Asher
It’s been about a week since Liam started tutoring me, and yesterday I handed in my essay. I’m confident in what I wrote, but I can’t help thinking of my father’s taunt regarding my tuition. Knowing my old man would make good on his threat, I know this. As I said, I’m my father’s prodigy, not his son.
“Mr Prince, please stay behind,” Mrs Williams calls as the lunch bell goes.
“Fuck, what did I do now?” I think to myself as I grab my things, and I feel eyes on the back of my head, already knowing that it was Liam staring at me. As soon as the class empties, Mrs Williams gets up and walks towards me, then puts a piece of paper in front of me. I look down, and my heart stopped - it was my essay.
B. I got a fucking B!
I wasn’t sure if I should laugh or cry! When I looked up at Mrs Williams, she had a smile on her face.
“Is Liam tutoring you?” she suddenly asks, and my heart jumps into my throat. How the fuck did she know? Then she chuckles.
“I knew it. Keep it up, Asher, and you’ll be on your way to OSU next year. We have an upcoming test next week, so cram up.” She says, and I nod before she walks away. I take this as my cue to leave and grab my paper from the desk before bolting for the cafeteria.
Fuck yeah! This grade lifts my spirits a fuck ton! I take out my cell phone and snap a picture of my grade before sending it off to Liam with a thank you. I can’t believe this!
“What the fuck is that smile about? Do I have to fight someone?” Fallon’s voice cuts through my thoughts, and I realize that I walked to our usual table on autopilot. I look up at her and show her the paper with a proud grin on my face.
“Wow, babe! Congrats!” She says and flung her arms around me, planting a kiss on my lips.
“Wanna celebrate later?” she asks with a flirtatious wink that actually caused my dick to twitch.
“I’ll pick you up later,” I say and pull her against me before my lips are on hers in a demanding kiss.
I feel a clap on my back. “Looks like your dad’s money is paying off, Prince!” He says when he sees my paper.
“Fuck, I might just ask you for their number later,” Brock comments as well, and all I do is grin while trying to hide my awkwardness.
If only they knew, they wouldn’t be saying that.
For some reason, Fallon picks up on my mood shift and pulls me aside. “Ash, are you okay?” she asks, placing a hand on my arm.
I frown. “Yeah, I am. Why?” I ask, confused because I know I’ve hidden my emotions well over the last few months. But she shakes her head.
“You’ve been acting strange these last few days, and you completely ignore me on most days as well. Did I do something wrong?” She asks, and I immediately feel guilty.
The truth is, I didn’t know if I still wanted Fallon. Before, when I used to look at her, I would feel pride or even some form of love, but not anymore. It’s like my feelings for her have dried up.
But I couldn’t let her know that - the prettiest girl in school needed to be seen with me.
I cup her cheek. “You have it all wrong, baby. I’m just under a lot of pressure right now. My dad is threatening to sponsor the Mountford quarterback if I don’t get my grades up.” I say, hoping this would get her off my back and lucky me—her face screws up into a worrying frown.
“Oh! Damn, babe, I didn’t know it was that bad. Now I feel stupid for thinking it was something I had done,” she says, and a slight blush crossed her cheek, which I kiss.
“It’s never you, don’t worry. Just give me some time to get over this bump, then I’ll be all yours again.” I say, making promises I knew I wouldn’t keep.
She smiles then. “Okay. Pick me up after school, and I’ll make you forget for a little while,”
Oh, fuck. I said I would go with her, but I had to study with Liam this afternoon. Ah, I’ll tell him that I’ll be a bit late - I could do with forgetting for a little while, even if the sex with Fallon wasn’t the same anymore.
The rest of the day goes by quickly, with some teachers remarking on my progress. How the hell did I get better after only a week of Liam’s tutoring? He was crazy good; I don’t think he knew it yet.
But as I think back to how his face lit up after explaining things to me, I couldn’t help but smile. The guy was cool, but I knew we could never be friends outside of school - not with his sexual orientation in a town that hated gays.
“Prince!”
I snap out of my thoughts, remembering where I was and look up at the coach.
“Pay attention; this goes for all of you! Next Friday is the Fall bonfire and pep rally. I want you all there geared up and ready. Everyone is expecting us to crush Mountford in our opening game, so let’s give them hell for even thinking of stepping foot into our territory!” Coach exclaims, riling the team up.
The Fall Bonfire Rally. Damn, I had forgotten about this. The bonfire signals the start of football season and is held a week before we play our first game. The entire town gets into this, and our games are always packed, so I couldn’t afford to pussyfoot around with this either.
