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Valerie.
"The test results indicate that you're going to be a mother, Mrs. Valerie," the doctor announced, handing me a sheet of paper.
I felt a ripple of awe as I hastily unfurled the paper as if to verify the doctor's words.
Pregnancy?
A mix of feelings churned within me – one part eager to celebrate, while another dreaded Greg's reaction, especially after our heated argument that morning.
The doctor's voice broke into my thoughts. "Is everything alright, ma'am? You seem concerned."
I forced a smile, trying to brush off my apprehension. "It's nothing, doctor. Could you remind me how far along I am?"
"You're approximately three months pregnant," he replied, his face still etched with a warm smile.
I nodded, folding the paper into my bag before rising from my seat. "Thank you, doctor."
As I turned to leave, the doctor called out, "Mrs. Valerie?"
I turned back, and he added, "Don't forget to schedule your antenatal appointments."
I assured him, "I'll take care of that, doctor. Thank you again."
With the doctor's words still echoing in my mind, I stepped out of the office, my thoughts racing with the weight of this new reality.
My hands were itching to reach out to Greg on the phone and apologize to him but then realized that he would be back home.
It all started with a couple of words he threw at me, reminding me again of how useless I am and how he regrets marrying me every single day.
Greg's perpetual dissatisfaction had been fueled that day by a lost business deal. But it was his flippant remark that still stung: “You are not just pathetic. You are also filled with bad luck and maybe I should start getting myself another woman for the sake of luck." The thought of my husband so readily considering a replacement had been gnawing at me since our argument and the pain of it lingered.
The ride back to the apartment was a silent one. My heart was racing anticipating what could be his reaction to the news of the pregnancy.
I arrived at the apartment a couple of minutes later and I stepped into the living room. Greg was around but not in sight.
"Babe?" I called out but there was no answer.
My ears picked up sounds coming from the rooms and I figured he could be inside one of the rooms enjoying his moment alone.
The walk through the stairs has always been a tiring one and it was even more frustrating with the current pregnancy state that I am in.
I paused in the hallway which had all rooms side by side.
Bed cracking.
Loud soft moans.
“Yes Greg, fuck me like you've never done to your useless wife.”
“Dig my pussy, darling, uhhh… I love it.”
“Take me in, all of me!” he replied letting out a soft groan.
My heart jogged two times faster as I approached the room where all these sounds were coming from. I didn't want to believe my thoughts.
I pulled the door open and froze at the spot.
Before my eyes was Greg with another woman in our matrimonial bed sharing intimate sex. Greg was on the bed, while the lady grinded her hips against him.
Anger was slowly beginning to build inside of me. I walked into the room and slammed the door, causing the both of them to break away.
Greg raised his head but he wasn't shocked to see me. The lady, on the other hand, wrapped the sheets around her body.
"You came way too early." He said.
"Are you seriously saying that right now?" I asked my voice close to a breaking point.
"How can you do this to me Greg? How can you do this to us?" The tears were beginning to fall from my eyes as I spoke to him.
Greg sighed and slowly got up from the bed, wearing his trousers. He walked to the table and picked up a brown envelope and walked over to meet me.
"Take this." He said, staring into my eyes with no emotion.
"And why should I?" I asked angrily.
"It is for your good sweetheart. Take this." He repeated.
I stretched my hand to receive the envelope and he dropped it on the floor and began to walk away.
The lady on the bed giggled and this struck a nerve within me. I had the urge to rush over to her side and simply slap her right across the face.
But I managed to control my temper.
I pulled out a document from the envelope and my eyes widened seeing the heading of the letter.
"A divorce!"
Greg didn't say anything. He was simply scrolling through his phone while my heart was at a breaking point.
"Greg, don't do this please," I begged him.
"Come on Valerie! Can't you see that he is no longer interested in you? You are old news now." The lady said and snuggled close to Greg.
More tears dropped from my eyes as they locked lips once again in my present.
That was all I needed to know and it made me realize who I am dealing with.
The reality is that Greg never loved me and it was clear from everything happening right now that he wanted something else.
"You don't deserve to be a father," I mumbled in a low tone and angrily picked up the pen on the floor.
After one last look at the paper, I imprinted my signature and dropped it on the floor.
"That's a good girl," Greg said in a mocking tone.
"You will regret this Greg. I promise." I said to him and walked out of the room afterwards.
My heart was heavy and more tears began to flow down my cheeks.
Where do I go from here?
What would people say about me?
I didn't get to stay long enough in my marriage before the divorce.
The face of the lady giggling and laughing at my predicament hit me once again. My hands folded into fists.
Greg has crossed the line with this divorce and I am going to make sure that he pays for everything he has done to me.
It wasn't enough that I had to vent my anger. I needed to show him what it felt like to be humiliated the way he did to me.
