Leave it all behind

Leave it all behind.

I wasn't being foolish just like Martins had thought,I was trying my best to make sure Luke had done enough damage to my heart, When it was time for revenge,I wouldn't care about how he felt,That was probably the reason Madam Katie asked me to see him again and even beg to take me back.

" Luke…. please,I have nowhere to go, I know that I am a mess but please you can not throw our our ten years of being together…" Apologizing or rather begging him disgusted me , Why was I sorry? After all I was the one that got cheated on, Himself and Nelly should be on their knees begging me but I guess it didn't matter.

" What are you doing?" Martins moved closer to where I was leaning, He stood blocking me from Luke's view and he whispered, His voice was filled with annoyance and I know he wondered,If I was dumb or just like he said ,Dense.

" Please stay out of this…" I replied my voice barely over a whisper.

" Carina! What is your problem? Why…"

" Luke! Please I beg you…Take Me back, Think about our daughter Leah…" I stuttered, Embarrassment enveloped me.

" Honey…Please take care of her , This sight is pissing me off " Nelly scoffed and my eyes met with her ,I wondered if she was even my own sister,I told her everything,How Luke would treat me and constantly abuse me emotionally with his words,I told her everything,How much I wanted to make a happy family with Luke, She would encourage me saying Luke would love me one day but yet she was his mistress.

" That's it …Get out of my house right now ! I did say you shouldn't step foot into my property didn't I ? Leave Carina!" Luke yelled, Even though it wasn't new to me ,My weak eyes shed tears.

" Lemme walk her out" Nelly said,She walked to where I was and dragged me outside,I was struggling but her firm was strong, Martins was glaring at Luke with annoyance as Nelly pushed me outside.

" Let me go !" I finally pushed her away and she smirked.

" What is it ? It must be fun isn't it? Watching your kid sister suffer after everything she told you…Nelly you were my best friend, You were the only one I had that I could talk to…You listened to me and even cried while consoling me but yet you did this !" My eyes suddenly started to tear and I faced my sister head on,I couldn't even look at her in her eyes,It made me sick.

" I should consider acting right? What do you think?" Nelly smirked, Immediately the countenance on her face changed,It was a smooth transition.

" Now listen to me Carina… I did convince Luke to divorce you even though he was going to divorce you anyways ,I just made it sooner…Shouldn't you be excited that you got divorced to the man that treated you like trash ?" She asked and I paused,I wasn't going to let her play mind games with me ,She was the one that should be feeling guilty and unsure and not me ,I did say my relationship with Luke was trashy and there were times I wanted to run away but I wanted to be there for my daughter,I didn't want her to be raised my single parents. I wanted to be loved and happy in my marriage with Luke because I loved him,I didn't deserved to be thrown out like I was some theif.

" I wanted to build a family with Luke" I stuttered and Nelly let out a loud laughter.

" Awwww….A family,She said don't you worry Carina,I will make that family with him and I will be a good daughter to your daughter, That's only if she doesn't get on my nerves"

" Do not harm my child!" I yelled at her .

" I'm not harming my sweet niece,I just don't like nagging kids and she looks like one and I might as well put her in her place" Nelly cackled and I quickly grabbed the collar of her dress before I could say or do anything,She pushed me away from her.

" Carina…You have always been a loser since you were a kid ,Why do you think Mom and Dad doesn't care about you? They didn't even attend your wedding, It's because Luke is mine and they knew that for a fact but you decided to get pregnant for my own man …" Nelly frowned.

" You never said it for once that Luke Mayfair was your boyfriend, There was not a single day that his name was mentioned in our household until I brought him home,Nelly…You had a boyfriend at that time,So why use that as a lame excuse to betray your own kid sister and make her life even worse " I cried out but yet my sister wasn't moved,She kept on picking on her fingers like someone of irrelevance was speaking.

" Why can't you say anything now Nelly?"

" You see Carina…if I were you,I would get a job in a restaurant or even a cheap store,I don't know what job is open to an highschool dropout, I'm just trying to help out" Nelly chuckled,I clenched my fist,My mind was boiling with rage.

" Where will you stay , I'm sure Mom and Dad doesn't want their little black sheep daughter that brought constant shame to tbe family to start staying at their place…so instead of you to try begging Luke who is mine as you already know , I urge you to work" Nelly smiled, She was being sarcastic, She didn't care for Carina,One bit.

" Nelly I will never forgive you or forget everything you did to me and I will be sure to repay in hundreds of folds…I will gain custody of my child, Just you watch and see "

I wanted it ,I wanted the power Madam Katie had bestowed on me , I wanted to smash their heads immediately, Now I understood what Madam Katie was going with this and she was right.

