A scream tears from my throat, and I shoot up into a sitting position. The air is cold against my sweaty skin, and I frantically search my surroundings. My chest heaves as I struggle to control my breathing. It was just a nightmare, one that will plague my mind forever. I cry, the image of Mrs. Nolt imprinted into my brain. Her corpse sitting peacefully on the church pew. I run my hand through my brown hair, pulling at it as tears stream down my face.
Around this time, grandma would have come in with some chamomile tea and a piece of chocolate. She's not here this time, having gone out with a friend to the casino in the city.It was just a nightmare. However, the thought doesn't calm my racing heart and shaking hands. I flip on the light switch, chasing away the dark shadows that taunt me, but it doesn't do anything about the ones inside my head. I sit back down on my bed and force myself to take a deep breath.One.Two.Three.I count all the way to ten until I hear loud banging coming from downstairs. My heart picks up speed again, and the image of my dad with a knife in his hand haunts me. No, I clutch my nightshirt; a thin, spaghetti strap tank top. It isn't him, he's in police custody. He's locked up behind bars until his trial, there's no way that's him at the door. What if...? The thought lingers. The knocking gets louder, and I scramble up to race down stairs. I run into the kitchen and grab a knife to protect myself. When I walk into the living room, the sound of the banging gets louder. I glance at the clock, five fifteen am. I suck in a breath, hands shaking against the doorknob. All I can picture is him on the other side, dryed blood on his skin, and his white button up shirt stained with the life of his victims. His innocent victims.I crack the door open, holding the knife behind my back, ready to strike if I need to. My eyes widen when I see a scowling and sleep deprived Stone on the other side. He's shirtless, the tattoos on his toned skin are on full display. Both his muscled arms have sleeves, stretching out over his collar bones and hard pecs. His grey sweatpants ride low, and I swallow thickly at the sight of his v-line. "Stop the fuckin' screamin'. Your neighbors are trying to sleep," he growls out at me, voice thick after having just woken up, thanks to me. My head snaps up to his face, mouth opening, but only a small squeak escapes. His eyes are narrowed on me, dark circles visible. How long have I been screaming? I close my mouth and nod once. "S-sorry," I mutter. At least he isn't here to douse me in red paint. He scoffs at me, hands clenching at his sides, and I wonder if he wants to yell at me some more. Please don't. He glares at me, then turns and marches his way back to his house. I close the door and lean against it, dropping the knife onto the floor like it'll burn me. It makes me feel like him, and I tell myself that I'm not. That I only grabbed the knife because I might have needed to defend myself. I swallow and slide to the floor. Tears run down my cheeks, and I hold my head in my hands as ruthless images haunt me. Why did grandma have to leave? She's not here to hold me and wipe away my sorrows. I'll always have this heavy darkness in my heart, and it will eat away everything I have in me.***Henry was right about the paint staining. My face, neck, and hands are still tinted red. I take another shower, scrubbing and scrubbing at my skin, hoping it’ll go away. By the time I step out, my skin is raw and sore. However, the red tint didn't fade, not even a little bit.Even my full coverage foundation doesn’t cover it up. It looks like a horrendous and permanent blush. I debate skipping today, just staying in and continuing to wallow in my self pity, but then would grandma get mad if I skip? I've never done it before.I pull on a hoodie, I would rather be hot and sweaty than feel so exposed with my red tinted skin. With a deep breath, I step out of the front door, feigning whatever bravery I think I have left.After locking the door I walk over to my car, keys in hand. Like Stone's rusty truck, my car doesn't fare any better. The rust stained, green dune buggy sticks out with grandma's house behind it. Maybe if I had taken it yesterday, I never would've ran into Stone, Haeden, Kingston, and Ivy at the back of the school. My face burns at the memory. Sure the whole school witnessed it happen, but I don't care about the whole school. The whole school didn't make me feel weird.A screech down the street reaches my ears, and I look over. A black jeep rolls down the street, windows rolled down. I cringe when I