Mag-log inThe bus nearly leaving without me this morning is a clear sign that I need to cut back on alcohol and throw tantrums in more constructive ways… like crocheting, or knitting, or even bringing my neighbors pie in an attempt to have human connection.
Or at the very least, get laid.
That must be it.
Why else would I be dreaming up literal hot men kneading my flesh and making me needy?
“You ready for the first day?” Lawrence asks, jostling me with his shoulders, a bright smile on his face. I groan.
His smile is too bright, clearly not hung over and suffering.
“Too much energy. No idea where you got it. Tone it down.”
He laughs at me. The asshole.
“Why did you drink so much anyway? You were the only one kicking back the shots.” Danny asks, wrinkling his nose like he was scared to catch alcoholism from me.
I can’t tell them about my trainer ditching me on the first day, I don’t want them to look at me with down turned smiles and silently thank their lucky stars they didn’t end up with my trainer.
“I’m only twenty four. Do I need a reason to get plastered?” I ask, grinning instead.
Lawrence claps my back, and I bite back a groan. Soon the bus rolls into the training centre, and as we walk into the building, I find myself clutching my hands in front of me, praying to whoever listens that my trainer would be available today.
Trisha welcomes us again with another hang over tea, it worked wonders yesterday, so I happily drain the last of it today.
I’m still drinking when the speaker crackles to life.
“Caleb Doherty, room four.”
I choke on my tea, hands pat my back, my friends ask if I’m okay. I can’t speak. My head bobs up and down.
I’m better than okay.
I wipe my hands on my pants. This is really happening, I’m going to meet him. The man who stood me up yesterday.
Room four is the last room in the hallway, ironically the place I was caught by Trisha yesterday. I push the door open, my heart beating furiously in my throat as I step into the warm room.
Huh.
Every other part of the building is air conditioned. This room is almost sauna hot.
I quickly scan the room. It’s larger than I expected, sleek leather sofa, a pole in the middle of the room, a man on the desk, his dark hair flopping on his face as he reads something from his iPad.
Wait.
This is my trainer?
The man is… large.
He fills his seat well, arms bulging. I can’t tear my eyes away from the scene in front of me. Even sitted, I know this man would tower over everyone.
He looks more like an executive than a trainer.
Did I walk into the wrong room?
I step back out to confirm that this is indeed room four. He still doesn’t acknowledge my presence.
Standing there awkwardly, I scratch the back of my neck.
What do I do? Do I even do anything? Say somethi–?
“Ten squats.”
His voice is scratches the pit of my stomach, setting off a riff of… well, something at the pit of my stomach.
“What?” I ask stupidly.
Slowly, like he was doing me a favor by lifting his head up, by giving me his attention. He looks up at me. Air rushes out of my lungs, and I stand there staring shocked.
His green eyes stare back at me, unamused, uninterested.
He is beautiful.
Where did that come from??
“First lesson,” he says in that deep, gravelly voice that aims to reach the depths of my soul.
He slowly rises up from his seat, and Christ! He is tall. Chest even wider than I thought. I have to remind myself to breathe as he makes his way to the front of his desk.
Dressed in tailored, and pressed to an inch of it’s life, dark pants, dark shirt with the top buttons undone– is that chest hair I see?
Fuck.
Is this even possible?
The man is hot. Unfairly hot.
He crosses his arms and boy, oh boy. All my Instachat gain posts have to go now. They look puny compared to his and he isn’t flexing.
“I don’t repeat myself.”
That snaps me back to the present. He really is my trainer. The man in designers, that smells of a mix of wood and spice, that looks like sin, is a veteran and my trainer?
Granted, he’s older than I am. With no less than six years– if I look like him by thirty, my ego would be unstoppable, might I add.
But he can’t possibly be my trainer. He looks like he–
“Wait! I saw you here yesterday!!” I growl as the realization dawns on me. Those green eyes were familiar. I knew I’d seen them before, but I couldn’t put together where.
I’d seen him through the walls.
He was right here and he lied!
”You lied! You weren’t out of town. You were right there, and I know you saw me, so don’t you think about lying to me.”He just stares at me wordlessly.
How dare he? He made me sit in that room doing nothing, he was jerking me around and for what? What did he gain from that??
