Chapter 33

Natalie

Why didn't I try harder to make Noah stay with me inside the office?

Now he is on a date with Lexie, probably laughing and drinking wine. Lexie will probably fall for Noah because who can't help but get sucked into those ocean eyes?

I hug my arms to my body. My chest feels like it is on fire, and my heart and brain are on a pendulum of anger and grief. Part of me wants to scream and fight, but there is human fear. It keeps me from playing all my cards and saying too much.

I wish humans didn't have a block like that, then I could tell Noah everything without being afraid.

Downing a massive glass of water, I try to focus on someone else other than Noah, but he is like a spreading infection.

I can't think.

I can't eat.

I can't sleep.

Not without hearing his laughter, dreaming about his smile.

So far, I'm coping, but I don't think I will be able to see Noah kiss and hug someone else. It almost killed me to see him embrace Lexie. I'm so jealous of her—does she realize how lucky she