LOGINNADIA’S POV
I shouldn’t have stayed.
The moment I saw him standing there, I should have walked out and kept going. Instead, I stood in the rain with him like nothing had changed, like three years of silence could be explained in a few words.
“You don’t remember anything?” I asked.
Colin shook his head once. “No. Just what I’ve been told.”
I let out a breath that didn’t feel steady. “Then there’s nothing to explain.”
“That’s not true.”
“It is.” I folded my arms, more to hold myself in place than anything else. “You already made your decisions. This doesn’t change that.”
“I didn’t know—”
“You didn’t ask.” My voice cut through his before he could finish. “You never asked anything, Colin. That’s the point.”
He went quiet.
Good, because I didn’t trust myself to keep talking if he didn’t.
Rain soaked through my sleeves, my hair, everything, but I didn’t move. It was easier to stand there than to deal with what came after.
“I saw footage,” he said after a moment.
I frowned slightly. “What?”
“From the penthouse. Security logs.” He paused. “You were there. Waiting. And I… walked past you.”
My chest tightened, but I didn’t let it show.
“That doesn’t surprise me.”
“It should.”
“Why?” I looked at him properly this time. “Because you don’t remember doing it?”
His jaw tightened.
“I’m trying to understand what happened.”
“And I’m telling you it doesn’t matter anymore.”
“It matters to me.”
I let out a short laugh. “That’s new.”
Something flickered across his face, but I didn’t stay on it long enough to figure out what it was.
“I didn’t come here to fight with you,” he said.
“Then you shouldn’t have come at all.”
That landed.
I saw it in the way his expression shifted slightly, like he hadn’t expected that answer.
Too bad.
“I built a life without you,” I continued, my voice quieter now but steadier. “I fixed everything you broke. I’m not going back to that.”
“I’m not asking you to.”
“Then what are you asking?”
He didn’t answer immediately.
“I just need to know what I did,” he said finally. “I need to understand why you left.”
I stared at him.
“You really don’t know?”
“No.”
For a second, I almost believed him.
That was the problem.
“You didn’t do one thing,” I said. “You just… didn’t do anything at all.”
He frowned slightly.
“You stopped seeing me,” I continued. “You stopped talking to me. You stopped caring if I was there or not. I could sit in the same room with you for hours and you wouldn’t notice.”
“That’s not—”
“It is.” I cut him off. “You don’t get to correct me on something you don’t even remember.”
He went quiet again.
I took a step back.
“I tried, Colin,” I said, softer now. “For a long time, I tried to fix it. To make you look at me like I mattered. But at some point, you realize you’re the only one trying.”
The words came out easier than I expected.
Maybe because I had already said them to myself a hundred times before.
“I didn’t know,” he said.
“That doesn’t change anything.”
“I would’ve—”
“You wouldn’t have.” I shook my head. “That’s the point. You had every chance to, and you didn’t.”
The rain was getting heavier, soaking through everything, but neither of us moved.
“I found the divorce papers,” he said. “You signed them without hesitation.”
I let out a quiet breath.
“Because there was nothing left to fight for.”
“That can’t be true.”
“It is.” I met his eyes. “You ended it like it was a meeting you didn’t want to be late for. You didn’t even try to pretend it mattered.”
His expression shifted again, something tightening in it.
“I didn’t know that.”
“I know.”
That was the difference.
Silence settled between us, heavier this time.
I stepped back again.
“I should go.”
“Nadia—”
“No.” I shook my head. “You don’t get to do this now. You don’t get to come back and ask questions like it changes anything.”
“I’m not trying to change it.”
“Then what are you doing?”
He didn’t answer.
Of course he didn’t.
I turned away before I could hesitate.
“Nadia.”
I stopped, just for a second.
“You said I made you fall in love with me,” he said. “Was any of it real?”
I closed my eyes briefly.
That question, of all things.
“Yes,” I said quietly. “That was the problem.”
I didn’t wait for his response.
I walked away, not fast, not slow, just enough to make sure I didn’t stop again. The rain blurred everything around me, but I kept going until the gallery lights were behind me.
By the time I got back inside, my hands were cold.
My chest felt worse.
“You okay?”
I looked up. Lila stood near the doorway, watching me carefully.
“I’m fine.”
“You don’t look fine.”
“I said I’m fine.”
She didn’t push it.
I moved past her, heading toward the back room, needing space, needing quiet, needing anything that wasn’t him standing in the rain asking questions he should have asked years ago.
I stopped when I reached the door, just for a second then I pushed it open and stepped inside.
The room was empty, finally.
I leaned back against the wall, closing my eyes.
It shouldn’t have affected me, It shouldn’t have mattered.
But it did, Because no matter how much I told myself it was over, that I had moved on, that I didn’t feel anything anymore—
Seeing him like that, looking at me like he didn’t know what he’d done…
It made everything feel unfinished.
The door opened behind me.
I didn’t turn.
“Nadia.”
My chest tightened.
I exhaled slowly. “You shouldn’t be back here.”
“I know.”
“Then leave.”
Silence.
I turned this time.
He hadn’t moved. Just standing there, like he wasn’t sure if he should come closer or not.
“You said you don’t remember anything,” I said. “So let me make this easy for you.”
He didn’t speak.
I held his gaze.
“You lost me.”
A pause.
“And this time… I’m not the one coming back.”
