LOGINRaven“I'm sorry….I don't know why I'm crying. I'm just ….” I sniffed, my shoulders trembling.I tried wiping the tears that had soaked my face but even my sleeves were too wet to absorb any more moisture. Great! Now my little makeup was ruined. I probably look like a burnt muffin. I took a deep shaky breath and forced a smile as I looked up. He was staring at me; his expression twisted in something I couldn't explain. There was this hint of hurt in his eyes but I pushed it out of my head. I don't want to imagine things.I picked up the gum wrapper that had fallen to the ground.“ I'll um….I'll take my leave now.” I said and turned on my heels.I hadn't taken two steps when he grabbed my wrist.“ Wait…” He said. His touch was just as I remembered: warm, yet cold at the same time. I turned towards him, expecting him to say something but instead…he grabbed my shoulders and pulled me against his chest. My face pressed against his broad frame tightly and I could only inhale his scent
Raven So, yeah, my aunt came to my apartment some days later, courtesy of my persistent mother.She didn't come alone. She came with her husband to convince me to move back to Phoenix with them and leave the Markov's alone. Now, my mother is dragging the whole family lineage into this.It's ironic! I thought she flared up and left me alone for good. Why did she have to drag my favourite aunt into this?My aunt started talking.“ It's a long story, dear. I can't tell you all of it but you have to believe me." She said as we all sat in a circle on the rug in my studio apartment.“Your mum told me you've lost your memories and it makes sense why you think we are all against you.” I rolled my eyes for the fourth time now.“ I don't need you to tell me that. I'm already in therapy." I didn't tell her I could no longer afford the therapy. She doesn't need to know that. “ Look, some years ago while you were still a little girl. Your parents and the Markovs used to be close. " She started
RavenHe got me food and a refrigerator. He got me an air conditioner and dropped his credit card on the bedside table. We were waiting for the mechanics to fix the air conditioner. I didn't take the credit card even though I knew I might need it. I'm not a fool, I know what Viktor was trying to do. “ I don't have much yet. I'm still trying to bounce back from my company's fall but I won't abandon you. " He said, his eyes dreamy.The old me would have fallen for this, but at least I am glad to hear that he's still having issues with the company. I sniffed. I felt tired and exhausted especially after receiving the email that I had been transferred to another hospital and I was to start my internship all over again. Killain was serious about what he said.I didn't bother checking which hospital Killian tossed me to but I had cried. I had cried so hard that my eyes were swollen and my nostrils were clogged with snot.Does he hate me that much now? Does he have nothing left for me in
Raven This should be the last of it. I stared at my new apartment. I moved in just yesterday. Not to my taste but I can make do with this for now till I'm done with my internship and figure out what to do with my life. My parents hadn't returned to Phoenix,yet. They had asked me to go with them. For the first time in years, my mother asked me to come back to the family and she only did so because Killian broke off our marriage. They both kept ringing in my ears that it would be better if the wedding were cancelled and that I was finally free from the family. They wanted to drag me to Phoenix to live out the remaining miserable years of my life with this child. So they were lurking around in a hotel till I changed my mind which isn't going to happen any time soon. I don't even want to think about that now.I won't lie, I had contemplated an abortion. I can't carry Nero's child. If he knows that the child was his then he'll come for me. I don't want him anywhere near me, especially n
KillianWe've been watching TV for hours. At first, I was paying attention but not anymore. I've been glancing at my phone every second, especially after I received five calls from Raven's Dad and a few more from her mother.I scoffed. Why wasn't she the one making the call? Is she feeling ashamed now that she fucked my brother? I didn't pick up,I want all of them out of my life. I clenched my hands around the phone and returned my eyes to the TV. Alex was fighting to keep his eyes open but obviously struggling. His medications were already kicking in and five minutes later, he slumped on the couch.I checked the time, and it was already dusk. Hours had passed, but my chest still aches. It was like a ticking time bomb, bottling up a horde of pain that would explode and kill me soon. I ran a hand through my hair. Calculating my next move.Tch.What the fuck am I even supposed to do? Clean my house and go back to performing surgeries? Then go back to burying myself in work and build
Killian I can’t feel a thing and I don’t know why. Why the hell does my chest feel light? I mean, right before I walked out the door, it was like I couldn't breathe. But right now, I’m numb as fuck. I couldn't feel anything, yet my hands were shaking on the steering wheel. Various scenes from the last five minutes were fighting their way into my mind but I'm blocking them out with the blaring music from Travis Scott. Where am I going again? Oh, that's right,Alex's place. He had been discharged and was now receiving the rest of his treatment at home. I’ll get a few drinks with him and we'll talk about soccer and the weather. Yes, that's just what I need. A distraction from the pending pain that lingered in my subconscious like a 110-pound metal belt. There’s no way in hell I'm facing it, call me a coward…I don't care. I'm running as fast as I can away from it. If there's one thing I'm terrified of, it's pain. Not just any kind of pain. Emotional pain and trauma.
Raven I reached down and clutched his hair hard,so hard that some strands followed my fingers. I skillfully slipped them under the pillow underneath my hair and went back to clutching his hair ,this time gently. On one hand ,I felt relieved that I finally got the hair sample …on the other hand ,I
RavenYou know when you have sex with someone for the first time and the scene is still very much vivid in your head and you're just not able to stop staring and imagining things?Right now, Killian just looks and feels more attractive. I'm sensitive to his features, his remarkably handsome face,
RavenWaiting is far worse than fear. I kept checking my phone every ten minutes for feedback from Mary and I was always doing so in the bathroom.Now ,it's been five days and the date for the wedding has been fixed. In two days I will be getting married to Killian. Invitations have been sent out a
Killain She shoots me a glare then places her hands at the back of my neck. At first, I thought she was going to pull me close so I let my guard down until she pushed me down forcefully, forcing me down to my knees and between her legs. Now you might be thinking, how did she have the strength to