My phone beeped and I checked the notification to see if it was a headline.
I shouldn't be concerned about any headlines on the news but this one struck me with a bright idea.
'Collins Penta, CEO of Rush Luxury had arrived in New York City for a meeting'
Everyone knows Collins as a big billionaire but not many knew that he was Greg's brother.
An evil smile filled my face because of an idea.
Maybe I could get back at Greg with Collins.
It will be the perfect sweet revenge.
VALERIEThe word does not cover it.The word is the smallest possible container for the thing that the completed picture was.She saw me first.This is the part I have not yet arrived at and I am arriving at it now with the precision it requires, Jasmine saw me before Collins knew I was there. The specific quality of the moment in which her eyes found the door, found the gap of it, found the woman standing in the gap. Her face in the low lamp light.I watched her see me.The moment, the specific moment of mutual recognition that was not mutual because it was only her eyes finding me, not Collins knowing I was there, not the room knowing I was there, only Jasmine and I in the specific locked recognition of two people who have seen each other in a moment that will not be unseen.Her expression.I am going to account for her expression because her expression was information and I was, even then, even in that moment with the document in my hand and the room in front of me, a woman who rec
VALERIEI want to give this its accurate timestamp because the timestamp matters, not in the way that timestamps matter for the operational record, the calendar notation, the Diane scheduling, but in the way that certain moments require their precise time in order to be held correctly afterward. Eleven forty-seven. The Moreau call had ended at eleven-thirty and I had spent the intervening seventeen minutes with the summary document and the specific quality of concentration that followed a difficult call, the concentration that was the mind's return to its own register after the sustained performance of another.The Hargrove notification came through at eleven forty-seven.I will not detail the content of the notification. The content was the content it was, the category of news that arrives without warning in the form of a document, the kind that requires immediate escalation, the kind that changes the shape of the following days in ways that are not yet fully visible at the moment of
VALERIEI knew before the test confirmed it.This is the accurate starting point and I give it without the softening that would make it sound like the language of instinct, the romantic register in which women simply know things about their bodies in the mystical way of a thing that cannot be accounted for. I knew in the way I knew most things, from the evidence. The accumulation of small evidence across several days, each piece individually insufficient for a conclusion, the pieces together forming a picture that the trained attention of a woman who paid close attention to evidence could not, in the honest reckoning, fail to read.The tiredness had been the first thing.Not the tiredness of the weeks after the hospital — I knew that tiredness, had the full vocabulary of it, the specific quality of exhaustion that was the body's response to significant loss, the heavy particular kind that lived in the bones rather than the muscles and that did not respond to sleep in the ordinary way
VALERIEShe was acquiring information.The assessment phase.I had been in enough rooms with enough people who were in the assessment phase to recognize the quality of it, the particular way a person moved through a space when they were building the full picture, the specific attentiveness to the ambient information, the way the questions they asked were never the questions they were asking. Jasmine in the house for the full afternoon was Jasmine in the assessment phase and I tracked her in the peripheral way with the full understanding of what the tracking was.She had lunch with Collins.I knew this because Diane mentioned it in passing, the Diane passing that was not passing, the specific delivery of information in the form most likely to be received. The Edinburgh debrief had extended through lunch. This was normal, debriefs extended through lunch with the Collins efficiency, the working lunch being a Collins standard. I held this in the professional register and did not perform a
VALERIEJasmine Hale arrived on a Wednesday.I want to give this its accurate framing before anything else, she had not been absent in the way of a person who had left. She had been absent in the way of a person who had been elsewhere, which was a distinction I held with the precision it required because the distinction mattered to what happened when she came back. The gone person and the elsewhere person were different categories. The gone person had concluded something. The elsewhere person had not.She had been in Edinburgh for the preliminary meetings.Collins had arranged this, I was aware of the arrangement in the ambient way I was aware of most things at the operational layer, through the scheduling and the Diane communications and the particular way the Edinburgh file had moved from the desk to the active column and back to the desk in the weeks of the arrangement. Jasmine Hale going to Edinburgh for the preliminary meetings was the correct deployment of the correct person for
VALERIEWe went to the smaller sitting room.The fire was not lit, it was morning, the fire was the evening thing, the room had the morning quality of a room whose evening function had not yet been reassumed. Collins lit it anyway. The deliberate action, not the automatic action of a man who lit the fire because the fire was what one did at a certain hour, but the considered action of a man who had assessed the room and had decided the room required the fire even at this hour, because this morning was the morning it was and the fire was part of the register of this morning.I sat.He sat.The sofa, the same sofa, the evening configuration of it, except morning, the room at its morning angle, the fire beginning its work in the way that fires began, with the deliberate attention of the early stage before it found its ambient register.He had brought a book.I noticed this with the particular noticing of the internal notation, the book, the physical object, the Collins book that had been