NADIA’S POVThe courthouse feels colder today, not because of the weather. The first hearing. The beginning of something that suddenly feels too big to stop.I stand outside the courtroom doors gripping Noah’s diaper bag even though he isn’t with me today, my fingers tightening around the strap hard enough to hurt.The hallway smells like coffee, rain, and paper, lawyers moving past in expensive suits while voices echo softly around me.Everything feels too loud, bright. My stomach has been twisting since four this morning.I barely ate or slept. Every time I closed my eyes, I kept imagining the worst possible outcome.Someone taking Noah from me. Even thinking it makes my chest tighten painfully. “You need to breathe.”Diane’s voice pulls me back. I blink quickly, realizing I’ve been staring at the courtroom doors without actually seeing them. “I am breathing.”“No.” Her expression softens slightly while adjusting the folder in her hands. “You’re trying not to panic.”A shaky breath
COLIN’S POVThe storm starts before I even walk into the house. Rain crashes hard against the windshield while lightning flashes across the dark sky, the entire city blurred behind sheets of water.Perfect because that’s exactly what this feels like now. A fucking storm.My hands tighten around the steering wheel as I pull into the driveway, jaw locked hard enough to hurt while everything from the last few days keeps replaying in my head.Nadia crying in court. Noah hugging her while she tried not to fall apart. My mother sitting there cold and composed while lawyers picked through Nadia’s childhood like trauma was evidence.Every memory hits harder the longer I sit with it and honestly I’m done. The second I step inside the house, tension hits immediately. Like everybody already knows something’s coming.I throw my keys onto the entry table harder than I mean to, the sound echoing through the hallway while rainwater drips from my coat onto the marble floor.A few seconds later, Melis
NADIA’S POVMorning comes slowly. Soft gray light slips through the curtains while rain taps lightly against the windows again, quieter than yesterday, softer somehow.The apartment smells like coffee and laundry detergent. For the first time in days, I stand still long enough to actually notice them.Noah sits cross-legged on the living room floor in dinosaur pajamas, stacking blocks carefully while cartoons play low in the background.“Uh oh,” he mumbles seriously when one falls over. A tiny smile almost pulls at my mouth. I lean against the kitchen counter, wrapping both hands around my coffee mug while exhaustion still sits heavy in my body.But something feels different this morning. Last night broke something open inside me.All that fear. All that shame. All those thoughts telling me maybe Melissa was right, maybe I wasn’t enough, maybe Noah deserved someone more stable, more prepared, less damaged—Fuck that.The anger comes suddenly this time. Hot enough to finally cut through
COLIN’S POVThe house feels too quiet. Every sound echoes too much, footsteps against marble floors, the ticking clock near the staircase, the soft clink of dishes somewhere deeper in the house.I stand near the windows in my mother’s dining room, staring out at the gray afternoon sky while rain drags slowly down the glass.I shouldn’t even be here but after yesterday after seeing Nadia sit there looking like someone had ripped every private part of her life open in front of strangers, I couldn’t let it go. The longer I think about it, the worse it gets.My jaw tightens hard as the memory flashes again.Your mother’s addiction history. I drag a hand down my face roughly, exhaling hard through my nose while anger keeps sitting heavy in my chest.The kind that settles into your bones and stays there. “She’s in the study.” I glance toward the housekeeper standing quietly near the hallway.“Thanks.” My voice comes out rougher than I mean it to. She nods once and disappears again while I f
NADIA’S POVThe apartment is finally quiet. The kind that presses against my chest and makes every thought louder than it should be.Rain taps softly against the windows again, the city outside blurry from water and streetlights while the clock on the microwave glows past midnight.I should be sleeping. Instead, I’m sitting on the kitchen floor in sweatpants and one of Noah’s blankets wrapped around my shoulders because somewhere between dinner, bath time, laundry, and crying in the bathroom where he couldn’t hear me, I stopped functioning properly.My chest hurts, this deep, heavy ache that won’t loosen no matter how hard I breathe through it.Noah is asleep down the hall. I checked three times already. He’s curled up with his stuffed dinosaur, tiny hand under his cheek, completely peaceful.A shaky breath leaves me as I stare at the legal folder sitting open on the table.Custody recommendations. Financial disclosures. Character evaluations. I’m so fucking tired. My eyes burn again
COLIN’S POVThe conference room feels suffocating.Cold lights shine down over polished glass tables, legal folders stacked neatly in front of everyone like this is some normal business meeting instead of people tearing each other apart over a child.Rain hits the windows again softly. The sound fills every quiet second between conversations.I sit near the end of the table, jaw tight, fingers pressed too hard against the armrest while lawyers talk in circles around me.Custody arrangements. Parental evaluations. Temporary recommendations. Every word sounds worse than the last.Across the room, Nadia sits beside Diane, shoulders tense, arms folded tightly across herself like she’s physically holding herself together.And fuck she looks exhausted, worn down in a way that makes something twist painfully in my chest.Her eyes stay mostly lowered while Melissa’s lawyer flips through paperwork calmly. Like they’re discussing schedules instead of her entire life.I hate this. I hate all of
COLIN’S POVI don’t move.I’m still sitting there, the paper in my hand, my eyes locked on that one line like if I look away it might change, like I might’ve read it wrong, like I missed something and if I just blink or shift or breathe a little differently, it won’t be what it says it is.But I di
COLIN’S POVThe office is too quiet.Not calm or peaceful, just empty in a way that makes every small sound feel louder, the low hum of the AC, the faint ticking of the clock on the wall, even my own breathing sitting heavier than it should.The blinds are half-closed, cutting the light into sharp
COLIN’S POVI sit in the car longer than I should. Engine off, hands still on the wheel.Not moving because going up there, It’s not going to be easy and for once, I’m not trying to rush into it.My chest feels tight, not the sharp kind, just this slow, heavy pressure that won’t leave, like somethi
NADIA’S POVThe door clicks shut behind us, and the silence hits immediately.I don’t move at first, just stand there with Noah in my arms, my fingers still tight around him, my chest rising unevenly as I try to breathe through everything still sitting inside me.It doesn’t go away, it stays pressi







