Chapter Fifty

“I’m sorry,” he said. “That was too much, right?”

No!

Couldn’t he tell I was ready now?! But I couldn’t say it. What the hell would I say?

It’s okay, Nick! I’m ready to be ravished by you now!?

Or

Stop being a damn gentleman and just stick it in!?

How does a girl tell a guy she wants to have sex with him without sounding like a complete slut? I’m sure as a couple, men would appreciate their girlfriends initiating the sexual moves once in a while, but maybe not on their first time. I refused to be the one to ask for sex the first time we’re going to do it.

Nick was taking deep breaths again; he was trying to calm himself down. I could see something in his eyes, as if he was scared he would hurt me. As if he was being careful not to trigger something bad inside me.

That was when I realized why he wasn’t in a hurry to get me to bed. He was afraid he would bring back memories of that night he took off my clothes. He was slowly leading me in. Each time we get close like this, we become c