To be honest, I wasn’t in the mood for the pep rally at all, but being the quarterback, I’ll be required to go. Ah, fuck, might as well make the best of it then.
***
Liam
It’s been a weird week for me.
Every time Asher leaves my house, I feel like I can breathe for the first time. His presence is overwhelming in a sort of Alpha way. How I keep my cool around him, I don’t know. Those hazel eyes do something to my insides, not to mention his biceps and sandy blonde hair and his delicious aftershave.
Hmm, I need to stop this shit, or I’ll end up hurt. I’m currently in the school library, and it has been home time for about an hour now, but there was a paper I needed to do a few finishing touches on. This requires my attention for now.
I shake the thoughts of those hazel eyes out of my head and decide to check my messages. The name displayed on my screen could have given me a heart attack - Asher Prince. He had sent this earlier in the day, but as usual, my phone was on silent.
When I open the message, a warm feeling crosses my chest; Asher got a B on his paper! Ah, my tutoring was helping! He thanked me for helping him out and said, I smile at the message while my mind drifts to when he winked at me that first day of my tutoring him. I could have died right there - he was too gorgeous to be alive.
Anyway! I got onto my phone to check the time; instead, I got an even bigger distraction. Asher Prince was not good for my health. Why was he pretending to be an asshole in public, but he’s one of the nicest people in person? Was his reputation that sacred to him?
“Guys like Asher Prince are a dime a dozen, especially in a small town like this. They’ll suck you dry and toss you aside as soon as they’re done with you.”
My mother’s words ricochet in my mind and bring me straight down to earth. These words were true, no matter which way I looked at it. I was being used, and he would probably still allow the bullying to continue while using me. I truly am dumb, even with my full ride to my dream college.
Would I be able to get out of this?
I look up, suddenly feeling as if someone is staring at me, and find myself looking up into the clearest green eyes I have ever seen. It was a guy, and he flashed me a smile before continuing to read the book he was holding.
Smiling, I look down at my paperwork and peek up again, only to find his eyes on me once more.
Seth When Asher Prince asked me to be his girlfriend back in high school, I thought it would finally end these fucked up feelings inside of me. I was head cheerleader, smart, up for an Ivy League school and guys saw me as their wet dream personified. Blonde, perky, nice ass and the perfect sized rack. People wanted me, and they wanted to be me; I had it made, boy. Little did they know that I didn’t want any of it, but I was good at faking. I needed to keep up appearances; no one could find out how much I hated myself. I hated my body, I hated my breasts, the curve of my hips, the softness of my voice. I was attracted to men, but I didn’t feel like a woman. I know they say God doesn’t make mistakes, but I do feel like a little error went into making me. I don’t feel like a woman. I don’t feel girly. I hate the skirts, I hate the dresses, the make up and lace panties. The only time I feel like myself is when I strap up my breast
LiamA headache blinds me as soon as I open my eyes, but thankfully the blinds are drawn, and the room is dark. I slowly sit up in bed and allow my eyes to adjust to the room, but then my heart drops when my eyes eventually focus.I’m at home, I’m in the room I share with Asher, dressed in my most comfortable pj’s, and I have no idea how I got home.Panic grips my chest; I don’t know what happened last night after my second cocktail. Did I come home and fight with Asher? Did I actually fucking drive home?!I look around on my nightstand for my cell phone but don’t see it at all. I don’t even see my glasses. What the fuck is the time now? It’s Friday, and I’m probably late for my first class by now. Deciding to suck it up, I go to the bathroom to do my business then head downstairs to my fate.The smell of bacon and garlic mushrooms make my stomach rumble, and I realise that I didn&rsq
AsherThree am, and Liam is still not home. Seth and I have looked everywhere we thought he might be, but we’ve come up empty. So here I am, pacing the porch while waiting for his Audi to pull into our street.The sadness I felt has been replaced by worry and fear for him. He’s never switched his phone off; we can’t even track him through his cell. Where the fuck could he have gone? Is he safe?“Ash!” I hear Seth call out from inside and am about to go inside when he bursts through the door. “I know where he is! Let’s go! How could I have forgotten?!” He says, then pulls me towards my truck. “I didn’t think he would go to a bar by himself because that’s just not who Liam is!”A bar? Liam is alone at a bar?“Which bar, Seth? How do you know this?” I ask, starting up my truck and pulling out of the driveway. When I look over at Seth, I see him biting
