Chapter 4

Jan’s POV

I don’t know what is happening to me. When she was leaving the meeting room, I wasn’t intending on pulling her to me I was just trying to stop her but when she was in my arms and I smelled her sweet fragrance all of those memories came back and now she’s sitting in my car with the whole car smelling like her which isn’t helping.  When her grandfather said that she would be training in this company at first, I felt my heart jump from joy but then I realized that I will face her every single day, be with her the whole day and that is something I don’t want. I don’t want to fall in love with her again because I know that she’s going to break my heart again by leaving at the end of these 2 months. I was pulled from my trance when her phone rang. Looking at the caller ID she decided to decline the call. I wonder who this person is. Is he her boyfriend or just a friend of hers? What Jan why are you concerned? Even if she had a boyfriend why does it bother you? “Yes mom I am on my way to the mansion” I heard her saying “Okay. Bye” she said while hanging up. “Everything okay?” I asked. “Yeah just my typical mom always checking on me every single second of the day” she huffed. I remember her mom being over protective about her “I wonder what she was like when you were away” I said almost regretting it “Well, at first she used to call every two hours to check on me and then dad talked her out of it” she replied smiling. We were almost in front of the Yorkan’s mansion when I heard her ask “So, at what time tomorrow should I be at the company?” “At 8 am” saying while stopping the car in front of the mansion. “Great. See you tomorrow then” she opened the car door and got down before even having the chance to reply. I don’t know what it’s happening to me. When I saw her sitting in the meeting room, I wanted to go hug her and kiss her really badly. I wanted to tell her that all what she told me 3 years ago about me becoming a successful person became true. I wanted to do so many things but when she raised her head and looked me in the eyes, I remembered that night; the night those blue eyes looked me in the eye and told me ‘Sorry Jan, I don’t love you anymore’. Then, I realized that I can’t fall in love with her again. I can’t be hurt again. Although all I did was for her, the application the company, everything that I did was for her to prove that I am the person who she used to think I am. I don’t know why she left me like that and I certainly want to hear her explanation but when we were in the office I just didn’t want her to think that I am still mourning about her and that I still love her because I don’t. I just think that it is my right to know. I have arrived now my penthouse it’s in the same building as the company. Isaac was waiting for me there in order to check somethings for work. “Oh my god bro she is fucking beautiful” Isaac said while I took a drink form the fridge. Yes I know Isaac that she’s beautiful. The most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She even became more beautiful in these 3 years if that’s possible. “Isaac you’re exaggerating” I said taking a sip from the beer. “Bro, I know you hate her and everything but you have to be fair. The girl is gorgeous. Her blond hair, blue emerald eyes, even when she looked very tired, she’s beautiful” I rolled my eyes not loving the idea of someone talking about her beauty like that. “Enough about her we have work to do” I said sitting down.

After finishing work yesterday with Isaac, I took a shower and went to sleep thinking about what is going to happen today. Will we talk? Or are we going to just have this awkward silence between us all the time? We’ll see now that she must be on her way to the company. A knock on the door made me look up from the reports in my hands “Come in” I said while resuming looking in the reports. “Hi” she said. “Miss Sarah, you’re right on time as always” I said looking at her now. She looks absolutely stunning without even making effort. She’s wearing jeans, crop top and a jacket. “So, from where do we start?”

“Well, first let me introduce you to the people in the company and show you around”

“Sounds great” she said smiling. Oh my god this smile is going to kill me someday. I showed her around the company, introduced her to the people and showed her that her desk will be with me in the same room in order to train her and she was very comfortable with it.

“Hey Jan, I will go to the toilet and then come finish those reports, okay?” she asked

“Yeah sure take your time” I said. When she left the room, I sighed. I must say I wasn’t expecting things to be smoothly going between us but what can I say she’s very professional. Her phone rang on her desk. I didn’t realize she has left it here. I don’t know why but I wanted to know who’s calling her so I went to her desk to check it. What I saw next made my heart shatter again of it was even possible. A photo of her and a blonde guy was shown on the phone with the caller ID ‘Noah’. I fumed with anger. ‘So this is her boyfriend ha’ I said to myself. Right then the door opened and she entered the room seeing me holding her phone made her arch her brows. “It is ringing so I wanted to give it to you” I explained. She took the phone seeing the caller ID “Sorry, I have to get this” she said answering the phone.

“Hey, sorry I couldn’t pick up yesterday and it totally slipped off my mind” she said. “Yeah Yeah I am okay” so he was the one calling her when she was in the car with me. “Look I am kind of in the middle of something so can I talk to you later?” she asked the caller “Okay. Bye” she hung up smiling. I didn’t realize I was staring at her until she looked at me. “Is this your boyfriend?” I blurted out. What the hell is wrong with me? “No” she said and said nothing more.

“You know if this is your boyfriend you can tell me” Why am I pushing this?

 “No he’s not plus why would I tell you?” she asked which made me really mad.

 “Yeah why would you tell me?” I was shouting now. “I am some guy that you      used to date and then you were not interested anymore”

“I thought your world doesn’t revolve around me anymore” she is shouting too now.

“Don’t you think you owe me an explanation?” I asked ignoring her last sentence. I don’t care if I told her that my world doesn’t revolve around her anymore. I don’t care that I am asking about the past.I don't care about anything. All I care about now was a fucking explanation and to know who the hell this Noah is.

“No, you don’t owe me anything. It’s all in the past so you have to move on” she paused “Like I did” she said heading outside the room.