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I never liked parties.
The blaring music lined with reverberating voices, the cheers of drunken states, and the clamor of fleshes craving for contact that would raise their high, they are ever so present in all chaotic manner. The laughs radiate through people's faces and vibrate through each other's ears but I wonder if whichever transcends happiness to their hearts. If in the absence of nicotine and liquor, would anything ever feel ecstatic.
My introverted self could just never handle the type of social situation. I never liked parties. But Jackson did so I liked them anyway.
"You know I can't be seen with you." I discussed as we were ab
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