Asher “Liam!” I run out after Liam, but he’s already speeding away in his car. I call out to him, but I get no reaction whatsoever; he doesn’t even slow down.“Shit! Shit! Shit!” I exclaim, punching the concrete garage wall and running back inside to grab my cell phone. We can’t leave things like this, and I won’t allow us to end things like this even if it is all my fault.Liam doesn’t answer when I try his cell, but I keep on trying even after he’s killed the call.How could I have been so stupid? We spoke about having our anniversary dinner indoors and reliving our first night together, but now it doesn’t look like that will be happening. In fact, it feels like Liam has given up on me, on us.I sink down into the couch, my eyes going to everything he has set up for us and finally landing on my gift. Sighing, I pick up the gift box and open it, my heart breaking a
LiamHe walks into the living room, swaying a bit on his feet as he does so, and I stand up. “Hey, baby. You've been waiting long?” He asks me in a slurred voice, scratching the back of his hair, and I shake my head. I know he’s seen the balloon because I saw the dread creeping into his eyes as he did.I shake my head and walk towards him, catching a whiff of stale cigarette smoke on his clothing. “You know, Asher, I decided to be patient with you because I knew you loved me and wanted to make things right, but now, I’m not so sure,” I say, scoffing. I hand over the balloon to him and smile, despite my tears.“Last year today, you claimed me as yours after the first game. It was the best night of my life, knowing I had someone who actually wanted me for more than sex this time around. I felt loved; I felt accepted and cared for. It’s amazing how a year can change someone.”Horror flashes
Asher The after game win always feels like such a rush, and it doesn’t matter if you’re playing it or watching it on TV. When your team scores that winning point and you’re the one to do it, there is nothing quite like it! During the trip back to New Haven, I couldn’t stop thinking about the guy waiting for me at home. I would never have pictured living my college life like this, much less with another guy. I thought I would be at OSU, living it up in my dad’s shadow, pretending to be straight, fucking more girls than I can count and pledging to a frat house. Instead, I’m spending weekends at football practice, actually studying and coming home in the evenings to my boyfriend and ex-girlfriend, who is now transitioning, watching movies and cooking dinners. What a weird turn my life took, and I wouldn't want it any other way. It’s four pm the day after our match, and Coach has decided to treat us to congratulatory drinks. Obviously, I followed
Liam“I’m going to kill him,” Seth warns, pointing the knife he’s using to chop the veg for tonight’s supper at me. “I’m going to fucking kill him.” The glare in his eyes terrifies me, and luckily, it isn’t meant for me!I shake my head. “You can’t do that; then I’ll lose the both of you,” I say, putting my hands together as if handcuffed, and Seth shakes his head.Seth scoffs. “I’ve watched ‘Making A Murderer,’ I think I’m okay.” He says, and I roll my eyes at him. Yes, I told him about what happened this afternoon, including the flirty student.He leans on the kitchen counter and stares at me. “Liam, you need to speak to him about your feelings. Ash probably thinks things are okay between the two of you because you haven't told him how you really feel about this. Miscommunication can ruin even the most secure relations
LiamAsher came home at 4 am last night and got up earlier than me. He’s left for school as well, while I’m sitting here nursing a hangover before my first class at 11. The movie and wine with Seth lasted for two movies, and we both cried like babies, mostly because of the effect the wine was having on us.I shuffle downstairs and see a note from him saying he’ll be home late because of practice tonight, and I sigh. Alone again, then? Should I get used to this?My cell phone ringing catches my attention, and I answer it quickly as it is not helping with my hangover. “Hello? Liam? It’s dark. Are you there?”The voice of my mom breaks through the silence in the house, and I roll my eyes at my stupidity; she’s on a video call with me.“Sorry, mom!” I apologise, then turn the phone to face me, and I smile. I can’t get over the fact that my mom has been glowing over the last fe
LiamNew Haven is different; there’s no claustrophobic feel here, no judgy eyes from our peers, and everyone seems… nicer. It’s been just over six months since our move, and to say that Asher has blossomed is putting it lightly.Waterford stifled his abilities, and his father dulled his shine, but now that he’s not around either, he’s a completely different person. Obviously, he’s on the football team, and they love him. Well, everyone seems to love Asher here; he’s become even more popular than when he was at Waterford High. He also doesn’t hide the fact that he’s gay and with me, but girls still flock around him. In fact, he seems to be proud to hold my hand and kiss me in public.Although, I have to admit that I’m jealous of his popularity. Not that I want to be popular as well, but that everyone knows him now. We can never just walk somewhere without him stopping to chat with someo