تسجيل الدخول2 years ago – Saturday 29th February
Valentina The battle in front of the mirror continues. My subconscious tuts, mocking me. *He chose you for weekends Valentina...* she corrects. 'There’s a difference.* My reflection blurs. I’m not crying. I refuse to cry before I even try. My hands are trembling but I force them steady. Brave isn’t the absence of fear. Brave is knowing every reason you should stop… and doing it anyway. He could say no. But if he says yes…If he says yes, then maybe I’m not just his weekend secret. Maybe I’m not an intrusion. Maybe he could be mine as much as I am already his. I take a shaky breath and whisper it to myself like a prayer and a threat: “Leap Day, take the Leap Valentina.” Inside my heart races but says with quiet confidence. *He’s worth the fall.* I straighten my shoulders. Tonight I’m choosing brave. I release my long curly locks from the loose bun it had been tied in and it falls in a silky curtain down my back. No sooner that I put on a loose robe and belted it covering up the sexy corset, I heard the click of the front door. As I came out the room, barefoot Nash looked quizzically at the intimate dinner set up. He gave me a suspicious look already tensing. “What’s all this Valentina?” he asked gesturing to the table. “You didn’t make it to my graduation three weeks ago.” I replied softly. “I thought we could have a belated celebration. Just you and me.” I said looking at him hopefully. Something passed over his eyes…guilt maybe but he shrugged his shoulders. “I didn’t miss it Valentina.” He paused to let that sink in. “I chose not to come.” He said pointedly. I had to will myself not to flinch. For my facial muscles to not pinch. My eyes burned but I pasted a smile on my face regardless. “Well then I can celebrate and you can just enjoy the dinner I prepared.” I quipped back. Even if he joined me reluctantly at the table, he definitely enjoyed the fruits of my labour. “This is excellent Valentina. Restaurant quality.” He said appreciatively, even taking seconds. I pushed the food around on my plate. Even though the praise warmed me, his first reaction had killed my appetite. After dessert, I picked up our plates. “Why don’t you go shower while I clear up here.” I suggested. “You sure?” he asked. “I feel I should pitch in after you went all out on that dinner.” My smile was real this time. See…he wasn’t a complete douche. “Go ahead. I’ll be waiting for you.” He nodded and turned, leaving me alone in the kitchen and my nervousness for the second bit. I had just switched off the kitchen light when Nash stepped out of his room, smelling like cedar and sin. He was dressed in loose grey joggers and a black Henley stretched tight over his broad muscular chest. I took a deep breath and then just went for it. I undid the belt and let the robe fall open. And one look at me and Nash lost it. “Fucking hell Valencia…”. He hissed. His eyes swept over me from my head to my bare feet and back up again…the pupils of his eyes dilating. “You are so fucking beautiful…fuck your tits in that thing…” Taking heart from his reaction, I walked over while his eyes just stayed glued to me. I took his big hand and led him to my room. My hands were shaking as I closed the bedroom door behind us. Normally, this would be happening in the playroom—the room designated for our scenes, equipped with everything Nash needed to take control. But to nite belonged to me. It was Leap Day, when I was allowed to switch and claim this night. And I'd spent the last three weeks gathering the courage to ask for something different. His blue eyes studied me with that familiar intensity, a half-smile playing on his lips. He knew something was coming. He always knew. But he was waiting for me to do it, he was not going to make this easy for me. "Strip," I said, and my voice came out smaller than I wanted. Nash's eyebrows lifted, but he didn't argue. He pulled his shirt over his head, revealing that broad chest I'd worshipped a hundred times before—but always after he'd taken control. The muscles in his shoulders flexed as he tugged off his sweats and kicked them aside. My mouth watered as all that glorious skin and muscle was revealed and I watched his glorious cock spring free, already half-hard. I swallowed hard. *You can do this Valencia. You asked for this. Just... lead.* I coached myself. "Lie down," I whispered, gesturing to my bed—my soft, floral-scented bed that had never seen anything like what I had planned. He obeyed, stretching out on his back, his body taking up nearly the entire mattress. I crawled up beside him, the fur-lined cuffs I'd hidden under my pillow cool in my trembling hands. "What are those, baby girl?" His voice was low, amused, but with an edge of curiosity. I didn't answer. I just reached for his right wrist. He let me. That surprised me. But when I moved to secure the second cuff to the headboard, he stiffened. "Valentina…" "Nash, please." I met his eyes, feeling the heat rush to my cheeks. "You promised. Let me... let me do this. Tonight. Just tonight." He studied me for a long moment, that blue gaze searching mine. Then he let his wrist fall into place, and I snapped the cuff closed. I secured the other one too, making sure they were tight enough to hold but not enough to hurt. His arms were stretched above his head now, muscles straining, and I could see the slightest flicker of uncertainty in his expression. He wasn't used to this. Neither was I. But I wanted it. Him. All of him, on my terms, just once.2 years ago – Saturday 29th February Valentina The battle in front of the mirror continues. My subconscious tuts, mocking me. *He chose you for weekends Valentina...