"You smell like a rose." Sean played his nose through the skin of my neck, up to my hair, as we sat on the beach sand.
Staring up at the Azure sky of the evening, I giggled at the feeling of his warm breath against my skin. He cupped his arms around me, pulled my back closer to his torso, although there was hardly any inch left between us. Leaning closer to my neck, he kissed it.
"I miss your tiny body. I love you." His naked chest locked to my back, causing goosebumps to rise on my skin.
"I love you too." My reply came out in a whisper. Since I was wearing a singlet, his lips could also make contact with the skin of my shoulder. He kissed my body passionately. Very passionately. And at this moment, I decided to enjoy his touch.
I shut my eyes, inhaled the cool air that surrounded us. A low gasp left my lips when his hands moved to my waist, and before my body could react further, something bumped against my head.
"Ow!" I cried. Opening my eyes, I was back in my room.
Damn, what? A dream? Again?
Disappointed, I sat up straight, so sad that I couldn't feel his love. If I hadn't ever felt his love in real life, at least I should have felt it in my dream.
"Why did you wake me up?" I mumbled, squeezed my face, yawned between.
Bella hopped on my bed, sat like someone who was about to take a yoga class, faced me directly. "What's up with smiling while sleeping?" She winked. "Was it that Roy guy? Are you starting to feel something for him?"
"Just shut up." I rubbed my palm against my sleepy eyes. "You ruined my sweet dream. Sean was about to show me some love."
"What?" Her question was in a low tone. She narrowed her eyes at me, bit her lip. Just about to ask her what was going on, she cut me off by slapping my lap.
"Ouch!" I grouched, frowning. And, she was frowning harder.
"So you still like that moron?" She whined. I guessed it was time to get some lecture from her. "For goodness sake, he's a dick. A person who didn't support you when you needed him, doesn't deserve you. How can you still like him?"
I rolled my eyes. "Come on. You shouldn't blame him. I was the one who never had time for our relationship."
She scoffed. "And so? What about the embarrassment you faced? Are you seriously this soft?"
"But it's—"
"If that dude's the reason you don't have time for a relationship..." She stood from the bed, folded her arms across her chest, still scowling. "Then I'd say you're crazy. No one's worth wasting your time on. For goodness sake, you're twenty three. How long do you wanna wait for that irresponsible dick?"
"Okay. That's enough," I protested.
Standing up, I began to arrange my bed, wanting to end this conversation. I didn't like the fact she was being intense in speaking wrongly of him. Of course, she wasn't happy that he had to dump me, but that didn't mean she had to say awful things about him. And why was it her problem? I was the one who got dumped, not her.
"There are better guys out there." She didn't refrain from speaking. Infact, she was speaking with more intensity, and was speaking louder.
"Stop this!" I yelled, tossed the pillow in my hand, and turned to her. I was getting flustered. "I know you're concerned about me, but let it be. I own my life. And, please, you're being quite nosy. Have I ever interfered in things between Jason and you? Why are you so— just forget about it."
"Alright." She flared her nostrils, raised a finger at me. Uh-oh, I guessed I had flared up. "It's your life, right? But get this straight. If that moron breaks your heart again, don't dare to come to me for comfort. And, for your info, Jason and I's story is different. Amy stole Jason from me. I was the one who ended my relationship. But, in your case, that guy dumped you."
I scorned, holding my tears. "Whatever. Just leave me. If I need comfort, Barb and Virg will always be there for me."
She clenched her teeth. "Good." With that, she stormed out of the room.
I tousled my already mussed hair, with my fingers, and sat on the bed.
To be honest, Bella was right. Besides the fact that I was ever busy working, in a way, I also didn't want a relationship because I still had some crazy hope that Sean and I would get back together. But, this was really causing a stagnancy in my life. What was I supposed to do now?
"This is the exact reason I don't want a boyfriend." I looked up when I heard that voice. To my surprise, it was Virginia. She was standing by Bella's bed, a white towel wrapped around her chest, and another on her wet hair.