see Kensey and her posse, Maribel, Stacy, and Lupe laughing inside. Lupe sticks her head out, black shiny hair pulled back into a ponytail. I’m guessing so the wind won't mess it up too much. My eyes widen when she launches something at me. I scream as eggs splatter against me, my car, and the driveway. Yolk gets into my hair, staining my clothes and dripping into my shoes. “Die, bitch!” Maribel shouts, as they speed off. I stare after them, eyes wide in surprise and the taste of raw egg in my mouth. A snort comes from next door, and I turn to see Stone standing on his front porch, eyes glued to my body. Oh god, was he there the entire time? He definitely saw the entire thing. First I wake him up with my nightmare screams, and now he witnesses this.My tears spill over. With shaking hands I turn back towards the door and attempt to open it. The keys fall, and I quickly drop down to grab them. The key keeps missing the hole, and I know now that if my skin wasn't already stained red, it would be flushing with embarrassment. A sob escapes me.Why does this have to happen to me? Why couldn’t my dad be normal?When I get inside I slam the door and slide down against it. The only bright side I can see is that grandma isn’t here to see me. To see how pathetic I am.I wipe my tears and trudge up the stairs. I can’t go to school like this. I take another shower, not in the least caring that I’ll be late or that the school will send an automatic voicemail to grandma. I can afford one late pass.After redressing in some jeans and a long sleeve blue shirt, I leave the house.I’m relieved that the halls are empty. After getting my late pass from the secretary in the front office, I make my way to my locker. I slow when I see the red spray paint. Stopping in front of it, I glare at the word written across the space of my locker. Merderer.I’ve never killed anyone. The only crime I’ve made related to taking someone's life was against mosquitoes, flies, and spiders. But just by association, by being his daughter, I’m unfairly marked. His crime becomes mine. “At least fucking spell it right,” I grumble under my breath as I try to wipe the first ‘E’ away. Part of it smudges, but the letter remains. “Damn idiots.” I push away the urge to cry. No more tears, not today. I’ve done enough of that this morning.I remember Stone staring at my egged figure and cringe. I’ll never be able to look at him again. Never be able to make eye contact. Never be able to be in the same room. I twist the number lock and open my locker up. I pull out the text book for my class, a
She stares at Kingston with flushed cheeks, and I roll my eyes. She’s had a crush on him for years, and only after making friends with the others did she grow the vagina to talk to him. I don’t say balls because facts are, vaginas push out babies. Balls cry at the flick of a finger. An image of Mrs. Nolt kicking my dad in the nuts before his murder weapon could reach her comes to mind. Who knows if she actually attempted it, but I tell myself she did. I tell myself that she fought for her life because she wanted to live. Right? Who wants to die?Kingston gives her a casual nod, eyes taking in her figure. No longer seeing the point in being here, because clearly they're done harassing me, I side step them. “As fun as this has been, I’m gonna go,” I mutter. “See ya later, Psycho!” Kensey calls after me. ***Crumpled balls of paper were thrown at the back of my head all throughout the next two classes. And despite the number of them piling up on the ground, the teachers said nothing
I can’t believe Haeden asked me to join. He knows I’m a social pariah, the daughter of a psychopath. Then again he slept with Lacey Parks, even after she got caught getting gang banged by half the football team. He’d fuck anything as long as it had a pussy. With a sigh I lay back and stare up at the bottom of the bleachers. The sight of gum stuck from years ago makes me gag. Not a pretty sight.A yawn escapes me, I’ll just take a nap and catch up on the sleep I missed. ***I sit up from my desk and put away my homework. My back is stiff, butt numb from sitting on it for an hour and a half. I turn around and freeze in my spot. Dad is there, his button up shirt and black slacks are stained a dark red. The smell of iron fills my nose, and blood drips from his collar. “Dad?” I ask, voice trembling. I glance down at the knife held tightly in his hand. It’s sharp, and the blade glistens like liquid rubies. “Dad,
