14. Leaving Him Behind

I was up already, headed up to the kitchen, and made us a coffee.

What am I doing here?

I felt like I was digging my own hole. I should've been left alone. I was falling already for Brenton. With Collin, it was a puppy love, that grew into marriage over the years. When it all fell apart, I ended up in a loony bin.

God! I should've stayed away from him. I was not sure I could survive if we fell apart.

I looked into his bedroom, and he was still sleeping with his backside up.

Shit! I'm gonna miss him.

I quickly changed, got my purse and my phone. I saw his sketchbook. And start writing my note.

Dearest Brenton,

Please forgive me. But I can't do this, it's too much for me. I fear for my life should anything happen to us. I will cherish the time we had together. I thank you for bein