ATLASI’ve been pulling late nights for the past week. I wish I could say it was as a mean to avoid staying at home which will be filled with thoughts of Jade. But I have been so completely swamped with work that if I don’t stay late, nothing will get done.I have three secretaries and about five assistants. They are doing their jobs to the best of their abilities but it just seems like it is not enough. Nothing is enough.The worst part of it all is I still can’t get her thoughts of my mind. The few seconds I’m not buried in buried, I’m lost in thoughts of Jade.it’s almost one in the morning and I’m only just getting home. This is considered early in my new life. So, I guess I should happy. Except, I’m too fucking tired to even think of anything other than getting into bed and sleeping for three hours rest of the night. If I am able to.Another ting I’ve developed is insomnia. I usually didn’t sleep, but that was mostly a choice. I could sleep I wanted to. I just choose not to, most
JADEI think I’m starting to understand why people act crazy in the honeymoon phase of their relationship. The thrilling feeling. Heightened emotions. It is incomparable and just so full. But it isn’t too much. I don’t know if that makes sense. It is just crazy how you find yourself always thinking of the same person. Even if you spend the whole day with them, it does’t seem like enough and want more. More of them. More of everything.I’m starting to think I’ve lost my mind. When I told Jaiya, she only laughed and told me it is because I’m in love. I don’t actually think I’m in love. I do know I like Antonio a lot. More than I ahem ever liked anyone.Don’t get me wrong. I said like. It sounds horrible but I don’t think I’ve ever liked Atlas. Or maybe, I used to like him when I was younger. When I admired everything he did. It makes me wonder if things would have been different if we never got married.But that is not the point I’m trying to make. Atlas is more like a fleeting thought
ATLASI had a meeting with what you would call the ambassadors or the sixth circle. Six of them dealt with the issues of people from the sixth circle who were living here. We had our own ambassadors there, but as of now, they weren’t my problem. I’ll have to meet with them too, but not yet.Am I postponing it until it reaches the four weeks timeline in which I gave myself to get Jade back? There was no use denying it when the snare was already so obvious.Using the meeting as a guise, I’ll have a whole week of convincing her before we come back home together. And yes, I am confident because I don’t plan on giving up or leaving without her giving me the answer I wanted. Which was a yes.Andrew is here with me, a few minute stop the meriting which he personally organised.“We need everything to be perfect.” He was been sweating this, being nervous for some reason. You would think he was meeting his father in law for the first time.“It will be perfect. You handled it yourself.” I said,
JADEToday was my first meeting as the official mediator for the council and the sixth circle. Dad asked more than five times if I was sure I was ready. I could sit out of the meeting the ambassadors were having with the elders for now. But I didn’t want to start my new job by missing a meeting. So I insisted on going.It was a whole two hours drive from Palm Springs. Antonio suggested we go with the helicopter as it would be faster but I said there was no need to pollute the air when we could just drive. It would be like a road trip.He insisted he follow me in that case.“You don’t want to be bored in the car all alone.” He had said and I laughed.“I’ll be busy with work, and checking what I will say but your company will me much appreciated.”And the trip was worthwhile, definitely more enjoyable than it would have been if I was alone. And since Antonio knew about all of things and the people I would be working with, better than I did, his presence turned out to be much better.I
ATLAS Oh, you have got to be fucking kidding me. I glared at the glass as the two figures walked past my office and towards the hall where the meeting was going to take place. Because she didn’t just come in with that fucking guy. How am I supposed to focus on work and slap the fuck out of him the moment I meet him face to face. After watching him kiss her earlier, you can tell how riled up I am and how much I’m looking for a fight right now. Both my wolf and I are on edge. No one in the better frame of mind to calm the other. The door opened and Andrew walked in, a worried expression making crates form on his forehead. He sees me standing, my burning gaze still watching where they just passed. He comes to stay in front of me, backing my view where I was glaring at. “What’s up?” He toes to act casual but I know why he is here. His office is next to mine so he saw the same thing I did. “What?” I couldn’t even try to be curious. I’m pissed and it is showing. “You know what.
JADEAntonio’s hand was on my thigh throughout the meeting. I didn’t even tell him how I was feeling, but he somehow knew ad immediately went it and tried to comfort me. My heart did that weird flip thing it does when I’m thinking of him.I reached for his hand and intertwined our fingers. There was no way anyone would see because of the table, but I could almost feel Atlas’s disapproval from where he was sitting. The only reason I don’t pull my hand away is because of my stubbornness. Somehow trying to convince myself he wasn’t the boss of me. He doesn’t dictate what I do anymore.Not that he ever has before. He just silently expects me to do anything that would please him. Like, there is even no way I’ll think of doing anything he wouldn’t like. And I tried my best, for four whole years I did everything I could to gain his approval. Which he never gave might I add. He barely noticed me or my efforts.And now, that I’m finally happy and moving on, he wants to fight for me? Well, he s
ATLASPerfect doesn’t cut how Jade looks right now. Even if she is glowering at me, I couldn’t ignore how captivated I am by her. And her lips are moving, but all I focus on is their lusciousness, the light sheen of her lipgloss. That light pink that makes her looks sinful.My feet started carrying me to her but I stop before I do something stupid. It helped that the image of that wrapping his arms around her and kissing her flickered in my mind at that time.Did I want to pull her to me and kiss her until she forgot al about him? Until the memory of his hand son her body was nothing? Just that. I wanted it to be nothing.The thought of another man touching her. Having her. Everything that is mine, wrapped in the perfection that is her. It made my blood boil. And that must be the reason why I say the next thing I do.“Is he your boyfriend now?”The way Jade purses her lips in surprise only push me to want to ask her more questions. But she is staring at me in disbelief, like she could
JADEI expected Antonio to ask hat Atlas and I spoke about after I came out. But he didn’t. He just looked at me and asked if I was okay, which I think I nodded too, but I couldn’t be sure. My mind was still whirling from all that happened. The weird three sixty that Atlas did in one second. Him going back to his old self and acting like he could and then being surprisingly understanding and gentle. I was confused and worried something happened to him.Maybe aliens took over his over and are forcing him to act nice. Because the man I just spoke with, especially towards the end, was not the Atlas that I knew. And it was so damn confusing.The trip back wasn’t as enjoyable as it had been when we were coming. Even with the anticipation of what was going to happen and how nervous I was. I was more relaxed then than I am now. And I didn’t know what to blame it on.Antonio had wrapped his arm around my waist and I rested my head on his shoulder, falling asleep somewhere along the lines. I w