* she corrects. 'There’s a difference.* My reflection blurs. I’m not crying. I refuse to cry before I even try. My hands are trembling but I force them steady. Brave isn’t the absence of fear. Brave is knowing every reason you should stop… and doing it anyway. He could say no. But if he says yes…If he says yes, then maybe I’m not just his weekend secret. Maybe I’m not an intrusion. Maybe he could be mine as much as I am already his. I take a shaky breath and whisper it to myself like a prayer and a threat: “Leap Day, take the Leap Valentina.” Inside my heart races but says with quiet confidence. *He’s worth the fall.* I straighten my shoulders. Tonight I’m choosing brave. I release my long curly locks from the loose bun it had been tied in and it falls in a silky curtain down my back. No sooner that I put on a
2 years ago – Saturday 29th February ValentinaI woke up later than normal, the sun already high in the sky.I blushed as last night came rushing back. Nashian had been an absolute animal. He had taken me three more times. In the shower, strapped to the bench and finally on the giant four poster bed. Each round had been more intense than the last, until writhing and screaming with overstimulation, I finally passed out. Knowing Nash, he probably just continued. But afterwards…this is when I know Nash cares even if he never says so. He took the time to clean me up, carry me back to my room and tuck me in. Our normal routine is a lazy Saturday. I get the day and then he goes out with friends or to attend functions in the evenings. I don’t get to ask where he goes or with who. And I especially don’t get to ask to accompany him. The contract was clear about that. It hurts, off course it does but those are the terms. I don’t mind what time he returns as long as I get Sunday. But tod
2 years ago – Friday 28th February Valentina And then his mouth crashed down onto mine, teeth nipping my lower lip, tongue delving deep as if he he couldn't get enough of the taste of me. Plunging, duelling, conquering like a starving man offered a banquet and that had decided to swallow me whole. I gasped from the sudden onslaught, his kiss bruising and hungry. My hands scrabbled to find purchase on his chest and I felt the hard muscle flex beneath his shirt. Nash broke away just enough to stare into my eyes, his blue gaze blazing. “You look like a fantasy baby, temptation incarnate.” he snarled, his thumb brushing my cheek gently, so at odds with his intense look. “All wrapped up in that lace, waiting for me like a good little slut.” A hot blush flooded my cheeks, but I couldn’t look away. You would think by now I would be used to how dirty he spoke during sex but it still affected me. Every. Single. Time. My pussy clenched, loving the way his praise made my pulse spike,
2 years ago – Friday 28th February Valentina The call came early on Friday morning. Dianne, my publisher, breathless with excitement and enthusiasm had told me that we had done it. My breath caught…A million...the number seemed unreal for a series that had been out for just a year and a half. We had sold a million books and had back orders. Told me to check my email and the confirmation of the bank transfer. "Do you know what that means Valentina? For you, for your future?" she asked. I think I was still in shock. The books had been bringing in a steady income. I hadn't needed to sell any of my mom's paintings for the last eighteen months. "That's wonderful Dianne. You know how important financial stability is to me." The was silence on the other end and then she sighed. “I know. The next time you open your banking app, you're going to be a millionaire my sweet girl. So cut yourself some slack and live a little." she said on a more serious note. I laughed. Between her and Liv
Author's Foreword This story has been entered into the Doing Me to the Fullest Contest. I hope it resonates with all of you that do me the honour of reading it as well as the judges of the contest. I wrote this story for every person that till this day hold a space in their hearts for their first love. If you felt that tingle, if your heart raced, if butterflies swarmed your tummy then you will understand Valentina. Unfortunately, the harder you love, the more intense is the heartbreak. This is her story. A warning that the book includes some dark elements that might affect some readers. Dom/sub relationship. Bdsm. Sexual themes and references. Child neglect. Drug abuse/addiction. Stalking. On screen and off screen rape. Prologue Present Day - February 6th 2026 The black dress hung from the closet door while I stared at it like it belonged to someone else's life. Funeral attire. I swallowed hard and folded another blouse into my carry-on before glancing automatically toward







