall, checking that the coast was clear before inching closer.“The bottom line is they have better players on their list. Aaron is good, but he’s—”“Not good enough.” Mom sighed, and I could imagine her brows pinched with motherly concern.“What do we do now?”“Wait to see what Connecticut and Iowa say. Maybe try and get him to think about some Division II or III teams. He might stand more of a chance. Or he stays the course, applies to one of his top picks for an academic program and tries to g