The first time I talked to Kingston Acheves, I was nine and at church. He wore a black button up shirt with matching black slacks. And as he stood next to his father, I couldn't help but notice how pretty this boy was. I stood there, next to my father, the Pastor, as he talked with his dad. I swished my blue summer dress around my thighs, suddenly desperate to get this pretty boy's attention. "Are you always this pretty?" The question is out of my lips, my impulse control severely lacking. "Ariella," I struggle to tear my gaze away from Kingston, the boy who now glowers at me like I said something wrong. But how could I be wrong? Being pretty wasn't a bad thing, it was a good thing. Dad didn't seem to get that though. "Ariella, apologize please. That was very rude." My father tugged my hand, forcing my attention to him, and my brows furrow. I wasn't trying to be rude though."But mommy always said it was nice
The next few days grow repetitive. I'll wake up screaming in the middle of the night from nightmares, and I wonder if I ever woke Stone up again. I pinned a thick blanket over my window, hoping it'll muffle the sound.After the first night, he doesn't come, banging on my door to scold me for it. So, I think it's a good thing.Grandma made a habit of slipping lavender oils in my room, both of us hoping it'll soothe me enough to keep them away, but that hasn't been the case. The day I'm dreading most is finally here; Friday. The day I have to see Mrs. Rivers, the school therapist.After pulling the blanket down from the window, -grandma didn’t like it hanging there- I pause. Across from my window, the window in the house next door is open. In the few weeks I've been living with grandma, I've never seen it like that.Curious, I peer closer. It's dark, the atmosphere inside seems almost wicked. The wal
Should I read it? What if it says something horrible about praising my father again? Curiosity wins me over, and I hold my breath as I open it up.You didn't respond back, my heart is wounded. I couldn't find those that ruined your locker. Don't worry, Ariella. I won't give up so easily. They'll end up just like those your father ended. We have plenty of time to play. My chest starts to ache. I close my eyes and breath deeply through my nose. The memories threaten to return, and bile rises in my throat. I don't recognize the bell going off as I slam the locker shut. I draw attention from those nearby, and they whisper among themselves. I run to the bathroom, the door slamming against the wall. The girls inside that are checking their makeup jump, and glare when they see it’s me. “You don’t look so good, Psycho.” A girl with brunette hair smirks at me. I ignore her and close the door to the open stall. The coff
I resist the urge to scoff. What are the chances that he randomly assigns me the word psychopath, and then randomly pairs me with Lucas? No chances. I don’t believe him. I lift my head and glance around the room. Lucas and Mason are already sitting together, and when I see Lucas glaring at me, a vicious smirk on his face, a sudden wave of defeat fills me. I’m never going to survive this. Not if it’s him. “Today, Ariella.” Mr. Williams snaps at me when I don’t get up from my seat. I sigh and heave myself up. I reluctantly walk over and slump in the seat left open for me, twisting around to face them.Mason isn't really a menace on my radar. He's never talked to me, before or after the mass murder. At least, there's that. But then, who knows if he'll end up joining Lucas in my torment."Where should we work on the project?" I ask, my voice small.The two boys sneer at me, and I flinch.“I’m not going to your place to work on this shit. I don’t wanna die,” Mason spits, hand scratching
With heavy feet, I walk into her office. The environment is warm. Images of the forest, beach, and a sunset are framed on the wall. Along with a kitten and puppy. The walls are painted a soft cream color, and the brown couch matches her oak wood desk. I take a seat on the couch while she sits at her desk. My hands fall onto the pleather of the sofa, and I wonder which side Haeden sat on. It’s cold, not at all warm like seats usually are after they’ve been occupied. Did he sit at all?I can imagine him pacing the floor in front of me, walking from one side of the room to the other like a caged animal.And why does he even see the school therapist? Probably for his drug addiction. “I’m happy you came,” Mrs. Rivers says, drawing my attention to her. She has a notebook open on her desk, a pink pen besides it. I eye it, is that where she’ll be writing her notes about me? “I was wondering if you would show up. I would have had to assign you a detention if you didn’t.”I frown. “So, if I