I rubbed my tears, smiled to pretend like I was fine. "You aren't going to school today?"
She walked to the small dressing mirror which stood in between her and Barb's bed, sat on the stool in front of the mirror, starting to apply some skin care products to her face.
"I've got an evening class today," she informed me.
"Oh."
"So, what's up with you?" She unwrapped the towel which was around her hair. Oh, it was time for her to take care of her hair. Since she was mixed, she claimed her curly hair was hard to maintain. Well, it was good she had enough money to maintain it.
I sighed. "Bella's complaining about Sean. I don't know why she's got a problem with him."
Her reflection stared at me. And then, she chuckled before returning to drying her hair.
"You don't know why? Really? I mean, we've all got a problem with him. Pardon me, but I also don't like him," she declared.
"Wh-What?" I was surprised to hear her say that.
She exhaled, and twirled around. "I don't wanna lie to you. To be honest, that guy doesn't deserve you. I think you're quite blind. I mean, he dumped you over a little thing."
I looked down, my eyes swimming back in tears. Ah, this was so hurtful.
"But it's hard to forget the time we spent together. I… still like him," I confessed.
"It's also hard for me to—" she stopped speaking, for some reason. Staring up at her, she just smiled. "Oh, sorry about that."
"What's hard for you?" I asked in a low tone. Low because I was sad and quite worried about her saying that.
She looked away, took a tooth comb from her bedside table. "It's personal."
"Oh. Okay." I didn't bother to ask her anything further. She was quite secretive, and I was used to that already.
"Anyways, just brush that guy off your mind. He's not worth you," she added, walked back into the bathroom.
I took my pillow, tugged it to my chest, covered my face with my palm, and wept on it.
This was hard. So hard. But, at this point, was I supposed to move on, and make things right? Or, was I to keep hoping that Sean and I would be lovers once again? Oh, shit, this was a dilemma.
***
Barb stared intently at me, not saying anything. We were seated in the school library, studying together. But, obviously, how would I study with a person like her? She was a great distraction to me."What?" I waggled an eyebrow at her, pressed my lips against each other.She batted her eyelashes, a weird smile on her lips. "Behind you," she whispered.I rolled my eyes. The drama Queen was back."You've got a test. You know that, right?" I said.She dropped her elbow on the table, cupped her jaw in her palm. "Yeah. I know. Don't tell me what I hate.""Okay." I returned to studying."Hey, Renee?" That voice startled me. Oh, no, no! Not again!I shut my eyes, ready to see the dude who had been stalking me."Hey," I returned his greeting as soon as he sat on t
I continued to gasp for air, but the middle aged man only stared blankly at me. I couldn't even tell what he would do next.Slowly, the corner of his lips formed a small smile. A smile that was almost like a smirk. And then, he released his grip against my arm."Hi, Miss?" He stepped backwards, putting his hands into the pocket of his trousers.My eyes were still widened, fear swaying through me. I was particularly dreaded because of the way mom had cried over the phone. What made her do that?"Who're you? What do you want?" I demanded.He chuckled, and muttered something I wasn't sure I had heard. Something like “mother-daughter”."You haven't answered me yet." I managed to remain dauntless, trying as hard as possible to catch my breath.He smiled. But, although his smile loo
Renee______I stared at Bella as she laid on her bed, weeping. To be honest, I hated to see her this way. If I had known she would see Jason today, I wouldn't have gone to the library with her. Since we had returned from school, she wasn't talking to anyone, doing anything."Gosh, this makes me sick," Barb murmured. Turning to her, I just sighed."Me too," I affirmed. "I'm so surprised to see her this way. I thought she had completely forgotten about him."She nodded, pulling a sad look. "I know, right? But what can we do? Don't you think we should talk to her now?""It's not like she'll listen," I said.Virginia scooted closer to Barb, smiled at me. Since I was sitting on Virg's bed, opposite to them, I could see them clearly."You know what? I think Renee's more experienced in things like this." She poked
A week had passed since I had seen Sean kiss that lady. Yep, I'd admit, I still wasn't fully able to get it off my mind. But seriously, was it my fault? Sean was the first guy I'd ever fall in love with, and the one I still kind of liked. Getting him off my mind was an absolutely huge task.Well, Roy on the other hand, had been coming to me frequently. After he had told me he felt something for me, I really wasn't getting myself. Even though he was being as calm and nice as possible, I had a strong feeling he was fake. That was how famous guys behaved. They just liked to use a lady, and dump her."Will you be attending the dance?" Bella stood up from her bed, walked to the wardrobe."You know I don't like parties. That's definitely not my thing," I told her the truth. Tugging a pillow to my chest, I sighed hard. To be honest, I would have considered going to that dance if Sean had to come with me.