He doesn’t say anything, which infuriates me further. First he lies, then he ignores me.
I cross the small space between us, and the first thing I notice is the heat rolling off him, and the intoxicating smell he has that litters the space around him.
And boy is he tall.
He watches me from on top of his nose, the same way you’d watch a bug before squashing it.
“Why didn’t you say something? If you had to rush out for a family emergency, the least you could have done was tell me yourself.” I jab a finger at his chest, my finger burns and I quickly pull it away.
What the hell?
I glance at my finger and back at him. He’s still looking at me like that. Like I was a bug. I grit my teeth in annoyance.
Trish said no swapping out trainers, and that rule must have started because of him. I’ve never felt the urge to pull my hair the way I do now.
His words ring in my ears, he didn’t repeat himself. Is that what this is?
Huffing, I stare at him, no– I glower.
He doesn’t flinch, doesn’t move. He seemed content watching me unravel.
I drop to a squat position, cheeks burning in mortification. Obviously the only way to get a word out of him is to do as he’s asked.
After the tenth squat, his eyes do a slow crawl up and down my body. I feel a strange urge to hide myself away from his view. That slow crawl with his eyes feels too… dirty for me.
Apparently that’s how he does everything, slow, deliberate.
That’s how he walks to his seat, like a man with all the time in the world.
He’s given me a view of his back, and he’s like a gift inside a gift, inside another gift. Every part of him you get is the best possible thing.
“You carry a lot of tension in your inner thighs. You should stretch more.”
I try to hide the shiver his voice causes me, it’s impossible. If he notices it, he doesn’t show it. His green eyes steady, completely unbothered.
“They’re very tight.” he says this and goes back to his iPad like he said nothing remarkable.
I glance down at my thighs, inside my sweat pants and swallow. How did he know that? Was my form that bad?
“Stretch.” he says without looking up.
I grit my teeth before stretching, as I stretch, I imagine wringing the neck of my trainer, and then I realize I didn’t even know his name.
“I’m Caleb Doherty, but you should know that… since you stood me up and all.” I say as I stretch my arms, keeping my eyes on him.
I thought I was used to it, but he looks up at me with those green eyes and air escapes my lungs.
“Remy Templeton. But you’re to call me sir, is that understood?”
Those eyes are wasted on this ass, really.
If I disobey him, Devil’s Playground will drop me.
I ground my teeth as I force the words out.
“Yes, sir.”
I like to tease Remy. At the expense of my own life. I’ve never taken my life seriously anyway. If I get to see his face get so red, veins in his neck standing taunt as he physically held himself back from snapping me in half– that means i have his attention, anyway I get it is fine.Like when I patted his face after his apology. I meant to say something, but I didn’t trust my voice enough to say anything that won’t be embarrassing. But his reaction to patting his cheeks made it worthwhile.Chuckling to myself, I put another spoonful in my mouth.When it burned me earlier, I assumed I could handle it. Remy’s temperature is basically boiling, his thermostat everywhere is set to hot roasted Caleb. And so I made the wrongful assumption that I’ve had him in my mouth more times than I can count on one hand, and so I should be impervious to heat.I am not.At least I found out the right way. He’s steaming hot, but food heat burns my tongue. I’m sure I won’t be able to taste anything for a w
REMY TEMPLETONThe words taste acrid on my tongue. And I’ve had ash for breakfast on more than one occasion.Everything stills in the house once the words leave me.The shadows clinging to the corners since he’s determined to expel them. The hounds wear a look of shock on their faces. Even him.His eyes that had drooped at the sides with sadness, now sparkle with surprise. The sigh of relief I let out after his eyes look lighter makes me want to snap.Why does his sadness bother me so much? I hate him.Why did i feel terrible about what I said? Why did I apologize?I’m Dominion. I do not apologize for anything. I’m the one people apologized to. I’m still wondering what is going on with my head when he recovers, and pats my cheek with one hand.I wheel around to find him rummaging the drawers again.No sign of gratitude in his expression. I’ve dealt with humans long enough to know how they get when I show them mercy. And I fucking apologized and