" Just stay out and never come back here" Nelly warned and walked out.

As Nelly grabbed Carina to push her outside, Martins was about to stop her when Luke intervened.

" Martins! You still won't let it go will you ?" Luke smirked and martins walked to where Luke was and he grabbed his collar.

" Why did you get married to her if you wanted to make her life this miserable…Why !" He yelled at her and Luke burst into laughter.

" You know the story too well… I never wanted to get married to her,Martins you should know…She forced that marriage on me " Luke yelled.

" Luke, You will regret what you did to her and I promise you…Nelly! Really, You are so heartless…She considered Nelly as her only family,her one true friend and you chose Nelly to cheat with" Martins roared in annoyance.

" That's what makes the game more fun bro" Luke snickered and Martins pushed him down,He turned to leave and he saw Nelly standing behind him.

" Is there something we don't know ? Why do you care so much for Carina?" Nelly asked and Luke burst into laughter.

" It's because he has a crush on her, If not why will you be so worried about her and I remember how he walked so hard to stop our marriage"

" Why will I have a crush on someone like Carina?" Luke scoffed.He said it without even realizing what he had said.

" Wow…." I said from behind,I had dropped my slides when Nelly was dragging me out and I walked into an insulting scene,If martins saw me as a flop.

" Why are you surprised, Carina? Who do you think wants to end up with a highschool drop out who couldn't even have a happy marriage, My uncle is a business guru, The most richest and powerful in this family even though he is from my mother's family tree ,He has dominated and you think he even care about you" Luke laughed rolling his eyes.

" I didn't expect anything less from him,He has your mother's blood anyways and technically also your blood,So I didn't expect anything more or less from him…" I grabbed my slides and I started to walk out,I wanted to disappear or to save this embarrassment. I hoped that the earth would open up and swallow me .

" Did she just insult my mother…. Carina!"

" If you take a step and follow her,I will show you why they call me a ruffian, Don't you dare move an inch" Martins commanded and because of the fear he had for Martins,Luke froze. Martins glare at Nelly and he shaked his head with a sign of disappointment,He walked to where his car was and yelled.

" Open your damn gate !"

" It's not a manual gate, " Luke rolled his eyes.

" He knew that , He just wanted to boss you around" Nelly scoffed.

Martins started his car and drove out.He started to move slowly and finally cut up with Carina. She was walking like her legs hurt and he started to tail her.

" Carina…Let me give you a ride" He said, still driving slowly to keep up with me.I paused and I turned to his direction.

"No thank you! I do not need your help" I scoffed.

" About what I said earlier…"

" Do not apologize to me ,It only makes me look even more stupid.Why should I care about what you think and why do you want to apologize?"

Martins trying to apologize to me didn't sit right with me because it was making me look pitiful,I didn't want that. I was tired, tired of always begging to be seen ,I was tired of always begging for attention. What I wanted right now was a glow up ,I wanted to be elevated and care only about myself.

" Okay…Carina , At least let me drop you off, You can't keep walking like this , You already hurt your legs and I know you don't have money " Martins kept insisting,I couldn't understand Martins,He only showed this side when he was with me , For the times I spent with him before I got married,He was funny and spoke casual to me but others saw him as cold and rude ,I always felt like it was because he saw me as an instrument of mockery because he was always teasing me .

My leg did hurt and if I kept walking,It could even get worse.When I caught Luke cheating,I stepped on broken glass and I left the wound without disinfecting or even paying attention to it.

" How did you hurt your leg?" Martins asked immediately as I entered the car.

" Mind your business Martins" I said looking outside the window.

" You speak casually with me , I'm five years older…You know that right" He smiled teasing me again.

" I'm sorry Mr Martins" I chuckled.It was the first time I was smiling today and he noticed.

" I made you smile,it only means you get a reward, Where are you going?"

" My family house" The sound of that already made me sick to my stomach,My gaze was outside the window.

" WHAT!" Martins yelled , His legs matched the break and he stopped the car immediately, Lucky me I had my seat belts on or else,I would have hit my head.

" Why are you stopping the car ?"

" Why are you going to your parents house?" Martins turned and looked at me , I have always wondered why he looked at me with those eyes. Even when we ran into each other during events when I was married to Luke,It was like he was remorseful or it was rage ,I just couldn't point out what it was. And so I would avoid him regularly.

" Well …I need them to know that Luke and I got divorced"