I lowered my head, bit my lip, feeling so embarrassed. Fine, Roy and I had grown close in the last few weeks, he came here often, we chatted a lot more. But did that mean he should come here without telling me?This was so embarrassing.Rolling my fingers into a fist, I raised my neck to look at them. Barb had a crazy smile on her lips, and she winked at me. The moment I looked away, my eyes caught Virg standing by the threshold of the door which led to the corridor."Oh. I forgot to tell you that I poked you because I saw Roy coming," she uttered. Saying that, she walked back in.What was wrong with my friends?"You know what?" Barb smirked. She leaned forward, pinched my cheek. "Maybe we should leave you both. Bella and I need to catch up with something.""True," Bella affirmed, and winked too.I shoo
Okay, this was getting too annoying for me. I wasn't the type of lady who appreciated guys so much, so why the heck would they both be angry just because they wanted to go on a date with me? Was I Amy Walter, or Kathleen Carl? What was going on?"Yeah." Roy stepped closer to Sean, and that made me step backwards. Now, they were both gazing at each other. And since they were about the same height, they seemed like some wrestlers who were in the ring.Sean sighed. I could tell he was getting flustered. One thing I knew about him was, he never liked anyone to get on his nerves. When we had been dating, I had never dared to go to him when his mood was unstable. I would say he was short tempered.So, what if Roy was short tempered as well? That meant this was a war between two Goliaths. Absolutely. Crazy."Hey, guys." I gauged an anxious laughter, stood in between them. First, I tu
"Just ask Bella to do it!" I whined at Barb over the phone. I had only left my dorm about an hour and thirty minutes ago, but she had called about five hundred times already. She was complaining about Virginia not wanting to cook breakfast. How was that even my problem?!"Oh, so you're supporting Virg? Seriously?!" She cried.I slapped my palm against my forehead, sighed hard. "Jeez, girl, you could be annoying sometimes. I'm only giving my opinion. You can't keep calling me for little things like this. It's quite annoying.""Oh, so now, I'm the annoying one?" She sounded angry."Why can't—""Fine! Just get out. I'll sort it out myself. And till you return, I won't call you," she uttered."Barb, you've got to—""Bye!" And then, she hung up.I rolled my eyes, and stepped into the por
I had never, ever been to a dance party before. Going to the school dance was a big deal to me. I worked at a club, but who would ever know I never paid attention to anything that went on in there? All I did was to serve drinks, think about the next step I'd take in my life, worry about one thing or the other. But this time around, I was gonna be a guest at the dance. I wasn't gonna work there!"What am I gonna wear?" I threw my back into the bed, covered my face with a pillow. "This is awkward. Renee at a party?"I heard Virginia chuckle, and that made me sit up. "It's not funny!" I cried at her, frowning gently. "I mean, what if I end up being embarrassed? And to worsen it all, I'm going on a date with that dude. I'm literally gonna be the talk of the school. A date with Roy? Ah, creepy!""Is it?" Bella scoffed. Turning to her, I noticed how indifferent she looked. "Have you forgotten I once dated Jason? The famous mor