DAY WHATEVER– I LOST COUNT– OF LIVING WITH THE INSUFFERABLE, JERK FACE. REMY TEMPLETON.He’s out there. Right outside my room.I don’t know how I know. But just like I’m sure of my name, I’m sure the bastard is right outside the door.It’s not like i haven’t met the guy, so you have to be wondering why I’m going through such lengths to avoid him. You’ll understand better when I tell you how the past few days have been like for me.Torture.I am actively avoiding thinking about Remy Templeton as anything other than my trainer. It’s incredibly difficult. That night, when he returned to find me in the living room, he could have just apologized for being an ass.He didn’t.Instead, he went all caveman on me. Screaming like a motherfucker, in my face and out of it. That’s not how you treat a patient. Everybody knows that. Plus, nobody disrespects Hana and her excitement in front of me.I did that when she was here, nobody else is allowed when she isn’t. She deserves that. So no matter h
REMY TEMPLETONWhy am I using the front door to my own home?I always use the shadows. The only reason the house still has doors is because I’ve not taken it upon myself to rip it off and seal it.He’s not ready to see this part yet. I still don’t have a handle on how he’d react when he sees the shadows. The only data I have to go on is her reaction.And he’s shown clearly he’s nothing like his grandmother.The hounds had hissed and cussed at me while I went in to check on him. I asked if they’d forgotten what master they both served, who they were born to protect. But they ignored me to play fucking house pets with him.I hover at the front door, still unable to bring myself in to him.He’s… something. And I’ve had a long day with work and everything going on. I cannot guarantee that I won’t go in there and snap at him again.It’s like he sees what buttons not to press with me, and goes ahead to press each and every one of them with a fucking sex
DAY ONE OF LIVING WITH REMY TEMPLETON, ALSO KNOWN AS THE BANE OF MY EXISTENCE.I barge in with my few things and pick a room for myself in his large house, I have no intentions of sharing every sleeping and waking moment with that asshole. Hell perked up after seeing me, and actually walked into the room I’d chosen– the one furthest from his room.Fire was hot on his tail and three of us slammed the door shut in his face. Well, I did, but it felt like I had their blessing so it counts.When I crash on the large bed, the satisfaction of slamming the door wore off, quickly replaced by pain. Mind numbing pain. I gritted my teeth and held through. I’d suffered through worse.The hounds are quick to note that something is wrong with me, they watch me through eerie eyes which for some reason feel like they’re on my side– not sympathizing per se, since they still look fucking scary– like a friend that doesn’t quite know how to comfort you but tries their best any way.They get into bed with m
I’m pretty sure the Earth stills at the sound of the most beautiful sound I’d ever heard. The sound washes over me, sending tingles down my spine, along my nerves, lighting all the way down to my toes.We’re chest to back, so the laugh rattles up my insides in ways I’d never felt.As if hearing himself, Remy snaps his mouth shut, trapping the sound back in, from wherever it came from. From the stiffness of his muscles, it’s obvious he hadn’t meant to laugh.He clears his throat nosily, his neck stains a shade of pink. Remy is embarrassed. I can’t believe I’m experiencing new sides of him back to back. I open my mouth to tell him there’s nothing to be embarrassed about, since everyone laughs, but if there’s one thing I know about Remy, is that he takes great pride in his ‘badness’, laughing erases that image.I chuckle quietly to myself.Only him would think of something as beautiful as happiness as a bad thing.I don’t mention it though. I watch as he steps into the elevator, punchi
Startled, I jump away from what I now know is a screen wall, not the harmless thing we all thought it was. But if I’m being honest with myself– that doesn’t happen often– I’d say those eyes were the reason I jumped back.And not just because they appeared so suddenly.That too.But it’s more the in
I should not have drank so much last night. I’m not the only one who feels that way, Zachary and the guys have their heads hanging in their hands, Rhodes has thrown up twice in the last thirty minutes, and every time the strobing lights passed through my eyelids the urge to hurl something at the
“Caleb Doherty does NOT bottom!” Everyone choruses right before falling into fits of drunken laughter. Trying and failing to wipe the smug smile off my face, but it’s difficult. That line is utterly ridiculous in our line of work– well, this new line of work. But it is the line that bought me a ti







