LOGIN39.AVETHANDWA SISULUTo be honest I didn't think Bangizwe would pull through for me. My man can go to any length for me can't he? Here I am sitting at the prison visiting room waiting for my dad. The room is so empty. It's usually not like this, empty. It's usually full of people and unending conversations with families visiting their convicted relatives.The door opens up and my dad comes out, with handcuffs on his hands. He looks at me and frowns before he walks over with the warden behind him who unlocks the handcuffs and walks out, leaving the two of us.“What are you doing here? It's not visiting hours.” He grabs a chair and sit down.“I know. I asked someone to help me. Uuka said that you wanted to see me.” He doesn't look as happy as he actually looks when I come to visit. He looks troubled.“How did you feel after meeting Uuka after all this long? You used to cry yourself to sleep after he was arrested.” I did? I don't really remember much about Uuka's arrest. When he was arr
38.AVETHANDWA SISULUI was not anticipating the day. When I woke up, I decided to come to the kitchen and bake. I wanted a distraction, and my grandma has since told me that baking makes you feel at rest. It takes the mind of the edge, so I baked blueberry muffins. I learnt the recipe through YouTube last year. Blueberry muffins are my favourites. I took a picture and posted it on my WhatsApp status.“This smells nice.” That was Bangizwe's deep morning voice. I left him in bed because I woke up early. He wrapped his arms around me with his face at the crook of my neck.“You wanna try them out?” I grabbed one muffin and turned around to feed him.“They are good. I didn't know you could bake, let alone cook.” It's either he cooks or Tyler does, or we buy takeaways, but I'm always eating.“I can do a lot of things.” I wrapped my arms around his neck and stood on my tippy toes. He's so tall. I'm tall, but he makes me feel so short.“Did you receive the DNA test results?” Yes, today is Fr
37.AVETHANDWA SISULU“You look like a doll.” That was my cousin complementing me after she helped me get ready. Apparently she was fetched by Kabasele at her aunt's place.“Thank you for coming.” She's standing behind me while we both stared at the mirror.“Your boyfriend literally asked me nicely. He send that man with flowers. What a man. Anyway, is he going to propose?” Propose? It's just a dinner date.“Not everyone wants to get married Khanyi.” Her obsession with marriages is not cute.“Well i just want you to know that you have my blessings.” She kissed my cheek.“Thank you but I'm fine. The way you're so obsessed with a marriage, you'll divorce thrice before you're 30.” I stood up. I was wearing a crimson red one-shoulder dress with a crystal strap dramatic cascading ruffles on my left side with matching silver high heels. I bought the dress at the mall and it felt so good to swipe without checking the price tag and now it's worth it.“I revoke that curse. I'm gonna get marrie
36.AVETHANDWA SISULUAfter leaving the hospital, Bangizwe drove to his aunt's place. The ride was just so silent, and I gave him his time to think while I was just there. I'm also wondering how Bangizwe is the father of Thando's child. He never mentioned them sleeping together. Could it be that Thando is lying? But why would she lie like that about her cousin? I've always known that girl is mentally disturbed. When I think of all this, I can't even hold myself. I want to take out my frustrations on her.Bangizwe didn't even get out of the car. He parked in the yard and just sat in the car with me. You could see that he was lost in thought.“Are you okay?” The silence was just too much for me. I don't even know what time it is or if I'm gonna make it to work on time. A lot of things have happened in one night.“I just don't understand. How?” I pulled him in for a hug. I wish I had answers that he needs. I wish I could take the pain away from him.“Thando is gonna answer for herself.”
35.AVETHANDWA SISULUThe day couldn't be longer, but when it reached 5pm, I was the first one to walk out. This is no longer funny. Why am I always the first one on this floor to go home? I enjoy work, but when it comes to going home, you can't beat me. Somehow, I used to do the whole thing in varsity and also in high school. I had good grades, but I used to walk out of the school gate first. Even when the teachers asked us to remain behind for extra classes, I would always leave. The only good thing was that at night, I would wake up and catch up on everything. I used to be ahead of the curriculum. I remember in my first year at varsity, the principal at my old high school called me and asked me to help out his students during my recess. I declined. I finished high school for a reason, I would never go back there.“Good afternoon, Kabasele.” I greeted his driver when i got in the car. There was no Seth today, but there's still a guard inside the building. He only knocks out when I d
34.AVETHANDWA SISULUYoh! I had a hell of a weekend. My head is even pounding, but I'm drowning myself in coffee. This is hangover and fatigue. A knock comes from my office door. I wonder who it could be. It's still in the morning, and I haven't really started on today's work anyway.“Come in!” The door opens and in walks Tinyeleti. She's in her white jumpsuit and pink blazer with matching heels.“Am I disturbing you?” She asks.“Not really. I'm still nursing my hangover. You can sit down.” She grabs a chair and sits.“So you just decided to ditch us on the weekend?” Khanyiswa hasn't been speaking to me because I dropped them. Emihle sent a voice note swearing at me. Why are they mad?“My man comes first.” Without a doubt. It's Bangizwe over everyone.“You're choosing a man over your friends? What happens when you break up?” I stare at her like, what the hell did you just say?“Which relationship lasts forever? I'm basking in the moment. It's not like I'll kill myself when it's over,
17.AVETHANDWA SISULUThat kid is a little problem. She didn't want to go downstairs, so she sent me on errands like fetching her phone from the lounge. I was now going downstairs after giving her her phone when I bumped into her mother. She stood in front of me and folded her arms. I'm not sure I'
19.AVETHANDWA SISULULanga found me at the mall and we got inside the Golf GTI he was driving. It looked brand new. It was dark blue in colour. We were both inside the car as he handed me a Steers paperbag. I can buy myself food. Why is he acting like my boyfriend? He's feeling guilty because he's
18.AVETHANDWA SISULUI haven't seen Tinyeleti all week since that day i asked her to take some time off. It's Saturday today and I'm going to her place. I passed by the shopping centre and bought her some snacks just to cheer her up. My contract has been drafted and emailed to me. I'm officially s
20.AVETHANDWA SISULUI see blood everywhere. I'm screaming for my mother. I'm crying so hard and I can feel my lungs hurting. She's so bloodied and my white dress is full of blood. My dad picks me up and I cling to him as I wail. There's so much—“Avethandwa?” Someone calls out to me and I open my







